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“This was fun, but we should all get some sleep,” I reluctantly suggest, pushing my dick back into my boxers before it gets hard again.

I don’t wait for either of them to respond before I get up and head out of the room. I can’t risk looking at their naked bodies, as I might not walk away.

“Which room am I?” I ask over my shoulder.

“Third on the right. Indie is next to you, I’m next to her,” Jake replies.

I take a shuddered breath, drawing on every ounce of strength I have not to turn around. Jake and Indie are my weaknesses, but I’m not ready to give them everything just yet. They broke my heart, and it’ll take time before I can trust either of them with it again.

“Night,” I say, ignoring their confused mumbles as I make my way into the room I’m going to be calling my own for a bit.

As soon as the door is closed, putting a barrier between me and the two people who could ruin me, I let out a long sigh, mentally berating myself for not holding strong like I planned.

Although that was hot as fucking hell, it broke all the rules I set for myself before walking in here, and I’m worried it has confused things further. I can’t deny that I want them both, but I also can’t forget that they’ve broken my heart before. How can I trust they won’t break it again?

Given how often I move around, and the amount of new beds in different, unfamiliar rooms I’ve slept in, you’d think I’d be used to it, but it never gets any easier.

After the dramatic, albeit incredibly fucking sexy evening I shared with Miles and Jake, I returned to my room with so much on my mind. Although there were a lot of sexy parts that were easy to recall, of course, my fragile confidence chooses to focus on Miles walking away.

He left without even looking back, leaving Jake and I standing there, completely naked, not at all sure what to do. My heart sank as I watched him walk away, but Jake pulled me close and wrapped his arms around me, reassuring me in a way that only he can.

As I climb into bed, my brain replays the moment over.

As Jake wrapshis arms around me, pulling me against his chest, I’m shocked that his heart isn’t pounding the way mine is. Why isn’t he as destroyed by Miles leaving?

“It’s okay, Indie,” he says soothingly, rubbing his hand up and down my bare back. “I actually expected Miles to do something like this.”

I pull back to stare at him, and am shocked to see he’s being completely serious. It’s a little ironic, as I thought he’d be the one to freak out.

He gives me that knowing smile, like he can hear what I’m thinking as he pushes a few rogue blonde hair strands off my face, tucking them behind my ear.

“Miles is a logical person, but he’s also incredibly kind. He’d never want to hurt someone he cares about, if he can help it. So he won’t touch either of us until he’s sure it’s what he wants.

“His body may want us, but he has to forgive us first. He won’t give us the hope of a future until he’s sure it’s something he’s capable of giving us,” Jake explains, reminding me he’s known Miles for a lot longer than I have.

I know he’s right. It makes sense, and honestly, I should have realised that Miles is still the boy I fell for all those years ago. He’s still kind and caring, even if he’s a bit rougher around the edges now.

“So I need to work on earning his forgiveness and gaining back his trust. But you need to work on what’s going on in your head. If you get into this with the two of us, you have to be sure you’re all in.

“This isn’t a fling for any of us, and you have to be sure it’s what you want. You can’t date me in public and fuck Miles in private, like he’s a dirty little secret.

“I expect telling people we’re a triad will be just as hard to explain as the sexuality questions you’ll no doubt get. So you have to decide if you can deal, and when you’re sure, you’ll have to find a way to make Miles believe you’re serious,” I tell him, hoping he can see how important this is.

I know I have a lot of work to do with Miles, and we need to talk before we can even think about moving forward, but Jake has much bigger hurdles to overcome, and I’m worried he’s going to be the stumbling block we all fall at.

Jake nods, a pensive look on his face. I reach up to smooth out the wrinkles forming on his forehead, giving him a small smile as I do.

“Would we have to tell people straight away, or can we spend some time with only the three of us knowing? Not because I want to keep it hidden, but I want to enjoy our time together for a bit before it’s pulled apart by opinions,” Jake says, his words turning sour as his brain is no doubt conjuring up all of the possible opinions as we speak.

I pause for a moment, considering his question. “I’d be willing to keep it a secret for a bit, but I feel certain Miles will only entertain that option if he thinks you’re willing to go public when the time is right. He won’t risk getting hurt again.”

Jake nods slowly, agreeing with me. “We should get some sleep.”

He pulls me in for another hug, squeezing me tight. When he finally lets me go, he presses a sweet kiss to my lips. It’s more chaste than any other tonight, but it’s full of promises, and the fluttering in my stomach goes wild.

He walks me to my room in silence, and I’m sure we’re both thinking about the individual yet mammoth tasks we’re each faced with when it comes to Miles. If we don’t win him over, this thing between us all is over before it even begins, and neither of us is willing to let that happen.

We’re going to fight for Miles, to show him that if he trusts us with his heart, we won’t break it again.