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I didn’t know what I was doing. My mind was blank as I dropped to my knees, reaching for his jeans. Letting my body take over, all I wanted was to please this man and show him I wasn’t just the scared girl pacing in his living room. I had everything and nothing to prove at the same time. In some sense, I wanted to show myself I could hook up with someone. I’d healed enough to this point that being with a stranger wasn’t painful. I was the one in control of my body and had nothing to prove to Ledger either. I’d just met him today, well, technically I guess when I was having my meltdown yesterday on the sidewalk, but he didn’t scare me.

He encouraged me to sit with my thoughts, never judging as I paced the room. He had let me use his laundry machine, change in his room with privacy, and kept the door unlocked. But as we ate sushi, all I could focus on were his large hands and how big his cock might be. I’d be using my box of toys at home tonight. Confidently, my hands approached his belt, devoid of the tremors that had plagued me earlier in the day.

“Auburn,” he said, his voice low and raspy.

“You don’t owe me anything. I promised you, just dinner.” His eyes darted around. I wanted to soothe him just as he’d done for me.

After unbuckling his belt, I threw it on the ground, then pulled down his zipper and tugged his jeans to the floor. He was hard as fuck under his black boxer briefs. I’d never been hungrier in my entire life.

“I promised you?—”

“Shut up, Ledger. Let me do this for myself.”

Laughing, he said, “Yes ma’am.”

He cupped my chin, lifting it so our eyes met, just as my hands slid around his hips, tugging down his briefs. His cock sprang free, but my eyes stayed locked on his.

“Auburn,” he moaned as I stroked his shaft. It was so girthy I could barely get my fingers around him. “I will go soft with you just this once, but I’m not that kind of man. I may be a gentleman in every other way, but in the bedroom, I don’t know how to be.”

I said nothing, just kept teasing him, loving the way he squirmed beneath my hands.

“Do you understand me?” he asked.

I nodded, desperate to taste him.

“Use your words, Sunshine.”

“I, uh, yes. I understand.”

“Good girl.”

I was drenched.

“But, Ledger?” I whispered just as his hand loosened on my jaw.

“Yeah?”

“I’ve never done this before…Can you show me how to make you feel good?”