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A week had gone by, and Blessyn still hadn’t gone into labor.

I made sure to stay in contact with her and sent her mama over to stay with her.

Today was my first time seeing my brother since he got locked up.

Nothing made me happier than to see the smile on his face when he saw me.

The plan that I had worked out was going to get him free, but I needed him to understand it was going to take a little longer.

“Bruh what the fuck you doing in here? Are you eating?”

“I’m not eating this bullshit they feeding us in here. I go to commissary and stack up though. Wassup wit’ yo ass though?”

“Nigga I’m good but I’m not here to talk ‘bout me.” I looked around to make sure no one was listen. “I have a solution for our problem, but I need you to trust me and wait this shit out without getting in any trouble.”

“Fuck you mean, wait it out.”

“I gotta build trust. It’s a kid.”

Perc ran his hands over his face and stared me dead in my eyes. “I’m only sitting another month. If you don’t get this shit together, I’ll handle it on my own.”

“Let me do shit my way. We know what your way leads to.”

“My daughter, how is she?” He switched the subject.

“She’s doing good. Her and Merci got a little bond going that I don’t want to disturb. She has her majority of the time. I think it makes her feel better since she lost the baby. I don’t bother with them. The only time she calls is if she needs something she practically took her from me.”

“I’mma marry her when I get outta of her.”

“And I just signed the divorce papers for her sister. I thought I would never do it but when she didn’t come home last week, that did it for me.”

“You gave up just like that? I thought you loved her. Nigga, I’m disappointed in you.”

“Nigga I all I could. All she ever talked ‘bout was the divorce so fuck it. I signed them papers and dropped them off to her. Now I’m waiting on her to let me know when my son ‘bout to arrive. If we get back together cool but I’ll never let a woman make me feel worse than already feel ‘bout some shit.”

“I feel you.”

It felt good to chop it up with my brother.

Now that his visit was over, I made the drive over to the projects to pay Lexus mama a visit.

No matter what’s been done, a muthafucka was going to take some money when all they used to doing is scamming and snorting coke.

Lexus got her demeanor from her mama. She was on the same shit but never had enough money to make ends meet.

I was about to help her with that. I knocked on the dingy door and stepped back so no roaches and shit would crawl on my sneakers.

She was nasty as fuck and if it wasn’t for my brother, I wouldn’t be here.

“Fuck you doing on my doorstep?” She snatched the door open.

“Bring that nasty ass attitude down ‘cause we both know you have no room for that attitude. I’m here to help yo’ dirty ass but you gotta help me out too.”

“Fuck you want from me? Didn’t your brother do enough?”

“My brother didn’t do shit. Lexus had enough enemies in this city that we don’t know what happened.”

“So, you calling my grandbaby a liar?”

“I ain’t callin’ your grandbaby shit, but since you so worried ‘bout em’ why the fuck they still in foster care and not with you?”

She looked away and then down at her dirty bedroom shoes. I knew the answer but I wanted her to say it so my plan could work. She needed me just like I needed her.

“You know I can’t afford to bring them chirren here. I can barely afford to pay the bills around here.”

“Okay, so let me move you outta here and move you somewhere safer so you can get the kids.”

“Why the fuck you doing that? I know you only coming because you got a plan.”

“You take care of the kids; I take care of you. My only request is you talk your grandchild into retracting her statement because it’s not true.”

“How you know what she saw?”

“How the fuck you know? She doesn’t know what the fuck she saw. Now do we have a deal or no. I’ll give you ten grand right now so you go and find you somewhere to stay, buy some decent clothes and show up to get them damn kids.”

“I don’t have a car to drive.”

“Get the kids and somewhere to stay and you’ll have a car.

The first time I hear some shit besides her retracting her story, you’ll have a visit, and it won’t be pretty.

” I held my hand out for her to shake it.

“Good doing business with you. Here’s your money and I’ll see at the first of every month with a drop off. ”

Yes, it may have been sad that I was trying to get the girl to take her statement back, but Lexus mama knew she raised a fucked up individual.

She cost someone to lose their child. It was only going to a matter of time before someone took her life anyway.

I don’t regret that my brother had to be the one to do it.

Sometimes things don’t work out like they should.

Perc should’ve been put the hoe in her place, but I blamed my mama for stopping Perc majority of the time.

I was just getting settled in at my new place when Blessyn called my phone and told me to come and pick her up because her water broke.

Nothing scared me on earth, but something shook me when she told me her water broke.

All I wanted was kids that I could spoil and pass down generational wealth to.

It was finally my time to become a father and I was running around my damn house with one shoe on and the other one in my hand.

This was out of character for me. I was used to being in control of everything around me.

