Page 91 of As the Rain Falls (Sainte Madeleine #1)

Mom got drunk last night. Beckett was asleep, and I didn’t want to wake him up, so I took care of it. She seemed so sad. I don’t know what to do to make her feel better. I just want everyone to be happy again like we used to be when I was little

I keep having nightmares about what I saw, but I’m not even sure anymore.

Some days I think I made the whole thing up because she seems okay to me.

No one will believe me because I’m not a good person, and I’ve been mean to other kids sometimes.

I was really mean to Alice. I’m mean to Angelina sometimes, too.

I just hate everything.

Especially him.

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I talked to Mr. Leblanc today but he didn’t think I was telling the truth. He laughed at me.I know what I saw through the window. It was real. I know it but it doesn’t even matter anymore. No one is listening to me.

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Antony told me he doesn’t know if he loves me anymore.