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He was really gone from this world.

A sob broke out of my mouth as I shoved hard against his chest, he tried to hold me but I wouldn't let him.

"I don't believe you, You just killed him!Why?i can't do this Hayden, I can't do this!"I screamed.

I was beyond reasoning, everything was happening so quickly, Shawn was dead, he was a good person who had no enemies.

It had to be him!

My body shook with waves of bitter tears, was his death because of me?

HAYDEN

I stared at her trembling form, her gaze filled with hurt, pain and....I refuse to allow myself interpret the rest of the emotions I saw there.

She was hurt.

It was understandably since she just lost someone she considered a friend , but I couldn't push back the wave of bitterness at her last words.

I'll give her some space to calm down, that would be best for the both of us right now.

"Just breath , I'll give you more time, then we can discuss about this "

She lifted her tear filled gaze to mine, her gaze filled with anger and bitterness.

"We have nothing to discuss , I made a huge mistake thinking we would be able to work out, you'll always hurt people and I won't ever be able to get used to that!"

I wasn't prepared for that.

I was left frozen for a moment.

"What are you talking about!" the words dripped out slowly from my mouth.

"I can't do this with you anymore!"

The sharp taste of hurt, Followed shortly by the burning sting of betrayal.

"I thought I would be able to do it but I can't!"

"stop it!" the words came out of my clenched teeth.

"I really can't!I can't!"

"Please stop it!!"I growled out this time, grasping both her shoulders firmly backing her against the wall.

My breaths coming out harsh and uneven as I tried to suppress the brewing storm pulsating through my veins.

I tilted her face to mine, forcing her to look at me.

"You told me you got used to me, got used to everything!You said ....."my nostrils flared as I inhaled sharply

"You said you love me and wouldn't leave, you made me believe every word you said, made me believe I could be a better person to you and our daughter but in reality you didn't trust me at all, you've never believed that!" my voice rose with every spoken word

"Everything you told me was just a lie wasn't it!!" I roared , she flinched notably, her face turning paper white.

She shrunk away from me, her blurry gaze and trembling form revealed it all.

I could almost taste the raw fear sipping out of her.