I turned my flashers on and rushed to Blessyn in fear that her ass was going to have the baby without me. When I got there, she was waiting outside for me. She wasn’t panicking like me. Her demeanor was calm which made me get my shit together.

“Are you going in the hospital with one shoe on?” Blessyn asked as I helped her in the car.

“Fuck! I left my other shoe. I thought I had that bitch in my hand.”

“Are you okay? It’s just a damn baby, Lucky. You worked up like you got to go lay on the table or some shit. I’m the one that got to do all the work.”

“I know! I know! It’s just this a nigga first time going through this. My bad, where your bag?”

She pointed towards the steps, and I took off in a jog to grab it as she laughed. I threw the bag in the car as Blessyn gripped the dashboard. Blessyn grunted and took a few deep breaths.

“Don’t worry about the seatbelt just come on, please.” She said between clenched teeth.

“Why your mama not here with you? I thought she told me she was going to be here.”

“She has been here, but she has a life too. I was fine when she left, and I went to shower and my water broke.”

I didn’t say anything else as I dashed to the hospital.

Blessyn was doing so good every time she got a contraction.

She would occasionally ask for my hand for support as she went through the contraction.

A half hour later, I was pulling up to the hospital.

I got her registered while she changed and got hooked up to the machines.

A smile came over my face when I heard my son’s heartbeat.

“What can I do to make her comfortable?” I asked the nurse.

“There’s nothing you can do right now but rub her back, give her ice and let her curse you out without feeling some type of way. I’ll be back in a few minutes to check her and if she wants some medicine, I’ll give her some.”

“Lucky call my mama and sister. I don’t want you in here.”

I waited until the nurse walked out the door before, I approached the bed. “Fuck you say?”

“I don’t want you in here.”

“Blessyn shut the fuck up before you piss me off. You ‘bout to birth my muthafuckin’ son and I’mma stand my ass right the fuck here until he comes out healthy. Once he good, I’ll leave your ass in here. Until don’t say shit to me.”

The nurse came to check her, and she was about four centimeters dilated.

I took that time to call her mama and sister.

Since she was laboring slow, I waited for her sister and mama to get there before putting a little space between us.

I don’t know what the fuck Blessyn took me for, but she had me fucked up on so many levels.

She took me for a pussy because I loved her but when it came to my child, I’ll kill her ass.

I left and went to the local Wal-Mart to grab a pair of socks and slides since I was out here with one shoe on.

Blessyn had dilated to seven centimeters when I got back and was getting fed ice by her sister while her mama wiped her face with a washcloth.

She hadn’t noticed that I was back in the room yet.

“My nephew about to be here so all the beefing shit needs to end before she births him. I’m only telling you what I told her already but she’s in too much pain to argue with you so huh.

” Merci pushed the ice in my hand. “Get this ice and she’ll let you know when she wants it.

I’m waiting on call from Perc and I want to be available. ”

Sixteen fucking hours later and my son was placed over the blue drape that covered up Blessyn exposed guts.

She couldn’t push him out and had to get a c-section.

He was everything as he hollered with his eyes closed shut.

Blessyn laid on the table crying tears of joy.

This was a dream come true for a nigga. My first-born son was born healthy with all his fingers and toes.

I snipped his cord and waited for them to weigh him and wrap him in a blanket and gave him to me.

Time stopped and the only thing I could feel was my heart about to beat out of my chest. He was really mine and looked every spit of me that it was scary.

“Let me see him.” I took him over to Blessyn and she cried harder. “He’s so cute. Does he look good? He’s not missing anything is he?” She ratted off questions.

“He’s perfectly fine.”

While they finished sewing her up, they took the baby to the nursery as I followed.

Merci, her mama and my niece were waiting patiently to see the baby.

Through the glass you could see him hollering as the nurse touched him.

He still hadn’t opened his eyes yet, but I was just glad that he was fine and so was Blessyn.

It seemed like once the baby got pulled out her she changed and wasn’t all down a nigga throat.

That reminded me never to get her ass pregnant again.

“What y’all gone name him?” Merci asked.

“I don’t know. Gotta ask your sister. It’s a touchy subject and all.”

“Now that she’s not pregnant she’ll want you back.”

“Nah, I’m good. The papers are signed and I ain’t doing no more fuckin’ begging. We just gon’ be here for lil’ man now.”

It was sad to say that I was married and divorced so quickly.

She got exactly what she wanted, and it was time for me to move on and focus on getting my brother out so he could be with his family.

When she needed me, she knew how to call.

There was plenty money that I had left in the safe for her.

She was forever good because she had my son, but I couldn’t live with her, and she couldn’t forgive me for what I did.

I dealt with it every time I had to swallow them pills just to make it through the day. I didn’t need her ass adding to it.