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Even though my legs are shaking with anticipation, I stay put, my body bent over the edge of the bed, my forearms holding up my chest while Finn grabs the bottle of lube from his end table drawer.

He returns quickly, his large hands gripping each ass cheek, massaging deep into the muscle and making me groan. Spreading my ass wide open, nerves rustle their way to the surface. As if he can feel it, his hands release me, caressing over my skin in such a loving touch that it settles me.

“I’m gonna make this so good for you. And we can stop at any point. If you don’t like anything I’m doing, just tell me. No safe words needed, no means no to me, and I’ll stop.”

I release a rough exhale. “I’m good, I want this.”

And then he’s spreading me open again. I expect the cold trickle of lube, but what I get instead is his warm, wet tongue.

“Oh shit!” I exclaim as I nearly jump out of my skin.

“Shh, let me take my time with you.”

His tongue laps at my hole, making it sloppy with his saliva. He swirls around and around, my head getting fuzzy with the new sensation. He presses firmly with his tongue, barely breaching the tight barrier before lapping at it more. Fuck, the pleasure is indescribable.

“I need to touch myself, Finn, it’s so good.” I reach my hand between my legs to stroke my aching cock, but before I can get to it, he smacks my hand out of the way.

“No. Wait for me. It’ll be worth it if you hold off.”

I groan unintelligible words as he feasts on me.

Just when I think I can’t take it anymore, I hear the pop of the lube bottle and then feel a cold trickle of liquid directly down my crack.

Finn spreads my ass cheeks open wide, his thumbs catching the lube, alternating rubbing over my tight rim. Over. And over. And over again.

My legs shake under his onslaught, and we haven’t even gotten to the penetrative sex part. My breaths come in hard pants, my back arching into him.

“I’m going to press in now, breathe for me.” And then he’s breaching past that tight rim, sliding a finger into my ass. I know to relax since we’ve done this much before but goddamn this is gonna burn.

“I love your ass, Carter. Fuck, if you could see what you look like right now. Your big, strong body bent over, taking my fingers. Fuck, I can’t wait to feel you squeeze around me.”

Fuck, yes. I grip the sheets with my fists as Finn’s lips trail kisses up my spine, one finger moving to two, then he’s searching, and as soon as he finds that spot, my cock jerks hard under me.

I’m leaking streams of precum, stars dancing behind my eyes as he ignites this inferno.

I moan loudly, feral and wanton. I’ve never felt so needy, a type of desperation that makes you feel out of control. I feel . . . alive.

After a few minutes of pure pleasurable torture, Finn finally pulls his fingers out and pushes my hip to get me to move onto my back.

“I need to see you while I fuck you for the first time, Carter. I want to look into your eyes as I claim you.”

His words go straight to my heart, pounding mercilessly against my ribcage. Flipping onto my back, I spread my legs wide to make room for him to fit between them.

“Condom?” he asks.

“I’ve only been with you since we first hooked up. And I’m tested monthly to remain a member at Temptations,” I confess sheepishly.

He settles between my legs, our cocks pressed against each other, trapped between our abdomens as his mouth descends on mine. Our kiss is slow and methodical, a sensual, languid caress of our tongues, capturing each other’s moans and swallowing them down.

“I did the same thing. I’m clean, and I haven’t been with anyone but you in a long time. The idea of nothing between us makes me fucking feral.”

“So, no condom?”

“No condom. Are you ready? Be sure. We don’t have to do this. I want you to be comfortable, I know what a big deal it is to let someone else inside your body. I want you to trust me, Carter.”

His words nearly break me and I fucking hate that I lashed out the way I did. I don’t want him to question anything, I want us to both be in this.

“I’m sorry, Finn. I didn’t mean anything I said; I was scared and confused. I trust you. I choose you. I want this. Want you, baby, so fucking much.”

His face goes molten, and he doesn’t ask any more questions, just lines up his thick cock with my open hole, pushing my legs back and looking down at where we’re about to be joined.

“Bear down for me.”

I do as he says, Finn’s thick head pressing against me without too much resistance. I can’t help but wince as he gives me a moment to adjust to his girth.

“You’re way bigger than three fucking fingers, man.”

“Shh, you can take it. Be my good boy, Carter?”

“Fuck you,” I grit out through clenched teeth, even though there’s a smile lifting on my lips.

“Happily.” His cock slips all the way in, his chest collapsing onto mine as his hands find my face. I let out a loud groan as I’m filled for the first time.

“Fuck, I love you.” Time freezes, my eyes wild as I stare into his.

Those three words wash over me, stunning me.

Finn loves me? “I know this isn’t the best timing, with my dick buried in your ass for the first time, but I couldn’t hold it back another moment.

I love you, Carter. So fucking much it hurts. ”

I seize his face with my hands, the burn, the ache, our families, the magazine article, the distillery, everything outside of this little room disappears.

Pulling his mouth to mine and giving him a bruising kiss, I know I feel the same way.

