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"It was you.You helped her leave , you're supposed to be my brother!!"

He stared at me not bothering on denying the fact .

"I did what I did because you're my brother...Also Dad was here, He knew you were injured because of her.if he had...."

"Bullshit!" I snapped cutting off whatever he was about to say.

He sure as hell didn't deny helping her leave but I'll be damned if I listen to any frigging excuse he had to give .

"There's no excuse and you know it.You were already planning this before we bursted in on Matteo, I being unconscious only presented the right opportunity isn't that right?"

His silence was the answer I needed.

He took a quick breath running his fingers through his hair, a look of frustration crossed his face.

"I only wanted to help you get rid of your weakness ,you could have died, you are my brother, how could I not care about you ?You could have fucking died!" he grounded out, a vein ticking in his jaw .

I closed my eyes trying to keep even on my breaths.

Even now the need to see her burned through my veins.

He was fucking wrong. ..

This craving...Obsession and dark desire that seeks to burn me from within.

It runs too deeply, even on to the innermost darkest part of me, it couldn't be gotten rid of that easily .

It wouldn't end until we are both consumed by the flames

"She doesn't want you , that's why she chose to leave .You fucking want her back?Then you gotta get up from this god damned bed and stand on your feet once again."

"I'll go tell dad you're awake " with that he turned and left in quick strides , slamming the door close behind him .

I allowed myself to fall back on the bed and closed my eyes as the weakness settled in.

The corners of my eyes prickled with a burning sensation , I dragged In deep breaths, the darkness was closing in on me.

At the end it was me who got broken , she took my very soul along with her into the night .

Sebastian was only right about one thing, I need to get back on my feet.I need to recover completely.

Then i'm going to find her no matter how long it takes.

The world is a tad too small to hide her from me forever.

And when I do find her...

Chapter FORTY TWO

New Beginning

I walked back to my apartment after dropping Hazel off at daycare, it wasn't a far distance, the school was very close by, only about a five minute walk.

The smell of fresh paint welcomed me as I walked into the living room.

Shawn must be here already,he came way earlier than expected , I made my way upstairs quickly and stood in awe at the doorway .

"it's so beautiful " I gushed out staring at the newly brightly painted room.