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Josh’s Letter

Lily,

Hello there. You wrote me a letter…

I was surprised to hear from you—it’s been a while since we’ve been in contact. Since you went to the trouble to hand-write your note to me, I thought maybe I should do the same.

As far as your apology goes, it’s more than okay.

As you can imagine, I’ve moved on since then.

I mean, it did feel shitty at the time, but that was mostly because our father had just left.

Seriously though—we were just kids, and what’s done is done.

Anyway, I’m trying to say that, of course, I accept your apology—if that’s what you need—but honestly, it was such a long time ago.

No apologies were necessary as far as I’m concerned.

I caught what you said about being a PA. I’m glad you found something that you like. I know you didn’t want to do all that schooling your parents had planned. Believe me, you didn’t miss much.

We’ve had a couple of PAs in my practice over the years, and they’ve always been a valuable part of our team.

Since I left the PHS, I have practiced with a non-profit that staffs free clinics in Western Nebraska and down around Laramie.

It’s challenging but rewarding work. When I’m not working, I live full-time in Estes Park, which I guess you know, since this is what makes it possible for your grandmother to find me useful.

I was sorry to read about your struggles with anxiety. I know you shared some of what was going on with you back then, but I don’t think, at the time, I could appreciate how much you had to cope with. As an adult with more life experience, I understand how debilitating all of that can be.

I hope you’ve found the support you need or want. I remember your family was a bit difficult about being there for you.

Anyway, it’s good to hear from you, and I’m glad we’re back in touch. Let me know your schedule, and we can coordinate a time for you to visit.

— Josh