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JASON

The indecision warring on her face lasted mere seconds. I told myself not to take things further, to step back and give Izzy what she needed, which was someone to talk to. But her fingers roamed down the front of my jeans, cupping my growing erection.

I tried to step back, to get away from her wandering hands, but she slid her fingers through the loops in my jeans, tugging me back to her.

“Jason,” she breathed, looking up at me with those lust-filled eyes. “Make me remember what it’s like.”

Fuck, how could I say no to that? I crushed my lips to hers, pressing her against the shower wall. Her sweet moans filled the shower as I held her, kissed her, and reminded her what it was like to have a man truly desire a woman. If she was anyone else, I’d already have her pants off and my cock thrusting inside her.

But she wasn’t anyone else, and even though she wanted this, I couldn’t take it as far as she needed. Not like this. Not when she was still messed up over what happened.

I broke the kiss and took a step back, fighting against the shock of disappointment on her face. “Izzy, not like this,” I breathed, willing my cock to go down. My fingers skimmed over her slender waist, up over the peak of her nipple. She was so fucking sexy, and there was nothing more I wanted than to bury myself inside her and hear her call my name.

“When I sink my cock inside you, it won’t be because you want to lose yourself, and it won’t be in a shower.” My fingers skimmed up the slender column of her neck, sinking into the hair at the base of her neck. “I want you, Izzy, but not like this. I want you begging me to take you because you want me—you fucking need me. And I can promise you, our first time will not be in a shower. I’m gonna take you in my bed, and you won’t leave until I’ve worn you out and made you scream my name all night long.”

Her eyes fluttered shut as I brushed my thumb over her nipple. I wouldn’t take her, but I’d make her feel good. There was nothing I wanted more than to see her come apart in my arms. The last time, she’d come from just the touch of my hands skimming over her body.

Pressing a kiss to her lips, I let my fingers slide down her stomach, feathering over her mound, down to the apex of her thighs. Her legs spread for me, seeking the pressure from my thick fingers. Bracing my arm above her head, I pressed my raging cock against her hip as I slowly slipped one finger inside her. The breathy gasp that left her lips had me grinding my body against hers, but I didn’t lose control.

“Izzy,” I moaned, slowly thrusting inside her, feeling her wet heat soaking my finger. “Is that what you need, baby?”

Her hands clutched my arm, gripping me tighter than ever as she squeezed her eyes shut and got lost in my touch.

“Open your eyes, Izzy. Fucking look at me when you come.”

She slowly peeled her lids open, watching me as I slid a second finger inside her.

“Fuck, you’re so gorgeous,” I murmured. “So fucking tight. Soon, Izzy.”

I sucked in a breath and slid a third finger inside, building the pressure in her tight cunt. I already knew what it would feel like to have her wrapped around me. I could imagine every moan, every clench of her thighs. She would be dripping all over my cock, begging me to make her come.

Her eyes started to drift shut again, but that just wouldn’t do. “Keep those eyes on me, baby. I want you to know who’s fucking you.” I pressed my thumb to her clit and circled the tight nub. She trembled in my arms, barely holding on. I could feel her pulse inside her pussy, thrumming with desperate need.

“That’s it, baby. I feel you coming. You’re so close.” I trailed my tongue along her neck and then swallowed her cries as she started to come apart. My fingers had a mind of their own, thrusting hard inside her, forcing her to come apart even harder than she could ever imagine.

“Jason!” she cried out, her nails digging hard into my arm. “Jas?—”

“Fuck, Izzy. Come all over me. Squeeze me with that beautiful pussy. Fucking take what you need!”

Her legs collapsed beneath her as she shouted my name, her body spasming from the intensity. I caught her, but didn’t want this to end. I had to taste her. I was down on my knees for her in seconds, tossing her leg over my shoulder as I held her up at the waist.

I could smell her cum soaking her thighs and dove in, licking that pretty pussy and thrusting my tongue deep inside her. I moaned hard as she gushed on my tongue, already coming again. Her fingers slid through my hair, squeezing hard as she tugged me where she needed me. I sucked her clit into my mouth and flicked my tongue over her, drinking everything she gave.

It was only seconds later that she cried out again, ripping the hair from my head as she came apart for the third time. Her cum coated my lips, making a mess out of me. As I pulled back, I swirled a finger through her pussy, riding out the last of her pleasure while I licked every inch of her arousal from my mouth.

Even as she shook in my arms, I couldn’t resist taking just one last taste. I leaned in and buried my face in her pussy, licking every last drop of her. Her legs continued to spasm while the full weight of her body sank into my arms. I was fucking soaked and uncomfortable as hell, but that sated look in her eyes made it all worth it.

Shutting the water off, I grabbed a towel from the bar and wrapped it around her thin frame. I had no fucking clue what to do for her hair, but it was dripping down her back and I knew it would soak her pillow if I tossed her in bed like this.

Spotting a hand towel, I gently squeezed the water from her hair, drying it as best I could while she held onto my shoulders to keep from collapsing. Lifting her into my arms, I carried her to her bed, laying her down and pressing a kiss to her lips.

