Page 44 of Loki’s Spellbinder (Hunters Creek Archangel’s Warriors MC #14)
Loki’s face paled, and his mouth dropped open. Unable to stand it any longer due to the tears clogging and filling my tear ducts, I stood and turned away.
“No!” Loki shouted.
I was grabbed, twirled around, and he clutched me against him. I wanted to wrap myself in him and never let go, but I had to be sure. His mouth took mine in a desperate kiss. I wasn’t able to resist, but I finally pulled away.
“Let go. I have things to do,” I told him.
“No, I can’t. I can’t lose you, Spellbinder. Please. Don’t leave me,” he hoarsely begged.
“I have to. You concentrate on your son. We’ll find our way back together if we’re meant to be. But right now, it isn’t. The Pagans will concentrate on finding who is after me. I’ll be returning to Georgia.
“You can’t. It’s too dangerous. And they won’t want to come here.”
“Yes, they will. I already spoke to Wrath. He, Daddy Rage, and a few others are on their way. They’ll be here soon.
Don’t try to stop me, Loki. Goodbye,” I whispered.
As his arms fell away, I backed up and took off running.
He was nowhere in sight when I got to the bedroom and locked the door behind me. I broke down sobbing again.
The Pagans came to get me. It was Wrath, Jalisa, Rage, Mom, Nomad, Stitch, Chaos, and Keno.
Keno drove the crash truck and would transport my stuff and me back.
Since it was late in the day, they decided to wait to leave the next morning.
They weren’t in the best of moods, but I know they hung out with the Warriors.
I didn’t want to cause trouble between the clubs.
That wasn’t my intention, so I encouraged them to visit and have fun.
I stayed in the townhome. Mom and Jalisa insisted on staying with me.
I wasn’t ready to talk about it, and all I did was cry.
They were silent supporters for hours. That was until Chaos came and insisted he would sit with me.
I ended up held in his arms and cried myself to sleep last night.
This morning, I woke up with him still in my bed.
I felt terrible, my head ached, and my body felt like I’d been beaten.
I showered, brushed my teeth, and combed my hair to feel partially human.
Chaos took his shower after I had mine. I couldn’t stomach the breakfast that Mom and Jalisa cooked.
Just the smell made me want to puke. The others ate with gusto.
Wrath quietly asked me before we got in the crash truck and left, “Are you sure you want to do this, Brae? I know you love him. And he loves you. The guy made a mistake.”
“I know he did, and yes, I love him. As for him loving me, I’m unsure if he does or is just in love with the idea of having someone.
I have to be able to forgive what he did to have any chance of building a life with him.
I don’t know if I can. And if I do, I need time.
I can’t think and do it with him hovering over me.
I need distance and time. Please, I’m begging you, take me home.
If you don’t want anything to do with this, and I understand if you don’t want it to impact your relationship with this club, I’ll rent a car and return to Marietta. I won’t ask you to hide me anymore.”
“Like hell we’ll let you handle any of this alone. You’re family. We’ve got you. Our relationship with the Warriors will be what it is. If you’re sure, let’s go.”
Wrath was on one side of me, Rage on the other, and Chaos was behind me as we left the house.
I almost broke down when I saw the Warriors standing there.
It looked like it was the whole club. No one was smiling.
There were sad faces all around, but none seemed as sad, lost, and devastated as Loki. He looked like he hadn’t slept.
As hard as it was to do, I did go to him after I asked my three escorts to give us privacy. Loki was standing away from his club. When I got up to him, I saw pain and desolation on his face.
“Loki, I know you don’t want this and probably can’t understand why I’m doing it, but I want you to know, I’ll be rooting for you and Xander to find your father-son relationship.
And I want you to be careful. Please take care of yourself.
I know you probably won’t believe this, but I love you and want you to be happy, even if it’s not with me. ”
“The only way I’ll ever be completely happy is if I have you, Spellbinder.
You’ve cast a love spell, and I’ll never be free of it, even if I live to one hundred.
For the love of God, be careful. Don’t trust Eli or anyone outside the Pagans.
I have to stay in touch so I know how it’s going, so expect me to be calling Wrath.
I’ll respect your wishes, but please, forgive me soon. I can’t live without your love.”
I was startled when he stepped closer and brushed his lips across mine.
Just as quickly, he stepped back and walked off.
My eyes were watering. I nodded and didn’t say anything as I was escorted to the awaiting truck.
Within a couple of minutes, we were pulling out of the gates, and I let the tears go.
Keno didn’t say a word. Mom chose to ride with me.
She held me and let me cry on her shoulder.