Page 37

I made sure I was pretty as fuck before I headed to the jail to see Perc.

My new wig that I installed was flowing like water all the way down to my ass.

The light blonde streaks I added to the front made my bright skin glow.

Since I lost my baby, I had lost all my baby fat and was slimming back down to my normal size.

I made sure not to put on anything too revealing that would stop me from making it through.

My heart was racing as I pulled up to the jail.

This was not how I wanted to see him but I had some shit get off my chest and I’m sure he did too.

I went through the process of getting in and took a seat at the table to wait for him.

The thick glass that separated everyone from their loved ones was intimidating.

Perc came walking towards me in chains. He had lost some weight but overall, he looked good.

As soon as his ass touched the seat, I snatched the phone up and waited for him to pick up.

“You look good as fuck,” Perc licked his lips and stood up to get a better look.

“How you been in here?”

“I’m straight. Nothing to worry ‘bout. Just ready to get home to you, that’s all.”

“About that…we can’t be together.”

“Merci go ‘head on with that shit. I don’t need any negative shit right now. Let me think in my muthafuckin’ mind that when I get out of here, I can be with my baby mama. Have you seen my baby?”

“Yeah, I had her yesterday. She’s doing good and Lucky is making sure she is taken care of.”

“That’s all a nigga like to hear. I appreciate you for coming down here to see me. Do you need anything?”

“How you asking me if I need anything and you in here?”

“’Cause I can still give you what you need in here.”

“I’m good Perc. Do you need anything?”

“Besides you and my daughter, no. Have you went back in the shop yet?”

“No, you haven’t heard?”

“I ain’t heard shit. What the fuck going on?”

“Blessyn got robbed at gunpoint.”

Perc slammed his phone up against the glass causing me to jump. “These niggas think shit is sweet out here ‘cause I’m locked up. They know not to try no fuckin’ shit like that when I’m up there.”

“She’s good and Lucky is handling everything.”

“I gotta get the fuck up outta here.”

“Perc I don’t wanna upset you but if you plan on being with me, you gotta make some major changes.

I don’t want the street you anymore. A lot of people are getting hurt and I feel like it’s because of the shit you be in.

Your mom, my sister, and my daughter. Like when is enough, enough?

I don’t want to be out with you and have to look around in fear.

While you in here, you really need to sit and think about your life.

If you want me when you get out, think about what I just said. ”

“I got you, baby.”

“Hold your head up and we got you on the outside. We’ll see you soon.”

“Love you, Merci.”

“I love you too, Perc.”

My day was made. Even though I didn’t like seeing him like that, it was good to see him in good spirits.

My intentions were to break thing off with him completely, but he shut me down.

I didn’t want to, but things had to change.

My daughter would be here if it wasn’t for his baby mama.

His mama may still be alive if it wasn’t for his ass too.

It was things like that making me wish I could walk away from him and never look back but my heart was telling me to wait it out.

I promised his daughter that we would eat ice cream today with her TT Blessyn.

Lately, she’s been the little light that made me feel better since losing my own child.

My daughter looked just like her except she was light skinned like me.

Spending time with her gave me hope that one day I’ll be able to have a baby of my own.

I stopped to grab our ice cream with all the trimmings and headed back to my car to run right into Ben and his wife.

I was hoping they didn’t see me but leave it to her to want to start some shit.

“I knew I would run into your ass soon.”

“Look, you got your nigga right? Why are you sweating me? I don’t want him no more and I ain’t fucked with him in forever. He’s all yours ma. Get the fuck off my nuts ‘bout him.”

“Who the fuck you think you talking to?”

“Ben please get your wife. Are you still feeling me or some shit for her to still have animosity against me?” We both looked at him.

He stood his goofy ass there and didn’t say a word.

That let me know his ass still wanted me but couldn’t say what he wanted to say in front her manly looking ass.

I saw right through his ass but I was no longer stuck in his web.

When I got stranded in Tennessee, I told myself that I would never deal with him again.

“You gone answer her? We both want to know,” his wife stated.

“Come on.” He grabbed his wife’s hand and pulled her towards the entrance of the store.

“Was that my husband baby you had?” She stopped and snatched her hand away.

I didn’t owe this bitch shit. What I had just went through with my daughter was traumatizing and the only person that I had to worry about how they felt was Perc.

“I don’t owe neither of you shit, now have a nice damn day.”

I drove off looking in my rear-view mirror at the two then still standing there.

They could think and assume all they wanted.

That was something they had to deal with and not me.

I was over dealing with niggas and their bitches fucking with me.

If I couldn’t have that nigga to myself, I don’t want them.