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Where do I begin?

She gave me a chance, willing to give me all that I so craved, she'd only asked to allow her a little freedom and a chance to be happy, the nervousness returned eating it's way slowly through every part of me.what if I screwed everything up and disappointed her?

It wasn't that her happiness hadn't mattered to me before but I had always managed to suppress it each time, but today....I couldn't push it past, I didn't want to brush whatever she wants aside anymore.

I want to give it all to her.

I felt a slight tug on my trousers, staring down only to realize Hazel had been talking to me while I was lost in thoughts.I looked around but didn't find Gracie any where in sight.

I scooted down to her level as she spoke excitedly .

I and Gracie were already connected in the strongest and deepest of ways.

The bond of a child..

How did I being so fucked up ever managed to have produce a life so beautiful?

She was the most precious thing I've ever had a hand in.

"Uncle Hayden can we go have ice cream, mom said we can't go because you are really busy"

She probably had said that to her because she thought I would have refused.

With the way I feel right now I don't think I could actually deny her.......the both of them anything.

"Well I'm not busy anymore, so we can...."

"Really?Then we can go?" she cuts in with a hopeful glint dancing in her gaze .

I couldn't hold back a chuckle at her excitement.

Was she always this alive at the slightest things?

I extended my palms and she hastily slides her much smaller ones into mine.

"Let's go tell your mom shall we?"

At her eager nod we ventured out of the room, halfway we bumped into Gracie,....There was it again, the tightness returned back to my chest as her gaze wandered from Hazel to me.

"She wanted to play and get some ice-cream, I would like it if you could join us...will you?"

Shit!

Why was I feeling nervous, I didn't even so as to take a breath as I awaited her response.

A small smile curved on her lips which slowly blossomed into a full smile, I saw something.......almost like relief pass through her gaze

"I would like that, up I'll just hurry up and um...change my clothes "

My gaze followed her until she disappeared into the room.

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Chapter FIFTY EIGHT

GRACIE

He wouldn't leave his room, but I noticed the frequent glances he threw in our direction from the bedroom window.So I sent Hazel to him, I knew he would listen to her.