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There’s something about him that makes me weak, and I’m so very tired of being weak.
I can’t do this. I need to end it. Just the very thought ... it hurts.
“I—” I start to give him the honest truth, my whole truth. I don’t know how to be okay on my own and that’s my priority right now. That’s the bottom line. Pressing my back against the smooth leather and glancing at him in the driver’s seat, the words are right there on the tip of my tongue.I can’t do this anymore.I don’t know what’s real and where I stand with anything, and I need space to figure it all out, but my phone goes off in my purse, the ringtone loud and obnoxious.
I let out a frustrated sigh, pulling it out and just missing a call from my mother. I almost call her back, but then I see the text messages. Dozens of them.
I hit the first one from Kat.
The last message makes me sick to my stomach.It’s going to be okay.
What’s going to be okay? What now? I scroll up to read the messages starting from the top.
OMG I just saw, are you okay?
Minutes later:
I can’t believe he did that to you!
Everything is all right, we’re going to get it taken down.
A chill slips like ice down my skin.
I don’t have to ask her what she’s talking about. Maddie sent me a link to the online article. It’s already been taken down, but she screenshotted it.
My heart sinks as I skim it, but my eyes keep flickering to the picture. It shows me and Jace, and right next to it, Jace and some beautiful woman. It’s obvious what the article was about and it makes me sick. My throat goes dry and tears prick my eyes.
Really? They posted this now? I think back to who I told and who would have heard about the apartment. It’s up for sale as of 4:00 p.m. today, so that was only five hours for someone to dig up the dirt. I can barely breathe.
“Jules?” Mason’s voice doesn’t stop me from reading. It’s not the worst thing that’s been said about me but it’s not kind, and it’s not true. I wasn’t turning a blind eye. There’s a difference. I truly didn’t know.
My anger only increases when I see what they’re saying about me now. I’m not running around town. I’m not spreading my legs … I can’t even finish this article. The last paragraph I read is:
Now that herhusband is gone, she’s letting loose but choosing the same kind of man. The socialite doesn’t seem to care about her reputation anymore.
Whoever gavethe details to theDaily Wordknows that I’m seeing Mason but they don’t know how often, since they claim he cheated on me two nights ago. I’ve been with him every single night for weeks now.
Every insecurity in me is replaced by raw rage.
Heat dances along my skin. I’m not this person that they’re painting me to be. I’m on the edge of breaking into a million pieces. I told Mason this is why I didn’t want us to be public. I knew something like this would happen.I knew it!
Is that a stage of grief? Wanting to murder everyone?
I just want to be left alone.
I bite the inside of my cheek and place the phone in my lap as Mason’s hand lands on my thigh.
“What’s wrong?” he asks, his eyes darting from me to the road.
“Take me home,” I say. I don’t bother to answer his question and and I lick my dry lips. My heart hurts too much.
“What’s wrong?” This time his voice is harder. The one he uses right before he turns me into a damn rag doll for his will and then magically fixes everything.
I’m done listening to men and I’m done rolling over for them.
“What’s wrong is that this isn’t working for me anymore,” I finally tell him, although I don’t know how, in an even tone that splits my heart right down the center. Guilt consumes the anger immediately. It slices through every emotion with the sharpest knife, the cut clean and quick, but the blood is pouring out and I know it’s not going to stop anytime soon.
I lean my head back against the headrest. “I want to go home.”