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“What do you need, Jules?” Finn asked.

We were coming back to our bodies, and with that, came a necessary separation. It’s OK now, though , I thought. We can rejoin at any point . And somehow, knowing that helped me do what came next.

“I need Brandon.” I looked around the room. “And Jack and Hawk. Is that OK?”

It felt like after what we had just done, we should all be in the room. But I knew, even though we’d reached that level of unity then, we weren’t there yet in real life. I looked at the three of them, loosely grouped together now.

“Of course, love,” Finn replied, and he lifted my chin and kissed me. “I’ll take Buddy for a walk, give you guys some space.”

“I’m probably gonna be rubbing one out in the shower,” Slade said with that crooked grin of his. “What? I feel every damn thing you are when you’re getting off, and it’s hot. Then I’m gonna have a beer because this day....” He shook his head. “You coming?” he said to Aaron.

“In the shower or for a beer?” Aaron replied.

“Now, now, don’t start that shit. All this talk about negotiating the relationship? Well, guy on guy is Slade’s no-fly zone.”

“Still got that fantasy of you covered in cum,” I said with a smirk.

“And you’ll get it. It’ll just be all mine. You can lick it all off afterwards.” I fake retched, well, almost fake. “I love you, princess.”

“Love you too.”

Aaron moved in when Slade and Finn left the room. His hand went to my waist somewhat shyly, like he wasn’t sure he had permission to, so I came closer and put a hand on his chest.

“Thank you,” he said, and I could feel the vibration of his words down my hand. “I... I can’t think of pretty words, so I’ll just say it. That speech, including me in your pack, it damn near broke me.”

“Aaron—”

“In a good way. Sorry, should have made that clearer. It’s like it smashes through who you were so you can become something else.

Look, I’m not saying this right. I just wanted you to know, I still feel like I’m in the petitioning stage.

Not because of anything you or the guys are doing, but because I don’t think I’m there yet.

I need to prove to you I should be by your side. And, Jules, I want to do that.”

“I...” I stared into those hazel eyes, full of a warmth I could almost wrap around myself. “Thank you.”

“Now, I’m gonna jump in the shower before Slade uses up all the hot water.”

“I’m not part of your pack, I think everyone acknowledges that,” Sylvan said as he edged towards the door. “But that was well done, Julie.”

“Just as you foresaw?”

“Better.”

The door was closed with a click, and a quiet fell over the room. I had thought of another speech to give, but I was pretty much out of rallying the troops energy, so I pulled my shirt off over my head and tossed it on the floor, hoping actions spoke louder than words.

“Stop,” Brandon said when I went to undo my jeans.

“We need to?—”

“I know, just let us.”

A kind of tension rose inside me as all of them clustered closer.

Hands went to remove my bra, my jeans, then my underwear, until I was stripped bare.

For a second, I held back that need to be involved and touching them, and just stood there, naked.

The automatic fear—that I was not enough—rose as the moment stretched on, but I forced myself to look past my conditioning and see what was actually there in the room with me.

They want you, like you want them.

Because they have to, because they have no other choice.

They could choose each other instead, but they choose you.

I nodded to myself and then moved to Brandon, pulling off his t-shirt.

The bite looked red and angry, a small trail of dried blood on his shoulder, but it served to only enhance the savage beauty of his body.

I looked up to see how he was coping. Did it hurt?

But his lips moved forward, wanting to brush against mine.

“Not yet,” I said with a smile. When I looked over, Jack was doing the same to Hawk, though he was well-practised. The other man’s shirt was already off, and my eyes ran across his chest, noting the way the tattoos had started to gleam.

“Like what you see?” Brandon said. My eyes raked down his chest when he spoke, and I nodded. Like was such an inadequate way to describe my response to their bodies. Reverent may have been closer to the mark.

I watched Brandon’s pupils blow out as I undid his jeans, sliding them down his hips. “Commando,” I purred as his hard length sprung free.

“I had a feeling I wouldn’t need underwear today.”

I wondered at that, at the intuition that seemed to allow him to sail through all of this with a surety none of us possessed, but he pulled me against him when I got to my feet, so that I felt him at my back as I turned to look at Hawk and Jack.

They were already naked, kissing, hands in each other’s hair as they fought to deepen the caress. For a moment, I saw a brief overlay of those coltish bodies in the photos Jack had taken and then collected the remnants of.

