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I beamed brightly at her, how could it not?Just her presence alone was enough to cheer me up and allow me forget the pain in my heart.

Ever listening to Ashley's words was a huge mistake and I felt like I would be making an even more bigger one.

It will only be for a few hours , I will only go there secretly , no one would find me out. ..

I will make ensure to be careful about it.

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Chapter FORTY SIX

The old town didn't change a single bit.Everything remained the same as I remembered but still it felt somewhat odd to be back here

This was the place I had spent eighteen years of my life.It was filled with so many memories....most of them has to do with HIM.

Whether I want it or not he was still a huge part of my life ..whenever I stare into Hazel's pair of gaze that were so much like his...Hers were very alive with happiness and light while his were dark and forbidden.

They were two things that should never come across.

Some days I could just managed to convince myself that I wasn't the same weak eighteen year old anymore, that he doesn't have any power over me anymore and I don't have to always watch my back just like I'm doing right now.Many atimes I doubt if he still even remembers me or I was just the only one...

I watched the burial processions from afar , a safe distance away,made myself invisible as hard as I could .

The light rain pelted over my face as I watched the woman who raised me being laid to rest.

There were just a few people around, some of her old colleagues that I remembered and some of our old neighbors.

I still found it hard to believe that she was gone...Just like that.

Everyone left the place but I still stood at my spot staring into space, It was almost dark when I gathered myself enough and decided to leave.

"I'm really glad you could make it, mom would be so happy right now " Ashley spoke from behind me.

"I really hope she is " I mumbled out honestly, I casted her a glance, her hair was raised in a ponytail, her completely black outfit made her looked even more drained and tired...

There was no point of me staying here any more longer than I already did, although Hazel would be spending time with Mrs Paula it would still be nice if I could get back to her today itself.

"I...uh kind-of don't have a drive back to where I live, it's just a ten minute drive from here.., since you are here well....." She trailed off staring at me hopefully.

I stared up at the now darkened sky, a flash of lightening accompanied by thunder threatened a heavy rain .

I probably won't see her soon after today, I might just offer her a ride before we both part ways.

"Just get in"

All I wanted right now was to get back home and lay down on the comfort of my own bed.As soon as she entered I sped off.

I didn't try to start a conversation but so did she, to me it seemed as if she was nervous about something.

Or maybe everything was just taking its toll on her just like it was on me right now.

We had barely even drove for about seven minutes when the car screeched to a halt.

What was wrong?

"I'll check on that " I mumbled out pulling my side of the door open and ventured into the cold heavy rain outside .