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Hazel's question drew my attention even though it wasn't directed at me.

She'd already been referring to him as her dad even before I told her the truth, that he was actually her father.It was amazing how much she grew attached to him since then, I always have to bite back a wave of jealously each time she referred to him for almost everything and not to me, It wasn't rational of me, and was childish even ,but I couldn't help but feel that I was no longer her favorite person, like I had always been to her.

The expression he had when I had told her that I lied when I had said that daddy wasn't coming back, that he returned and never leave us again would forever be engraved in my memories.I've never seen him so filled with emotions before.

To accept his world would be very tough and different from everything I've ever known, I still don't know if I would make it, but I'm willing to try, to trust him completely when he promised that he was going to keep us safe .

"I told you before that we are going to meet your grandfather, that's where we are going" he replied casually from the wheel, from the rearview mirror his gaze found mine and held for a moment.

"Grandfather?Is he old?"she questioned

"Old?"he repeated

"Like Dumbledore ?"she asked with a little bit of excitement.

He looked lost for a moment .

"We watched Harry Potter movie once, and she has obsessed with it ever since then " I explained .

The car drove to a halt and I looked outside at the huge intimidating mansion from the window.

It felt as if I was suddenly washed with flood of memories that I had wanted them to remain buried.

I tried to keep my expression neutral even as a wave of anxiety kicked in, I felt his gaze on me and returned his stare, he had a sort of a troubled expression.

"I'm all right" I spoke ,but I didn't sound convincing even to my own ears.

"You don't have to lie"

"And you don't have to blame yourself for anything anymore, I already told you we've been through that"

Some emotion flashed through his gaze, but it was gone so quickly before I could begin to ponder at it.

He gave a slow nod before reaching to pull the side of his door open, he walked over to our side and pulled it open, assisting me and Hazel out the car.

The further we walked the more my legs felt like ice.

I don't know why I feel as if we were back in circles and we were right back to where we started, digging back to our past, though he was standing besides me I felt as if I'm returning back to HIM.the Hayden who used to hurt me.

My insides churned and my blood roared aloud in my ears, I found myself struggling to breath .

I felt both his hands on my shoulders, his gaze commanding me to look at him.

"Shit.Breathe please "

His voice filled me with a sensation of calm

He was the cause of my nightmares but at the same time only he could make it go away, he's hurt me more than anyone but I don't think I'll be safer anywhere than with him.

"I'm alright "

His gaze darted over me worriedly, a swear escaping his mouth

"No.You're not, it's all my mistake, you are not ready for this, we should go back now !"

With a sudden firm grip on my arm he began to retrace our footsteps ,until I stopped him.

"No!I can do this trust me!"