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I sat up on the side of the bed as my son and Blessyn slept peacefully in the bed.

Sleep was just something I hadn’t done since this happened.

I often replayed that night trying to see if I could hear a voice or see a damn face.

I always came up blank. Getting up, I hopped in the bathroom to splash some cold water on my face.

My walker made too much noise and I didn’t want to wake her up.

Blessyn was dealing with so much anxiety that she didn’t want anyone around her that she didn’t know.

I stood there and put some pressure down on my leg.

A pain shot up my back but I ate it because I needed to walk.

The longer I wasn’t walking the more I felt like shit wasn’t getting done.

Perc wasn’t answering his phone since he dropped us off yesterday and I was concerned for his crazy ass.

He was still losing his mind behind Merci and when I went down, I knew that sent him over the edge.

“Why you up? It’s three in the morning.” Blessyn sat the walker next to me.

“Go back to bed before our son wake up once he realizes we not in the bed.”

“I can’t sleep. I’m always up at this time.”

She rubbed my back as she stood behind me.

Staring in the mirror, we both had bags under our eyes.

I watched as her hands traced over my chest. She placed small kisses on my back and slipped her hands inside my briefs to massage my dick.

It didn’t take long to rise to her touch.

She softly stroked until I snatched her hand and pulled it out.

Hopping to the tub, I pulled her with me.

I pulled my briefs down so my dick could get free.

She had on a thin ass pair of boy shorts so I pulled them bitches to the side so she could slide down on my dick.

Blessyn’s pussy was so wet as she slid down on me.

I wrapped my arms around her waist and let her ride me until I felt her raining down on my dick.

The smacking sound that was echoing off the bathroom walls only amped me up to beat the fuck outta her pussy.

This was the first time we made love this bland.

Our sex was like some shit out of a porn scene.

It was all good because as soon as we were able too, I was sure that the shit was going to be phenomenal.

If she kept throwing this tight shit at me, she was going to pregnant all the time.

The sound of my son crying made Blessyn jump up off me before I can shoot my load up in her.

My nut went flying all over the bathroom floor.

We both laughed as she straightened herself up so she could go and tend to him.

Nothing was wrong with him, he just had to be up under somebody.

As soon as Blessyn laid her ass in the bed, he climbed on her and took his ass back to sleep.

I stood in the bathroom door and admired my family.

Our shit wasn’t perfect but we were working on that.

Blessyn looked at me as I struggled to get back in the bed.

I didn’t want to tell her, but my back was on fire.

After what we just did, I’ll take the pain every time.

“That’s why you need to stay away from sex until you’re able to fully walk. You gon’ fuck up your back,” Blessyn whispered.

“Shit, for that pussy, I’ll throw my whole leg away. Ain’t shit ‘bout to stop me from getting that.”

“Why the fuck is he here?” Perc asked as our father walked his ass up.

Blessyn wanted to lay her mama out at a river that she used to go to as a child. No one knew about it so I was confused about why this pussy ass nigga was here. Before he could make it up to Syn, I approached him first.

“Why you here?” Perc stopped him in his tracks.

“Move your ass outta my way.”

“Nah, take yo ass on. Nobody wants you here.”

“You sho? Blessyn called me to be here. Have you forgot that I was in her life too?”

“It’s okay. I called him. I thought he deserved to be here since this is where they used to meet and have dates,” Blessyn told us.

“You mean to tell me that your muthafuckin’ ass can come here but couldn’t come to my mama shit?” I asked my dad.

“Let the shit go, Lucky. Fuck this nigga,” Perc stepped in between us and stood toe to toe.

My pops laughed and stepped around us to walk up to Blessyn.

“That nigga just really showed us that he ain’t ‘bout shit. Pussy ass,” Perc spat.

“I knew the nigga was a pussy when he made all that fuss and didn’t show up to the funeral. At least we know who he really loved.” We both watched as he helped Blessyn release the ashes into the river.

He stared at me as he hugged Blessyn. This was the same man that was responsible for my existence. I felt like he was being funny by holding on to her longer than he should. I started towards them but Perc stopped me.

“Let that nigga have this moment. He only tryin’ get under your skin.”

“Y’all make sure you take care of yourself. It seems like everyone ‘round y’all dying. I told y’all when you were youngins’ that karma ain’t have no name on it. It’s sad all the women dying off. Maybe y’all need to grab a set of balls and man the fuck up,” He patted us both on the shoulder.

If Blessyn didn’t walk up, I was about to put him on his ass. He was disrespectful as fuck but he had her fooled if she thought that nigga met her any good. All three of us watched as he pulled away.

“Don’t call that nigga ever again without talking to me first,” I spat.

“You better bring your voice down when you talking to me. Don’t forget he was in my mama life too. He was the only man I knew as my father.” Blessyn grabbed her neck. “I don’t have time for this shit. Take me home.”

Perc drove us back to his spot where it didn’t take her no time to get out of the car and slam the door. I sat in the car with Perc in silence for a minute. What I was about to say was going to sound off but I was trusting myself and my gut.

“I think pops did all this shit,” I said once Blessyn made it in the house.

Perc put his phone down and looked at me crazy.

“The nigga off but he doesn’t have the damn heart.

You know how many times this nigga got his ass slapped by mama and didn’t do shit.

Not mention that one time he tried to fight that nigga from South Carolina ‘bout his bread and got his ass whooped until we rode our bikes down the street to help him. Nah, this nigga ain’t do this. ”

“Oh, he did it. That’s what he wants us to think. He wants us to think he too weak and that’s why he can keep coming at us.”

“I don’t believe this shit. You still on them pain pills nigga?”

“Nope, I’m thinking clear as shit right now.”

“Get the fuck outta my car with that. Go lay down or some shit.”

“Be careful and answer the phone when I goddamn call you. I’m already at your mercy when it comes to moving around the city.”

“Yeah.”

Blessyn was lying across the bed crying when I walked in the room.

Today wasn’t easy for her and the fact she didn’t have her sister didn’t make it better.

I fucked up when I jumped down her throat about my pops showing up.

All this shit was annoying and it was fucking with everybody mentally.

Yet, I had to be the one to stay strong when it was days I wanted to break down too.

“Baby, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to come at you like that but something off about him and I don’t want you to get hurt.” She didn’t respond so I kept talking. “I know you worried about a lot of shit like your sister and shit. Hell, we worried too.”

“Why ain’t nobody doing anything then?” She looked up at me with bloodshot eyes.

“I’m…I’m trying to but it’s only so much I can do right now. If you think of something, shit tell me.”

“All the money you got, you can’t find someone to at least investigate the shit so we can know where she is? I know you have resources. You know people in high places.”

My mind was clouded but she was right. I knew a few people I could use to at least find out where her phone and shit was at.

The only thing that made me afraid to go that far was Perc.

If he knew where she was, he was going to find her because he loved her that much.

I didn’t blame him because I would do the same thing for Blessyn.

“Aight, I can do that.”

I pulled my phone out and got to work.