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He always was so strong...So scary and intimidating ...he had always made me feel so tiny, like he could crush me without even so much as you lift a finger .It felt strange seeing him lying here so still and pale.

His eyes were closed, I guess the sedatives were still effective .

The doctor had said that he was out of danger but would take some time before he would regain consciousness.

"I'm leaving Hayden " I whispered

"You shouldn't have saved me .....but you did, now I'm going to go far away and you won't be able to stop me...I'll free us both."

I could have sworn I saw him make the slightest gesture but when I stared again.......nothing.

I inhaled deeply and exhaled aloud before I continued.

"I'm not an ungrateful person, everything you owe me for these past years is all over....We don't owe each other anything ,i won't be here when you wake up "

"You were right, this is what I've always wanted b..but...but right n..now" I choked on the words.

I'm not sure what I want anymore....

"I really hope you make it" I averted instead

I wiped my face with the back of my hand and began to make my way to the door.

"Don't go!"

I froze midway in my steps , all the hairs on my body stood at its ends.

"look at m..me" even though his voice was ragged my body still obeyed it's strained order, I turned around slowly to face him.

His green eyes were glazed and glassy,probably from all the sedatives , his breaths came out in harsh pants as he struggled to get into a sitting position.

"What are you doing!" I croaked out , he no longer seemed weak to me.

He ripped of the needles from his arm and staggered his way towards me .

His wounds reopened, blood was currently oozing out through his shirt but he didn't appear to mind it nor the pain.

"What are you doing !"I yelled out in horror this time, he was bleeding profusely now.

"To hell with y..your forgiveness!I d...don't need it!"his voice was rough with raw emotions.

"I'm sorry Hayden " my voice came out as a strangled whisper.

Why I was apologizing I don't know, perhaps it was because of the look of hopelessness in his glazed expression....or perhaps the raw plea I heard in his voice.

"Stay p..please " even as I shook my head a strained tear rolled down one of his eyes.

He was begging me not to leave...

"I will find you!" He managed out in harsh pants before collapsing unconscious to the hospital floor

I screamed calling for the doctor and nurses

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The doctors rushed inside, ushering me out of the room.