I didn’t want it. I fought it hard. But just like a storm on a path of destruction, Finn wrecked all my plans, knocking down every single wall of protection I built, ripping me bare until the real me was left raw and open .

“I love you, Finn. Fuck, baby. I love you too.”

Finn’s eyes fill with tears, and my heart nearly bursts from the abundance of emotion filling me.

“You love me?”

“Yeah, baby. I love you. You came into my life and wrecked everything I thought I knew and wanted.” Finn pulls back slightly as my hands clasp his face, my thumbs brushing the tears away from under his eyes.

“But you showed me everything I’ve been missing; you’ve shown me who I really am and what I want. I’m leaning in, baby. I’m all in.”

“Fuck. I needed to hear you say that,” he whispers on a rough exhale, his forehead resting against mine. My hands glide down the strong muscles of his back, grasping his ass and squeezing.

“Finn?”

“Yeah?”

“I need you to move now.”

“You want it, lover?”

“Fuck yeah I do. Show me what you got.”

Finn pulls out and then slams back in, and a moan spills from my lips as his dick rubs against my prostate, the burn from the stretch just a small simmer now. He doesn’t hold back or restrain himself, he fucks me like he needs this just as much as I do.

“Ohhmygodohfuuuck,” I mutter, my words unintelligible and garbled as I hold him close to me.

“Fuck that’s so hot, who knew you’d like bottoming?”

“Don’t care . . . just . . . don’t stop. Fuuuuck.”

Finn chuckles as he sets a steady pace, his dick hitting that spot inside me that has only ever been touched with his fingers until now, my cock throbbing and leaking precum like a motherfucker between our bodies .

“God, you know how long I’ve wanted to do this? It’s better than I imagined.”

My eyes snap open, my hands moving to his hips to steady him so I can let the fog clear for a moment.

“You have?”

“Fuck, yeah. Wanted to fuck you the first night I met you. Went home and jerked it twice to thoughts of slipping into this ass.”

“I didn’t know . . .”

“I don’t bottom. Ever.”

“What?” I ask, blinking rapidly at him.

“You heard me,” he whispers as his lips brush back and forth over mine, his cock rocking slowly inside me.

“But you did with me.”

“Because you didn’t know you were into men and I wasn’t about to force my cock on you. I wanted you, any way I could get you. You’ve always been different. Something snapped into place that night, and I haven’t been the same since.”

My mouth hangs open slightly and Finn takes full advantage of it, licking into me while I’m shocked silent.

I came here tonight to break things off and instead got so much more than I started with.

He starts to move again inside me, short thrusts, staying deep and driving me crazy.

I pull my thighs up higher on either side of his hips, angling my pelvis upward, deepening his penetration, and I see stars.

“Ohfuckingfuck, I’m gonna blow, I can’t. Ohmygod, fuck.”

Finn lifts up just enough to make room for his hand, grabbing my aching cock with his fist and stroking just the way he knows I like it. The combination of him filling me, rubbing against my sensitive prostate, and his rough hand stroking me hard, I combust.

My ass clenches around his cock as my dick throbs in his hand, pearly white cum shooting out against both of our chests.

My eyes nearly roll to the back of my head as one of the best orgasms I’ve ever had rolls through me.

He rubs me through it until I’m spent, but he doesn’t stop fucking me, doubling down on his thrusts, chasing his orgasm.

Dragging my fingers through the mess on my abdomen, I gather up some of my cum on two fingers. “Open for me, baby, taste my cum while you fill me with yours.” I press them into his mouth, his tongue swirling over my digits and sucking the jizz off of them.

“Fuuuuuuck, Carter!” he chants my name like a prayer as he falls apart, his dick twitching inside me, warm jets of his cum coating my insides.

Fuck, I never thought I would ever like, no scratch that, fucking love, having a cock in my ass, but here we are.

We’ll be fucking doing this again. And soon.

After our breathing has evened to a less concerning rate, Finn lifts off of me just enough to look at my face. His beautiful blue eyes look tired but so damn happy and satisfied. I love that I’m the reason for it.

His fingers brush the hair out of my face, his fingertips so light on my skin. “How are you feeling?”

I wiggle a little, making him groan, his forehead dropping down to rest against mine. “Like I’m ready for you to exit my body now,” I say with a little laugh.

“Fair enough. But you’re okay? I didn’t hurt you?” he asks as he pulls out of me. The rush of cum dripping from me is instantaneous and my cheeks heat.

“Fuck no. We’ll be doing that again.”

“Thank fuck. I’m okay with bottoming if that’s what works for us but now that I’ve had your ass . . .?”

“You want more, huh?”

“Oh, definitely.”

“So, what now?”

“Now,” Finn says as he stands, his naked body on full display for me. “We go take a shower, then we talk and figure this out.”

I nod my head in agreement, following him to the massive stone shower in the bathroom.

We take turns washing each other’s bodies in the comfortable silence.

I’m full of emotions that I don’t know what to do with right now, but for the first time in my life, I feel content and at peace.

I’m willing to fight for this. Fight for Finn. Fight for me.