Page 44 of Guarded (Hopeless Blessed #3)

I circled his erection but didn’t move my hand. “Oh, do you not like it when the shoe is on the other foot?”

Jem huffed. “I haven’t had many compliments in my life, okay? Sue me.”

Taking pity on him, I slowly caressed his length. He groaned, the sound skittering over my skin. “That’s okay. How about we compliment one another until we’re both used to it? ”

“I can get on board with that.” Jem spread his legs wider. “Now, I do believe I was promised a fucking.”

I laughed, rolling off the bed to find the lube. “Ask and you shall receive.”

His laughter joined my own. “Not sure that’s the context it was intended for, but I approve.”

Returning to my spot between his spread thighs, I opened the lube. I concentrated on that so I didn’t need to look at Jem as I said, “You should know that I’ve only done this a couple of times.”

There was a shifting on the sheets, then Jem’s face was right in front of mine. His big fingers tilted my chin, until our eyes met. “Do you not want to do this, sweetheart? I’m happy to top if you’d rather.”

“No, it’s not that.” I blew out a shaky breath. It’s okay to be vulnerable with Jem. He’s safe. “I’m just not sure I’m going to be very good at it. I mean, I know what I’m doing, but?—”

Jem cut me off with a kiss. It was fierce. Dominating.

Loving.

He kissed me until I was breathless. Until I’d forgotten exactly what I was worrying about.

“It’s going to be perfect because it’s you,” he said quietly, forehead against mine. “That’s all I care about, Noah. Us being together in any shape or form is enough for me. You got that?”

Just like that, all my anxiety vanished. “I’ve got it.”

“Good.” He smirked. “Now let the sexy Noah out to play. He’s so fucking hot.”

I rolled my eyes and shoved his shoulder, sending him tumbling backwards onto the bed. “God, you and the cheese. It’s never-ending.”

He put both his hands behind his head, making his biceps bulge in a way that was positively indecent. “You like it.”

I did. I fucking loved that he found the sexual side of me hot. That he found any part of me hot.

All this time, I’d lusted after an angel. In reality, it was a demon I needed to set my heart and soul aflame.

This demon. My demon.

My mate.

“Is this what you want?” I purred, my buried confidence surfacing. “You want me to show you how much I’m enjoying this?”

“Fuck yes,” Jem hissed as I circled his hole. “Don’t be gentle with me, Noah. Take me like you own me.”

I leaned over to capture his mouth once more while my fingers deftly worked him open. It might’ve been a while since I’d done this, but I’d had plenty of practice prepping myself.

It was far more fun with Jem. I watched his reactions, fascinated by how he writhed as I slid my digit into his tight heat. The way his lips parted as I added a second finger. The moans that reverberated from deep in his chest as I kissed along his abdomen.

Most of all, I loved how his eyes rolled back in his head when I found his prostate.

“Fuuuuck,” he moaned, his cock twitching as I gave that special spot all the attention it deserved. “Noah, I need you inside me.”

I kissed the inside of his knee. “Soon, Jem.”

“No, now.” He shot me a beseeching look that I had no hope of refusing. “Please, Noah. Get. Inside. Me.”

I carefully withdrew my hand and rose up on my knees. Smirking down at Jeremiah, I didn’t look away as I lubed up my cock. “I should’ve known you’d be a bossy bottom. ”

He cracked a grin at that. “Like you’ll be any different.”

“You’re not wrong there.” God, that felt freeing. I’d wanted to be bossy before, but I hadn’t felt safe enough.

I didn’t need to worry about that with Jem.

I glanced down at his loosened hole. It was shiny and wet, begging me to bury myself there. I should have felt as safe now as when the situation was reversed. But still, I hesitated.

What if I was as terrible at this as Lyle said I was?

“Stop thinking, sweetheart,” Jem said huskily. He put his hands under his thighs and lifted until his knees were against his chest. “This is going to be amazing. All you need to do is enjoy yourself. That’s literally the only thing I need from you.”

Once again, Jem had my fears disappearing…unlike the smoke now filling the room. I threw up a quick shield to protect my furniture before lining myself up. With my insecurities buried, my confidence had returned.

Or, more accurately, my cockiness.

“Are you sure that’s all you need?” I crooned, circling Jem’s hole with the head of my dick. “I kind of thought you needed something else too.”

Jeremiah swore under his breath, a vein popping in his forehead. “Noah, I swear, I’ll find your dildo if I need to.”

Ooh, Jem riding one of my dildos sounded like a marvellous plan…for another time.

He wasn’t the only one desperate for this.

I wasn’t sure which of us groaned louder as I finally pushed inside him. His slick, tight heat had a stranglehold on my cock. Despite already coming once, my balls drew up tight at the feel of him.

This. This is right. This is what you’ve been missing .

It hadn’t been attention or love from someone else that I’d been lacking.

It had just been Jeremiah.

Now that I had him in my life, I was never letting him go.