Page 37 of Search My Soul (Taylor Family Saga #3)

“What are you over there frowning about? I know damn well you aren’t texting another nigga in my whip.” Soul’s smooth voice interrupted my thoughts.

“What difference would it make if I were? We’re not together, and the last time I checked, I’m the only person paying this phone bill.” I sassed, enjoying the annoyed expression on his handsome face.

“You gon’ make me fuck you up,” he grumbled.

“I’m not worried. If my daddy didn’t teach me anything else, he taught me how to fight and how to shoot.

” I shrugged while sending a message in the group chat to let them know I was okay.

My head fell back against the headrest as I stared out of the window.

Lately, life was throwing all types of curveballs my way, and I wasn’t sure how much longer I could take it.

I’m not sure who I pissed off in the universe, but I needed to figure out how to make things right.

After we dropped off Murk and Duke, the car fell silent.

I was anxious to get home, even though there would be no rest for me.

Between the money and now my car, a plan was needed.

A part of me considered telling Normandee because she was good at solving other people’s problems. I needed some type of guidance and direction right now.

“You good?” he asked, this time with a softer tone.

“If I say yes, will you leave it alone?”

“If it’s the truth.” My head whipped in his direction.

“You don’t have to pretend to care in order to fuck me. You do know that, right?” I’d never been one to beat around the bush, and it irritated me when people pretended to care just to get what they wanted.

Soul responded with a low chuckle, but nothing else was said.

His lack of response made me uneasy, and I questioned whether I was right about him all along.

My attitude took over as I shifted my body in the seat with my back to him.

Being around him brought out emotions I wasn’t used to, and it annoyed me.

This was never supposed to be more than a one-time hookup.

When we finally pulled up to my place, I attempted to hop out of the truck, but the doors were locked.

Immediately, I whipped around to see Soul with a blank expression on his face.

No words were spoken as he pulled the handle and let himself out of the car.

My stomach twisted in knots as my nerves got the best of me.

He opened my door and then stepped back to allow me to get out.

I reached down to grab my bag off the floor before I stepped out.

He closed the door behind me, which brought him even closer.

His jaw flexed as he stood there observing me.

He chuckled once more without saying anything.

We stood there in silence for a moment until I watched him reach down to pick up his phone. When I heard his phone ringing, I shifted my weight from one foot to the other. A female’s voice came through on the other end, pissing me clean off.

“Hey. I wasn’t expecting your call. What’s up?”

“Aye, I’m tryna fuck. If I send you the addy, can you meet me somewhere?” His tone was even with no discernible emotion. I peered at him as if he’d lost his damn mind. I remembered Puma mentioned Murk had done something similar, and I told her she should have cussed his ass out.

“Let me put some clothes on, and I can be there whenever you need me,” she answered with no hesitation.

“Aight, bet. I’ll hit you up in a little bit.” He disconnected the line without any more conversation with her. I thought he was done until the phone rang again. I stood there as he called five different women and simply requested to fuck. No pleasantries. No sweet talk or anything.

“You sound like you’ve had a rough day. My kids are asleep, so I can have my oldest keep an eye on them so I can come take care of you.

” The last girl purred into the phone. Desperation dripped from her lips.

He hung up with the same promise to hit her up later.

At that point, I was angry and ready to spazz out.

I attempted to move away from him, but Soul pushed me against his truck.

My chest heaved up and down as I struggled to get my emotions together.

“What the fuck is your problem?” I seethed, giving him a deadly glare. Soul remained calm, and it only angered me more.

“I’m trying my best to keep my composure, but you’ve got me all the way fucked up. Now, what did you learn from that?” he probed, holding his phone up. My arms were folded across my chest as my nostrils flared.

“That you’re a hoe like I thought,” I spat with venom on my tongue.

“You seem really bothered for someone who keeps acting like you don’t want anything to do with me.”

“I’m not acting.” This time, he laughed in my face.

“Then why is your face twisted up like this?” Soul stepped closer, gripping my chin in his hand. We were so close, I wondered if he could hear the beating of my heart.

