Page 33 of Structure of Love

“Now Ireallydemand details if you’re skipping.”

I was more than happy to dish them out. “Things with Logan are fantastic. In fact, it’s our third date.”

I didn’t think either man expected that, as they both sort of took a second, absorbing my words.

Asher recovered first, his voice rising with excitement. “Really?! Wow, you’ve not had a third date with someone in ages. All right, so what’s he like?”

How did you sum up someone like Logan? It felt like an impossible task. “Genuine. I think that’s the best overall description of him. He’s just true to everything. If he likes something, he’s not apologetic about it. If he gives advice, hegives the best advice he can. If he’s with you on a date, he’s very present in the moment. I honestly enjoy his company and want more of it.”

“Wow.” Cohen tapped the steering wheel as if he were playing victory music in his head. “Now that’s the best praise I’ve ever heard you give. No wonder you’ve got a third date set up already.”

“We’ve got tons in common, too. Same hobbies, to start with. He’s eager to join us for the one-shot next week.”

“We’ll make room at the table,” Cohen promised. “I’d love to get to know him better.”

“He’s worth knowing. Even if we don’t work out as a couple, we’ve got to keep him as a friend.”

“That said…” Asher poked me in the shoulder. “Sex?”

“Haven’t had sex yet.”

“Woah, really? You’re not doing that to spite me and the bet, I hope.”

“Pffft, I do not live to spite you, Ash.”

“Liiiiies.”

I ignored him. “We both made the decision—no sex yet. We want to see if we can build a relationship, and I need this to not be hookup territory. I’m glad we had our first date without sex involved. Instead, I spent time getting to know him.”

“Okay, fair. I can see why you made the choice. Nothing wrong with it,” Asher said.

“Yeah. That said, he’s hot as fuck, and I really want my hands on him.” I bit my lip and almost didn’t say it, but let’s face it, I needed to share and I could say practically anything to these two. “I, uh, I’m getting top vibes from Logan.”

Cohen nodded as we hit the freeway. “Yeah, same.”

So I wasn’t the only one? “I know this sounds insane, but I’m seriously considering bottoming for him.”

“Whoa,” Asher breathed, his expression stunned.

I understood his reaction and didn’t know what to say. Just shrugged.

“Okay, no, let’s pause here,” Asher insisted. “After your history of bottoming, I thought you wouldn’t evenconsidertrying again. He’s not pressuring you, right?”

“Oh, no,” I said hastily, reassuring him. I could see why he’d ask. “We haven’t talked about sex at all, except agreeing we both wanted to date a while first. He’s not pressuring me or even hinting. That’s not why.”

Cohen cast me a quick glance, expression pensive. “Why is he different, then?”

“I think it’s because I know I can trust him during sex. I have this gut feeling he’d take care of me and not go rough and…icky like the two times I’ve tried. I suspect my refusal to bottom has been less about the action and more about trust.”

Asher muttered, “Considering what you told me, I don’t blame you.”

Yeah. Neither had been good experiences.

“But that is definitely part of being on the receiving end,” Asher tacked on. “You do have to trust your partner, since you’re kinda at their mercy. Of course, you should enjoy the action too, not saying otherwise. If you don’t, time to switch things up. But trust is a vital part. Honestly, part of the reason why Zar and I work so well together in bed is because I trust that man with my life.”

“As you should.”

Cohen raised a hand. “I second everything he just said.”