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I was hurt that I had no one in my corner.

It’s been two days and I had been closed up in my house trying my best not to break down.

The one thing that I loved to do, I couldn’t because my sister fired me.

Couldn’t even do the shit out of my condo because all my shit was at the shop and I didn’t want to get into it with her for going in there to get it.

Perc bitch ass was ignoring me and that was really driving me nuts.

I ended up catching a ride with a female truck driver.

A complete stranger was nice enough to drop my ass off at a truck stop in Atlanta and I still had to get an Uber into the city.

My sister was wrong for leaving me out there like that.

Anything could’ve happened to me and she left because of some shit I said.

Khi loved her but that nigga was fucking bitches left and right while Blessyn was trying to start her business.

That’s why he bought the shop because he knew she would be occupied trying to build her clientele.

When he died, I wanted to tell her but she was going through it from their loss.

I was hurting too from losing Kj. He was my world just like he was my own.

That was just another thing that added trauma to my life.

The loss of Kj made me weak but what really got me was waking in every now and then and seeing my sister drowning in her sorrow with alcohol from losing two children and a nigga.

What I said was harsh but it was real and I couldn’t help that.

She needed to know. It may not have been the right time but she still deserved to know.

Blessyn was living her life with her new nigga and I was locked away trying to decide if I wanted to call Perc or not and break the news to him that I was pregnant.

I was trying to save myself the embarrassment and just get rid of it.

Honestly, I didn’t know who the father of my unborn baby was but I was almost sure it was Perc’s.

I picked my phone up to call him but a knock at the door stopped me.

My heart stopped when I opened the door to see Perc.

“Look, I know we mad at each other and shit, but I needed to teach you a lesson. I told you a long time ago to leave that nigga alone but you kept fuckin’ him.

Every fuckin’ time you call me, I come runnin’ and for the first time, I didn’t come to your rescue you make me out to be a monster.

Everything ain’t ‘bout you, Merci. Think ‘bout others sometimes.”

“I’m sorry. It was Blessyn’s fault that I even had to call you.”

“Nah, don’t blame her for this shit either. You got tricked and if anybody should be the blame it should be you. I bet you ain’t mad at your married nigga but you mad at us. You really need to check yourself.” Perc poked me in the middle of my forehead.

“You right,” I said defeated.

Perc walked in the house and sat on the sofa. I hadn’t had time to clean up my mess since I made it back home. Sitting on the table, in a napkin was my pregnancy test. Just a few minutes ago, I was ready to tell him and now that he was sitting here, I was hoping he didn’t see it.

“You hungry or thirsty?” I asked him.

“Nah, but you really need to clean this fuckin’ shit up. Any nigga that like a nasty muthafucka is nasty too. That’s why I don’t lay up in here until you clean this shit up.”

“I’ll clean up if it makes you happy.”

I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and get myself together so I could clean up and cook.

Another thing my sister taught me was how to cook.

What a lot of people thought was nasty was just junky to me.

I knew where everything was though. I was single and didn’t have any kids.

Why did I have to have a squeaky-clean house?

“Aye, what this is?” Perc waved the test in my face.

“It’s a positive pregnancy test. I was going to tell you about it when we started back talking.”

“Tell me what? You don’t think your baby is mine, do you?

You been fuckin’ that nigga all up in this shit.

As bad as I would love to be the father of your kids, but I know your triflin’ ass throw pussy around for a lil’ bit of change that you can just get from me.

That’s how I know you love the money more.

For the right price, you’ll give me up, wouldn’t you? ”

“What? I would never do no shit like that to you. Believe it or not, I love you. I can’t stop the shit that I do but that doesn’t stop me from loving you. For you to stand in my face and say what you said to me lets me know that carrying this baby isn’t what I need to do.”

“I don’t give a fuck how you feel ‘bout what I said. It’s the truth. The only reason you fuckin’ with that nigga is ‘cause of the money. Tell me I’m lyin’.” He got up from the sofa and came into the kitchen.

The tears were ready to spill out of my face.

I wanted this to be his baby but deep down I didn’t know and if it wasn’t, he was going to kill me.

As he stood in front of me, I could feel that this was going to be the last time we talked.

If I had to get rid of this baby to keep him, I was willing to do it.

“You can’t answer me, can you?”

“What do I need to do? I’ll get rid of the baby. I don’t want to lose what we got. Not about a baby, Perc.”

“Nah, don’t ever do that for any nigga. Life is precious. Keep your baby and don’t let me or any other nigga stop you from doing what you want.”

“Perc what are you saying to me?”

“I can’t fuck with you like that no mo’. I got love for you and shit but I can’t do this with you. We fuck, then we mad, and then fuckin’ again. I’m good on that ‘cause I don’t wanna share. We been at this shit long enough and you still can’t make up your mind if you wanna be with me.”

“Please don’t do this to me. I’m in a dark ass place and if you walk out on me, I won’t have anyone. I’m begging you not to leave me like this.”

“Ain’t nothing I can do for you. You made this bed now you need to lay in that muthafucka, you feel me.”

“You really doing this? After all, we been through you ready to throw the shit away, Perc?”

“You did this, ma. Don’t blame a fuck ass thing on me.”

“Please, Perc.” I tried to touch him but he slapped my hand away.

Perc backed away from me and headed to the door.

I wanted to run behind him and fall on my knees but I saw my mama do that shit one too many times.

I’ll figure this shit out on my own. I had enough money to last me and Ben was texting and begging so if I needed to, I’ll drain his ass dry. Fuck everybody.