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I’m quick to agree, knowing I need this if I have any chance of keeping my self-esteem and my sanity. Jake also nods in agreement, but neither of us speaks. We wait for Miles to take control, as has become the norm for us.

“Am I right in thinking we all want to do this?” Miles asks, looking between us, like he doesn’t already know the answer.

Both Jake and I nod enthusiastically, and I’m rather impressed no sarcastic comments were thrown his way. Miles grins when he sees we’re both all in.

“So we date. We keep it between the three of us, for now, and when the time is right, we’ll have another conversation about how to share our news,” Miles says.

Jake shuffles beneath me, and I have to ignore the hardness I can feel pressed against my arse. “I know I’m the one who probably needs this time the most, so thank you.”

I reach down and grab the hand that’s not wrapped around my waist. I lace our fingers together, squeezing reassuringly. “This is a big decision for all of us. We need to be sure we’re an unbreakable group before we open up about this.”

“Indie’s right,” Miles agrees. “This isn’t a typical relationship, so not everyone will understand or approve. We need to be sure our relationship is tough enough to handle that pressure before we even think about exposing ourselves to it. So, it’s not just you who needs the time, we all do.”

“So, do we need to set some ground rules?” I phrase it as a question, but it’s more of a reminder that Miles suggested it earlier, and now is a good time to move onto that discussion.

Jake and Miles both pause, and I’m not sure if they’re considering if we need rules, or what they should be. Unsurprisingly, Miles breaks his silence first.

“I think the first rule should be that we need to have more open communication. If you’d have known about what was happening between me and Jake, you most likely wouldn’t have felt so left out.”

That’s very true. I got so caught up thinking they were leaving me behind; I didn’t even stop to consider that they needed to work through their past issues the same way me and Miles do.

I feel Jake nodding beside me. “Exactly. I was jealous when I found out you two were sharing a bed. Not because I didn’t like the idea, it was more that I thought you were hiding it from me.”

A lump appears in my throat and my stomach sits heavily, guilt overwhelming me. I squeeze Jake’s hand tighter, as I turnto look at him, letting him see how sorry I am. He presses his lips against my cheek before giving me that cheesy grin of his, settling my nerves straight away.

Miles clears his throat, pulling our attention back to him, though I can see the smile he’s trying to hide. “So we can continue exploring our individual pairings, as long as the other person is aware of it? We need to build on ourselves as couples, or we’ll never work as a triad.”

Both Jake and I nod, but I want to add to that. “I think we should make more effort to do things as a threesome.”

As soon as the last word leaves my lips, Jake chuckles beside me, and I turn to see him wiggling his eyebrows as he smirks suggestively. I can’t stop the blush from spreading across my cheeks as I groan in embarrassment.

“I meant like all three of us date, not just sex,” I clarify, ignoring Jake’s continued chuckles.

“I wasn’t complaining about the idea of regular threesomes, Indie. I’ll never complain about that,” Jake jokes, and I playfully hit him on his arm as I shake my head.

Miles leans closer, his expression heated as he looks between us. “Without making this all about sex, I think it’s important we talk about it. How do you feel about having sex with us both at the same time, Dee? It’s not everyone’s cup of tea, and we want to make sure you’re comfortable with everything we do together.”

I’m sure my face is as red as a fucking tomato, and I have to drop my gaze to avoid looking at Miles if I stand any chance of responding normally.

This is something I’ve thought a lot about, since I realised I could have both Jake and Miles, but it’s not been an easy decision. I have a lot of trauma in my past, and other than with Miles, my sexual experiences have not been great.

Going from barely having a sex life to having sex with two men at the same time, is a massive leap, but it’s something I’m keen to try.

“It’s not something I ever thought about until recently. I trust you both, and I know you respect me enough to stop or slow down if I’m struggling, or even just because I ask you to. I also know you’d never force me to do something I’m not comfortable with. That being said, I definitely want to try with both of you.”

Jake groans loudly into my ear, shuffling beneath me in such a way that has his cock rubbing against my thigh. “Baby, you can’t say stuff like that while you’re sitting on my lap, wearing these ridiculously exposing shorts.”

Heat floods my core as I feel every inch of him rubbing against me in the most maddening way. My shorts are thin, and Jake’s only wearing sweatpants, so there’s very little barrier between us.

I turn to face Jake, and my stomach coils when I see the burning heat in his gaze. He’s looking at me like he wants to devour me, and I’m more than happy to let him.

Miles once again loudly clears his throat, and Jake and I reluctantly turn to face him. I don’t miss the way Jake glares at him, grumbling something unintelligible under his breath.

“Does anyone have any other rules to add?” Miles asks, sounding way more put together than I feel right now. “So far we have: improve communication, continue developing as couples, whilst keeping the third in the loop, and date regularly as a triad. We can also fuck as a threesome.”

“That about covers it,” Jake says, sounding impatient.

“I have nothing to add.” Even before I’ve finished my sentence, the expression on Miles’ face shifts from the impassive professional he was showing us while we made the rules, to something that gets my blood pumping.