“I-I don’t care about anything you have going on. All you did was prove my point. Niggas will chase you down and still be fucking with twenty other hoes.

“Naw, that’s not what this is. You keep tryna place me in a category with all the men you’ve encountered, but you can’t.

I’m not a mothafucka that can be boxed in.

There isn’t another nigga like me, Juicy.

You think I’m pressing you this hard because of some pussy?

You saw firsthand pussy is available to me on demand.

I don’t have to put in any effort to get it either.

If I only wanted to fuck, I would have made it clear.

The problem is that you know if you let me in, I’m gonna get more than you intended to give. ”

I felt seen, and it made me uncomfortable.

“You don’t know me,” I deflected.

“Naw, that’s where you’re wrong. I can see right through you.

You and I are very similar. I don’t believe in letting people in either.

You’re not running from me because you’re afraid I’ll hurt you.

You’re running because you know that you’re gonna fall for me.

I can see it in your eyes and in your body language.

You’re used to keeping people at arm’s length because it’s safe.

Ain’t shit safe about me, but I’m not about to play witcha heart either. ”

“Why are you trying to make this something more than what it is? You might be able to read me, but I can see you too. I’m trying to avoid the inevitable.

If we get together and shit goes bad, like I know it will, our friend group will be affected.

Tycen and Murk are your friends, but they are married to my friends.

My girls don’t play about me, and I don’t want to bring any unnecessary drama to our group of friends. ”

“Do you hear how stupid that shit sounds? I’m a grown ass man.

I fuck with them niggas the long way, but I don’t give a damn about what they have going on in their personal relationships, and the feeling is mutual.

Besides, your excuses are bogus as fuck.

Now either you’re gonna lay it all on the table, or we’re gonna keep playing these childish ass games. ”

“What do you want from me?”

“I’m a greedy ass nigga. I want all or nothing.”

“How do you even know if you’re ready for that?”

“I guess you’ll have to trust me and see.” Soul shrugged his shoulders as if his answer made all the sense in the world.

“Fine, but I’m telling you now if you hurt me, I’m gonna make you pay.

I’m not one of those girls who leave with their tail tucked.

I’ll fuck all of your shit up and take a selfie after I do it.

I’m the friend my girls call when they want to jump a nigga or throw bricks through his window.

” I meant every word I said. When my feelings were hurt, anger was the only emotion that resonated with me.

“It’s cool. As long as you know it’s mutual.

I love a good war.” Soul stepped even closer until we were chest to chest. The moment his lips pressed up against mine, my shoulders dropped in surrender.

He forced his tongue into my mouth while his hands roamed my body.

I moaned as my senses went into a frenzy, then suddenly he pulled away.

My lips were tingling as I stood there in shock.

“What the hell was that?”

“My bad. My paranoia kicked in. We need to take this inside before I get caught slipping out here.” I laughed even though it was clear he meant it.

“Who said you were coming in?” I challenged, knowing I wanted nothing more than for him to fuck me until I fell asleep. Soul raised his eyebrow to let me know he wasn’t buying it.

“Baby, please stop the madness. You and I both know you want this dick. Plus, you aren’t gonna let me out of your sight after I made those calls.” He wasn’t lying, and I still was unsettled by how willing those broads were to open their legs to a man who showed no interest in them.

“Yeah, you can laugh all you want, but the minute a bitch comes at me sideways behind you, I’m beating her ass and then yours,” I warned, pointing my finger in his face.

He took my finger into his mouth and sucked on it.

His tongue swirled over my digit, and my body grew weak.

My pussy throbbed as his hand reached for my throat.

My hand dropped to my side as I found myself caught up in his aura.

“You’re gonna realize what type of nigga you have soon enough.

You aren’t running shit over here, but I’ll let you make it because you aren’t used to someone like me.

Now get your ass in this house so I can take my frustrations out on that pussy.

” I shuddered under his gaze, almost forgetting where we were.

This man was slowly infiltrating his way into my life, and there was nothing I could do to stop him. At this point, I didn’t even want to.