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"You think a fucking apology is what I need?"

"Then what do you want me to do?I can't exactly change the past "

"Exactly!" I snapped loosing the little patience I had left.

"I don't want anything either from you or anyone else!"

I charged straight off not wanting to listen to wherever shit he still had to say.

For the first five months after I had woke up, I had searched for her crazily like a man posessed.

But then I have up.

It wasn't because I couldn't continue to search until I find her but because I didn't want to.

She was better off without me, she deserves some happiness, she'd escaped my darkness, I shouldn't smear her with it all over again.

It took all of my willpower and more but I managed to stop looking for her.

Sometimes in these past years I wake up in the night choked up inside, I would feel as if I'm loosing it completely .

I would bury myself up deeply in work , getting my hands dirty and staining my black heart even more.

As the days went past by I would feel myself becoming even more empty and cold inside.

Then one day it was all gone.

It was as if the sea of emotions inside of me dried up.

The hard work paid off though , our underground business was now the top of the chain globally, even so much more than what dad achieved during his time.

His health have been of bad lately, he's retired and had moved back to our old town and house .

It's been so long since he had been requesting my presence.

I think it's finally time to pay that visit.

Chapter FORTY FIVE

Gracie

I turned around at the farmiliar voice to be met with the gaze of my older sister......or should I say former?

Ashley..

We stared at each other silently for what felt like an eternity but could only be few seconds in reality

"It's been so many years, I just caught sight of you and..." She trailed off breaking the silence.

Often at times in the past I had always imagined that this day would come when my past would catch up with my presence..about what I would do...what I would say if I ever bump into my old family.

It was rather strange that right now I had nothing to say.

Staring at her right now reminded me of all the things I wanted to forget...

The forbidden things that I just wanted to remain buried.

She looked exactly the same as I remembered, just a little bit older , I guess six years wasn't that a lot of time .