“We’re going to need to work out a way to deal with the fact we have a couple in the pack,” I said.

Brandon’s hands trailed up my sides, sending shivers down my spine.

“And that’s what this is, isn’t it?” he said

“It’s a start.”

“And what do you think, when you see them clawing to get closer to each other?”

“That they’re beautiful. That they love each other so much and…” My eyes dropped down to where Jack held their rigid cocks, rubbing against each other as they kissed. “That they’re really hot for each other.”

Jack pulled away, resting his temple on Hawk’s forehead and smiled, an easy sensual thing. “And you. C’mere.”

I took a step forward but stopped myself, remembering why I thought this was a good idea.

“We need to negotiate this, Jack. I included Brandon because I need him right now, but also because I think he’d be the best person for this scenario.

You two are a couple. No matter what else happens, that will remain true.

Are you OK with me touching Hawk when you’re here?

” His eyes flared hot at that. “What about Brandon?”

And there it was, what I thought might be simmering below the surface. His gaze went cold and flat, Hawk’s arm tightening around him in response. I heard a low growl and held up a hand.

“That’s a clear no. You’ve got some boundaries, that’s cool.

I just want to get this clear. The first time we were together, Hawk got sidelined, and you and I.

.. I don’t know how to describe that. It was hot, and I have no regrets, but that’s one-night stand kinda stuff, not a relationship.

If we’re going to have a relationship, sexual or otherwise, we need some ground rules.

Hawk, what about the guys touching Jack? ”

He straightened at that, moving behind Jack and massaging his shoulders a little. “People will want to touch him.” His hand dropped to Jack’s hip, gripping the muscle there. “Why wouldn’t they? He’s beautiful. I just want to be there if they do.”

“Yeah?” Jack’s voice broke on the word, and he turned his head towards his lover’s.

“Of course, if that’s what you want.”

Jack’s eyes, when they turned back to us, were hungry and speculative. He watched Brandon’s hand roam, skimming up my rib cage, getting closer and closer to where I needed it.

“Looks like someone’s considering the possibilities,” Brandon said, his voice rumbling in my ear.

Jack came closer first, his eyes taking in all the points where Brandon and I intersected. Did he want to be where Brandon was, or me? I realised it didn’t matter. By making the commitment as a pack, we had until the love died to explore all of that. But I knew what I wanted right now.

“Hawk.”

He came closer until I was boxed in by the bodies of three hot, naked men.

Right now, I wanted to paw five the Great Wolf or whoever it was that put me in this situation, because damn, I was one lucky girl.

I let my fingers trail down the muscular expanse of Hawk’s chest, relishing the way his stomach muscles jumped at my touch.

“This OK?” I asked both of them.

Hawk nodded quickly, his head falling back as he pushed my hand lower and closed it around his cock. He was so hard, he was throbbing.

“You can touch him any way you like,” Jack said. “Just make him feel loved.”

That’s what I needed to hear. I brought Hawk’s head down and crushed his lips with mine as my grip tightened.

I felt the groan, felt Jack move behind him.

I glanced up to see his lips against Hawk’s neck, then felt Brandon’s against mine.

They seemed to almost echo each other as their hands moved to cover our nipples, and a lightning bolt of pleasure shot through me when Brandon’s fingers closed around them and pulled lightly.

My hand moved faster as the pleasure built, until Hawk was gasping and pushing my hand away.

“On the bed,” he growled, and I went gladly, falling back onto the soft mattress. Hawk crawled over me, dropping kisses down my body. He sucked one nipple into his mouth, my chest following his up when he pulled away. “I’ve got to taste you.”

“That’s OK, I’m happy to take over here,” Brandon said, lying down beside me. “You want your nipples played with as he licks your pussy?”

I felt the prickle of Hawk’s beard on my thigh as Brandon smiled, lowering his head.

“God, yes.”

I went limp on the bed as Brandon’s lips closed around the aching point and tugged, the rhythmic pleasure-pain jerking my hips up.

Hawk’s fingers dug in, forcing me to lay flat.

He kissed all along my thigh, my cunt aching for that attention, but I was powerless to move.

They held me down, forced me to experience everything they were doing, and I loved every damn minute of it.

Something Hawk was about to endure as well.

I looked up when I heard the pop of a cap, saw Jack sporting a rakish grin and smearing lube on his fingers.

“No,” Hawk said when he reached down, his voice somewhat muffled.