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“I don't need your pity.”

What?, my mind screamed.Pity?

“Kendra, no…”

Her grip tightened on my arm.

“You didn't see anything, right?” She growled through half-closed teeth.

And then I understood what the problem was. I didn't need to feel ashamed about seeing two people having sex because Kendra took care of feeling ashamed for both of us. But while I was sorry for getting in the way, she was sorry that I had seen her with a woman.

This was very wrong.

“I didn't see anything...” Was all I managed to huff out before her fingers left me go and she walked stiffly down the hall, heading back to the main part of the bar.

I was avoiding everyone. I spent the whole weekend like this, but I couldn't do anything else when Monday arrived. I needed to go to classes and to damn practice. I felt like a nervous wreck, and it was all because of Veronica. She shouldn't have seen me with Hayley. She shouldn't know!

I ran my hand through my hair for the third time before finally opening my bedroom door, finding Jaz still in her pajamas working on her laptop and Sidney with ice under her ankles.

“Good morning…” I whispered , weakly. I wasn't sure if I wanted them to hear me, but they did.

“Good morning, Ken!” Jazmine smiled excitedly in my direction. Sid just smiled, limiting herself to that while savingthe grimace of pain for her inner self. “Ready for today's practice?”

“No...” Sid and I responded in unison.

An alarm went off on my cell phone, notifying me that I had a trip home scheduled for next weekend. I snorted. As if everything that was going on wasn't enough, I would still have to return to Chamberlain to please my mother and her rich friends.

I grabbed my sneakers and my bag, concluding that I should better go train before I gave up on the day and went back to my bed.

I didn't wait for the girls because I felt like I needed to be alone. I needed to think, even though I had already done it over the last couple of days; Still, it didn't seem like enough.

On the dance floor, my mouth almost touched Veronica's, I was very conscious of it and that left me completely numb. The twisted idea of kissing her seemed to light up in my mind, so I went after Hayley. I needed to eliminate things like that from my being. That's why I kissed the redhead and had sex with her, but it was clear that I couldn't have peace. I couldn't have a peaceful life. No, I needed to constantly be getting into fucking nightmares.

When I saw Veronica standing at the door I felt like I could die.

Even more so when Hayley thrust me twice more with her fingers and all I wanted to do was moan as I looked at the brunette. But I couldn't, because there was more fear than excitement in me. In fact, I was terrified to have Veronica there.

I opened the gym door and found myself there alone. Practice would only start in an hour, and I didn't usually arrive this early,but just doing some tumbling would help me forget my self-destructive thoughts. Was too much in my head.

I wanted to disappear so I wouldn't have to face Veronica. I was afraid she had told someone else.

And I still had to deal with Hayley's messages, which I just ignored.

Not to mention the fact that I would need to see my devil of a mother the following weekend.

I fixed my ponytail and stretched out at the mats alone, positioning myself with my feet planted on the floor, parallel. I took a deep breath.

I raised my hands and started running before throwing my body forward. Hands on the floor, feet up. Feet on the floor, hands reaching for the floor again and I repeated the movement three or four times before stopping with my feet glued to the floor.

The sound of clapping surprised me.

I faced the door, noticing Veronica dropping her bag on the floor and coming towards me.

“Yeah, you're good...” She declared with a simple smile on his lips.

My face dropped.

I didn't want to talk to her. I didn't want to run the risk of her spreading something around that I avoided people seeing at all costs.