“Don’t go,” she whispered.

“Baby, I’m not going anywhere. Give me a minute.”

I quickly cleaned up the water spots I left and peeled my soaked clothes from my body. After tossing them on the shower floor, I grabbed a second towel and wrapped it around my waist. If I didn’t have something covering my cock, I’d end up buried inside her by the end of the day. And that wasn’t what she needed right now.

Sliding into bed behind her, I listened to her soft breaths as she drifted in and out of sleep. I would lay in bed beside her and just listen to her breathe in and out all day, but we had things to discuss, and until she was ready to fully trust me, this couldn’t go farther.

“You want to tell me what you freaked out about?” I asked when I knew she was awake.

“I saw you with Carli, and I started thinking about the child I lost. I don’t know how to describe it. It just hit me so hard that she would be about the same age as Carli, but she’ll never go to a waterpark and I’ll never see her smile. All of the things I wanted for her never happened.”

“You ran,” I pointed out.

“I know.” Her words were so quiet and guarded.

“Why did you go to Kavanaugh?”

She shifted in my arms, turning to face me. “I didn’t want to spoil your day with Carli. I knew how much it meant to have that time with her.”

I was trying really hard not to be pissed right now, but the fact that she made that decision without consulting me really ate at me.

“So, you made up my mind for me.”

“Jason—”

“How many fucking times do I have to prove to you that I’m here for you?”

She sat up, glaring at me. “It was my decision what to do. I needed to leave.”

“And you just walked out on me. On Carli. We had a whole fucking day planned?—”

“And I couldn’t do it,” she snapped. “I needed space!”

I was done letting her get the last word in. I gripped her by the hips and yanked her down on the bed, hovering over her body. “Listen to me right fucking now,” I growled. “If you’d just let me finish talking, you’d know that what I was going to say is that we had a whole fucking day planned with you. And if that needs to change, so be it. I would rather have been there for you and gotten you out when you needed me to. I could have explained it to Carli.”

“And she wouldn’t have understood,” she choked out, tears spilling down her cheeks. “She’s just a little girl!”

“And you’re my woman,” I shouted, losing my cool. “How the fuck will this ever work if you don’t trust me to take care of you? I want to be there for you, and if it had been a problem, I would have told you that, but you didn’t give me the chance. You took off and left with Kavanaugh. You didn’t even fucking say goodbye! You don’t think that hurt Carli?”

She flinched at my words, sinking deeper into the mattress. I drew away from her body, cursing myself for getting so fucking mad. But we needed to have it out over this shit or it would never work.

“I’m sorry,” she whispered, sliding her hand over my arm as she sat up. “I didn’t think of that. I was lost in my head. All I could think about was escaping.”

A heavy sigh left me in a rush, making me feel deflated. “I know that. I know you needed to leave. I just wish you would stop running from me. I wish you would trust me to be there when you need me.”

“I do trust you,” she said after a weighted pause. “I trust you more than anyone, but…I guess I wanted to keep things from getting too difficult for you. I didn’t want Carli hating me because I needed to leave when she was having fun.”

“She wouldn’t have hated you,” I explained, pulling her into my arms. “She might not have understood, but she’s a smart girl. The only thing she’s talked about for the past three days is you. She thought you ran out because you weren’t having fun with her.”

“I’m sorry.”

Sliding my hand along her jaw, I pressed a kiss to her lips, making sure I didn’t take things too far. “Please, trust me. I will always do whatever I can to be there for you. But you can’t push me away like this. I need to know that I’m not fighting for a lost cause.”

Her cheeks tinged red and her eyes dropped. “Am I the lost cause?”

“No. I meant that if you don’t trust me, our relationship will go nowhere.”

Sighing, she slid her arm around my waist, sinking into my body. “I can work on that.”

“Good. Because I was going fucking crazy knowing you were here and didn’t want to see me.”

“I didn’t want to see anyone.”

I pinched her chin between my thumb and fingers. “That can’t happen anymore. I won’t sit by and let my mind think of every possible reason you might not be letting me in. Most of all, that you might be lost in your head. I couldn’t fucking stand it if I thought you were hurting yourself again.”

Her cheeks flamed at the reminder. I didn’t want to bring up the past, but she needed to know where my head was at. “I would say that won’t happen, but I guess I can’t, huh?”

I shook my head. I wouldn’t blow smoke up her ass and tell her everything would be fine. We had a rough road ahead of us. With her issues and my need for control, it was going to be a hard ride, but she was worth fighting for, even if all she wanted to do was run.

“This is it, Izzy. I’ve already fallen for you, and if you want to walk away, you’re gonna have to fight me every step of the way. There’s no letting go now.”

A chuckle slipped from her lips as she looked up at me. “Things just got intense. You’ve fallen for me? Jason?—”

“Don’t tell me I hardly know you. I feel like I understand you more than I understand myself.”

“I don’t even know me.”

“Maybe not, but you’ll get there, and I’ll be with you every fucking step of the way.”