Page 207 of For the Fans

“You’re worth the wait, gorgeous,” he sighs. “And it hasn’t been that long. We’ve only been doing this for a few months.”

“Maybe it feels longer… because I liked you when I thought I hated you.”

“That’s what I was waiting for,” he hums. I can hear the grin in his voice, and it makes me laugh.

“Avi, I don’t know how to do this…” I confess my insecurities to him. And to be honest, it feels fucking great.He’s just so easy to talk to… You’d think telling him everything would be a piece of cake.“I’m kinda scared.”

“You have every right to be,” he murmurs supportively. “I told you last night, Kyran… No one has to know anything until you’re ready. I don’t care, I just want you.”

I’m nodding like he can see me… But in my gut, I feel like it’s not right. He deserves someone who’s strong enough to kiss him in front of the world. He deserves surety, certainty.

No doubts… And I seem to be full of them.

But not about him… Aboutmyself.

“Ky, I don’t do relationships either,” he breathes into the phone. “You know that. I’ve never done this before, with anyone. And you’ve never done it with a guy. So the way I see it, we’re going through this together. Again.”

My lips curl. “So you’re saying… I’m your first?”

He laughs, shivering my insides with how damn good it sounds. “Yes, baby. You’re my first. And I’m yours.”

I’m getting all squirmy again as I purr, “I’msoyours…”

The sound of Guty stomping back inside the dorm pulls Cupid’s arrow out of my ass, and I shoot up in bed, tugging the comforter over my waist.

“Yo, Nueve! Up and at ’em, baby boy!” Guty shouts at me from the living room. “It’s gym time! Then we gotta wrap that arm…”

“Was he in the room the whole time??” Avi mumbles.

“No, he just got back,” I whisper, sitting still for a moment, waiting for my dick to deflate so I can get up. But it’s not really getting the message. I blame Avi and his sexy morning voice. “I gotta go… Just being on the phone with you is making me hard, and I need not to be.”

He chuckles wickedly. “You better figure out a way to see me tonight. I don’t think I’ll be able to last until after the game…”

“Trust me, I need your dick just as bad.” I peer at the door to make sure Guty isn’t within earshot. “It’s my good luck charm.”

“Well then… I’ll be ready and waiting in California. At your service, superstar,” he croons.

“I’ll call you when I land,” I hum, finally sliding out of bed. “You should come have dinner with Bridget and me.”

“Nothing would make me happier.”

“’Kay…” I bite my lip, because I really don’t want to hang up, and it’s fucking ludicrous.

“Say it first, Kyran,” he whispers in my ear.

I roll my eyes, but my smile is seriously bordering on psychotic. “I love you, Avi.”

“Mmm… I love you, HGB.”

“You’re an annoying idiot.” I bite the grin off my lips, and he laughs.

“That’s my man.”

Hanging up the phone, my head is freaking twirling off my body like the Tasmanian Devil. I can barely process the revelation of the past forty-eight hours…

After everything Avi and I have been through,finallyadmitting that the hate was never really hate, and that the fear was covering up love… it threw me completely off kilter. It’s absolutely insane the way it just smacked me in the face. But as soon as it did, it was like a blindfold had been lifted from my eyes.

I can see it all so clearly now.