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C osta Rica didn’t owe me shit. That was the most fun I’d had in a while.

Now that we were back home, it was time for me to get back to the money.

The trip was paid for by Lucky and I didn’t have to spend a dime, but bills were due and my rent was high as hell to live in this condo.

It was time for me to start back doing hair.

Because I was doing it out of my house, I took appointment through my DM’s so I could filter out who I wanted in my house.

I had my first client coming up in a few hours to get a frontal done.

I had the hair colored and ready for her arrival.

I only was going to take two to three clients a day so I wouldn’t be on my feet long.

My baby was already making my back hurt.

My doorbell started ringing and a wave of frustration came over me.

I didn’t want to be disturbed while I was setting my living room up for my client.

It wasn’t Blessyn, she said she was cutting hair all day.

I took a deep breath in and exhaled before I opened the door.

“You got a minute?” Perc asked, standing at my door looking fine as fuck.

We hadn’t spoken since the night he sent me a text, so I was surprised that he was here. I stepped aside and let him in, making sure to close the door behind me.

“I wanted to come ask you one question and I need you to be honest with me.”

“Okay,” I crossed my arms over my chest.

“Is that baby mine?” He stared me in my eyes.

There was no need to lie him about the truth. It wasn’t going to change the fact that he walked out when I needed him the most.

“Yes.”

“Damn, why you ain’t say shit?” He paced the floor.

“You walked out on me after I begged you not to. Why would I tell you when you didn’t care.

You assumed some shit because I was fucking with another dude.

I understand where you were coming from but you didn’t give me time.

Just a few months ago, I was ready to end this baby life and mine too.

I told you I was in a dark place, and you walked out the same door you just walked your ass in. ”

“My bad.”

“Okay, so what you want now? I have a client coming in a few hours.”

“You just told me you carrying my child and you trying to put me out like we ain’t got shit to talk about.”

“She not here yet so we have nothing to talk about. I don’t want you and you don’t want me. You made that clear months ago when you blocked my number and unfollowed me. I wanted to tell you but how was I going to do that?”

“You know I love you, Merci. A blind person can see that.”

“That can’t fix this. I’ve learned to do this shit without a nigga and that includes you.

When I do decide to let a man in, I know what to look for.

What me and you had was dysfunctional with your baby mama and shit.

We couldn’t go anywhere without her popping up.

I can’t be looking over my back when I have my daughter with me.

You can deal with that shit, but I can’t, we both know I’m not a fighter. ”

“That’s not a problem. I’ve never let her touch you. We gotta be able to get along for our daughter.”

“And we will but that doesn’t mean that I have to be with you or deal with you. When she gets here, you are free to do whatever with her because she’s part of you, but as far as me and you, that will never be again.”

Perc grabbed me and pulled me into him. “Look at me.” I looked up at him.

“I love you and I respect everything you are saying but I’ll keep fighting until I get you back.

I wanna raise my daughters with you.” He tried to kiss me but I jerked away.

He squeezed my neck and stuck his tongue down my throat. I opened up and kissed him back.

I missed him so much. The aggression and love that he showed me had my heart racing.

He lifted me up and sat me on top of him on the sofa.

The more we kissed, the wetter I got. It had been months since we had been this close.

Lifting my dress over my head, he took my swollen breast in his mouth.

Perc lifted his hips slightly to slip his shorts off.

He slapped his dick against my swollen clit.

We had no business doing this shit because after I got what I needed, he had to go, and I wasn’t speaking to his ass until our daughter entered the world.

Perc would never really understand how he hurt me.

That shit that Ben wife did was bullshit compared to Perc not being there when I needed him.

He attended to every part of my body as we stared into each other’s eyes.

Our love was complicated. He wrapped me right back into his web.

Love was dangerous and if I wasn’t careful, I was going to right back with him and dealing with Lexus.

My life was peaceful now. I deserve so much more than drama in my life.

“I love you,” he kissed me as he nutted in me.

“I love you too.”

I did love him but not enough to take his ass back. He could remove his dick and take his ass back home. As he got back dressed, I went to the bathroom to clean myself up and giving him time to leave but he was sitting on the sofa when I returned.

“You can leave now,” I told him as I started back prepping for my client.

“I thought we were...”

“Nah, we not nothing. We fucked just like you always do and we back to square one,” I cut him off.

He got his ass up and left. The quickest way to see if a muthafucka wants you is to stop wanting their ass. They always come running back. Fuck his ass and his feelings.