Page 16 of Endure the Pain

I almost yelled that he'd been a table man this afternoon, but the fact he'd called mehis girlleft me stunned. I shook my head to clear it and climbed out of the tub quickly because I was pretty sure I’d been promised multiple orgasms.

Wrapping a towel around myself, I leaned against the bathroom door frame and watched Jamie as he slipped out of his dress shirt. His back was to me, which allowed me to ogle the muscles rippling under his tattooed skin. He unfastened his slacks and slid them off, revealing black boxer briefs that molded to him like a second skin. He turned a little to toss his pants on the dresser and a little smile slowly tugged at his mouth, telling me he’d finally noticed me.

“I think you’ve both fixed and broken me,” I said and grimaced, internally kicking myself for saying anything.

He faced me with a slightly puzzled look. “Meaning?”

“I never cared for sex before you,” I mumbled honestly and crossed my arms over my chest.

“You mean with Tom?”

I nodded. “Sometimes it could be fun, after I got past my setbacks and if Tom was patient enough to wait for me to get past them. The majority of the time, sex felt like a chore or an obligation. I’d lay there, internally freakingout, doing everything I could to not let it show and if it did, he’d usually pretend not to notice and continue on until he got off.”

Jamie’s face relaxed, showing nothing as to what he was feeling. “Do you force yourself—”

“No,” I cut him off, shaking my head. “With you, I feel a sense of comfort. Maybe it’s because I’ve always loved you or because you feel like my other half, especially when we were kids. Like it had been you and me versus everyone in this house, the family, the world. I know you’ll always be there for me, no matter how low or damaged I become. It’s a level of trust that when I’m with you, everything else fades away and all that’s left is you and me.”

His blank mask faded to show his relief. “You’re not damaged, Maura. I know you don’t believe me, but to me…you’re perfect.”

I was touched by his words, but he was right. Doubt and insecurities were powerful emotions. Hopefully, one day I’d be stronger than them.

Jamie slowly made his way closer. “How did I fixandbreak you?”

His hands grasped my hips. I uncrossed my arms and hooked them around his neck, molding my front to his.“Well, thanks to you, I really like sex now, but also want to jump on you every time I look at you.”

He chuckled. “Then you must have broken me, too.” He ripped off my towel and I let out a gasp, then smiled up at him. He dropped it to the floor and ran his hands down my spine. My skin broke out in goosebumps and my whole body shivered from his sensual touch. His warm hands smoothed over my bare ass and gave it a good squeeze. Those frisky hands moved just under my butt to lift me and I locked my legs around his waist. “Having you clenched around my cock and screaming out my name is the closest thing to heaven I’ll ever know. You’re an addiction I never want to kick.” His lips captured mine in a devouring kiss.

He walked us over to the bed and laid me down gently in the center. Bracing himself over me, he broke our kiss and his hazel eyes bored into mine. He let his love for me show in them and it made my heart rate pick up speed. “I’d choose you. I know I said I wouldn’t, but if you ever ask, I don’t think I could stop myself from choosing you.”

He was talking about choosing me over Stefan. “I’ll never ask you to choose.”

“I know,” he said and brushed a strand of wet hairaway from my face. “I love you. So much so, I’d do anything for you.”

I nodded because there was a chance I’d cry if I spoke. His lips returned to mine in a toe-curling kiss before moving down my neck. He pressed his mouth over my heart and nuzzled my breasts with the little bit of scruff on his face. Scooting down my body, he settled himself between my legs. His strong hands pushed my legs open wide before his head delved. I hissed as his tongue rolled over my clit and I tried to squeeze my legs shut when he sucked it between his teeth. My legs didn’t move an inch. He wouldn’t let them, and his eyes met mine in warning. I read it loud and clear. If I wanted to come, I better keep my legs open.

As he continued to worship me with his mouth, one of his hands glided down my inner thigh and his finger dipped into my wet core, pushing inside of me. Pumping it in and out a few times, coating it in my essence, he pulled it out and trailed his finger down.

I sucked in a breath and I felt his lips curling into a smile. He lifted his head and met my eyes. “Relax. Trust me,” he whispered and returned his mouth to my clit. The flicking of his tongue intensified as he rubbed at my back entrance. It made me delirious, but in a good way. Then he pushed past the ring and stroked in and out.

My orgasm shot off like a firecracker, surprising me. His wandering finger in no man’s land fucking got me off so fast and so hard there was no time to brace myself. No,I’m coming. I’m coming.Nope. I justfucking came! I might have even blacked out for a second.

Jamie chuckled as he watched me come undone. “That’s one.”

Oh, boy.

CHAPTER 6

Stefan went to Bostonfor businessthe next day and would be gone for a few days. I must have really pissed him off because he left without telling me. He always told me if he was going to be gone for more than a day. This time I had to hear it from Jamie. I knew I wasn't a little girl anymore but still…it upset me. After my goons left for the day and Jamie was away doing mob shit, I might have had a little too much wine and thought it would be a good idea to text Stefan.

I don’t care how mad you are. I am still your daughter and you left without saying anything to me.

Stefan didn’t respond. An hour and two bottles of wine later, I picked up my phone again.

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