Page 194 of Fragments

Instead, he steps forward, creeping into my space. I back up slowly, but he keeps coming.

“Hungry, inmate?” He grabs my jaw, easing his lips over mine. “Been a while since you’ve been fed, huh?”

My head shakes back and forth as if to sayno, but the words get lost when he presses his mouth to mine. I try to step out of it, but now his hands are on my waist and he’s pulling me flush against him.

He’s already rock hard. I can feel it through his uniform as he grinds into me, sucking on my mouth while I stand there completely still.Frozen, like I’m back in eighth grade history, fumbling through an oral presentation on the Civil. War.

Uh… Robert E… Lord, what am I doing??

No… No no no, I’m not supposed to be doing this. Tell him to stop!

It feels good, Warren. You know it does.

But I’m trying—

Don’t.Stoptrying. It’s not you.

I whimper a helpless noise into Jasper’s mouth while he unbuckles his belt and opens his pants. My blood is rushing so loudly in my head, it’s all I can hear. The waterfall drowning out everything but that goddam idiotic fuckingvoice.

It’s so familiar…

This is you, you dirty little slut. You’re only good at being bad.

No. No, please. This isn’t right… I’m trying. For Lex…

“Let me come in you, and I’ll give you whatever you want,” Jasper growls, grabbing my hand and shoving it onto his cock.

“No…” I gasp, remembering the dark room, with Lex.

How I begged him to act like he was forcing me…

Something like this. Aggressive, greedy,rough… Detached.

With Lex, it’s different. He’s just sogood, and I know I want that. I wanthim,just the way he is.

Not this. This doesn’t make me feel happy… Not like he does.

He said I don’t deserve to hurt… I wanted to believe him.

“Lex…” I whine, with my heart screaming at me to pull away.

But my body betrays me, like the fucking slut it is, cupping his cock and squeezing.

A ripple of thrill rushes through my loins. I hate it. It makes me fuckingsickto my stomach, but I can’t stop.

I… just… can’t.

Jasper shoves me toward my bed, spinning me and pushing me down onto my stomach. My head is foggy, clouded up so thick I can’t see.

I don’t think this is me… Is it?

It must be someone else; the desperate, panting whore who wants to get fucked so bad, he’s lifting his hips while his pants are yanked down.

Maybe this is me. Therealme.

Jasper spits into his hand, and suddenly, a cock is pressing up to my hole.

“Lex…” I whimper into the bed, tears seeping from my eyes.