Page 39 of Toni and Addie Go Viral

Toni

Seeing beautiful Addie kneeling between her legs made Toni feel complicated feelings.

She wasn’t used to being the person women knelt in front of, especially almost innocent ones.

There had been years when she was figuring out what she wanted, who she was, and she’d tried giving over control a few times. It had never worked out well.

“I need to touch you first,” Toni tried to explain.

“You did.” Addie tilted her head. “Earlier…” She motioned to the privacy screen, but she stayed where she was, kneeling while sitting back on her heels. “You put your mouth on me.”

“I did.” Toni reached down and cupped the curves of her wife’s breasts in her hands, thrilled as Addie leaned up. “I’m not sure I can do this.…”

“Which part?” Addie asked, sounding more curious than hurt.

“Let go of control this fast.” Toni felt self-conscious admitting it.

“Ah.” Addie rose up on her knees. “I’ve noticed that.”

“Let me make you feel—”

Addie stood up and kissed Toni, cutting off the words she was about to say.

They weren’t untrue words, but they weren’t the whole truth. Toni felt vulnerable, feelings exposed and public as she’d watched this incredible woman walk toward her.

It’s an act. She’s an actor.

But it hadn’t felt like an act. The way Addie had looked at her made Toni feel like there was a truth there, a yearning for something Toni couldn’t have—or give Addie.

What that meant was that Toni needed to put this thing between them back on familiar grounds.

She needed to have control, to have Addie, to give her the only thing she could offer a woman: satisfaction.

Her arms wrapped around Addie as they kissed.

Then abruptly, Addie pulled back. “You feel overwhelmed,” she said astutely.

“It’s silly, but—”

“It’s not,” Addie interrupted, staring down at her. “I did, too, you know. Seeing you looking at me like that, and all those people watching.”

Toni rested her face on Addie’s chest. “Yes.”

“And you want to feel in control,” Addie finished softly. “I get that. Can we try something?”

Toni kissed the space between her breasts and leaned back. “Like what?”

Addie walked away and opened one of her bags.

Toni watched her sort through clothes and pull out a small box.

Addie straightened and looked over at Toni before she opened it.

She walked over to the bed, and Toni felt her own vulnerability fade as Addie sat down on the edge of the bed instead of kneeling.

There was a beautiful, naked woman who wanted Toni, who accepted her—hang-ups and all.

Addie’s cheeks were reddened as she held the box with both hands. “So I wasn’t sure if you’d… if we… I knew I’d want you, but after you didn’t call, I thought I’d be on my own.”

“I’m sorry. I swear I’ll call next—”

“I thought I’d be left to my own devices, ” Addie said louder.

Hearing the emphasis on that last word, Toni stared at the box. “Oh?”

“So I went shopping,” Addie said. “I haven’t used it yet.” She held the box out. “It has a remote.”

Still reclining on the bed, Toni opened the box, looking at the bright-purple vibrator and the discreet little remote control. “Who were you going to hand the remote to?”

“Myself.” Addie didn’t look away. “I thought it might feel more like someone else was in control if it was a remote. It has a music setting, too, so you cannot know when or how much it will vibrate.”

“I love your mind, Addie.” Toni stared at her with a small smile on her face. “Are you going to give me the remote?”

“Only if you let me touch you while you have that control…” Addie tilted her head slightly, challenge obvious in her expression. Her voice wavered as she said, “I want to have my mouth on you like you did with me. You can have this if I can have you.”

Toni felt a wave of desire that reminded her of how bold Addie was, and how much she’d craved that. Craved her. She looked at the vibrator again. “Did you wash this already?”

“I did.” Addie stared at her. “I wasn’t sure how long I’d be willing to wait after seeing you.”

Toni stared at her in awe, unable to think of words to explain what she was thinking and feeling in that moment. Addie’s admission that she was as overwhelmed by this yearning between them made Toni’s chest tighten.

Tentatively Addie suggested, “I could use it on you if you would rather—”

“No.” Toni shook her head. There were rules, limits that she hadn’t allowed anyone to cross.

She wasn’t opposed to being touched, and sometimes she felt okay with having a woman’s mouth on her cunt.

Reaching okay often required a bit of whisky or a longer friendship.

Toni was used to giving, not handing over control.

And a vibe? Controlled by someone else? That was a step too far for her comfort, even with Addie.

“Your plan is good.… The first plan, I mean.”

“It’s okay to say no to things,” Addie said softly, taking Toni’s hand in hers. “Sex isn’t about just what one of us wants, you know? If you aren’t comfortable with my mouth on you… because I don’t know what I’m doing or for whatever reason. It’s okay to tell me no.”

“I just need a moment, Addie. I want this, though,” Toni admitted.

“Tell me what you need.” Addie stroked her thumb over Toni’s hand, and there was no way to pretend in that moment that this was just casual sex. There was affection here, on both sides. Toni trusted her, wanted to please Addie, but she also wanted to feel Addie’s touch, mouth, whatever she wanted.

Stop this. Stop the whole thing.

Toni stared at her. “I need to touch you until I’m… until…”

“Comfortable?” Addie filled in.

When Toni nodded, Addie put one bare foot on the bedpost and leaned back.

She watched Toni as she widened her legs.

“I trust you, completely and wholly. If you are willing, I would like to put my mouth on you tonight. I want you to teach me how to please you, but if that’s not tonight, there will be other nights, I hope.

So for right now…” She gestured at her body.

“I believe you fake-married me so I could be right here. Do with me what you will, Lord Darbyshire. I’m yours tonight. ”

Toni put the box to the side and stared at Addie. “You might just be the perfect woman, Lady Adelaine.”

Addie smiled up at her, and it felt different. Everything about tonight felt different.

This is what I wish I could have, Toni admitted to herself as she sat upright so she was facing Addie’s bare chest.

Toni shoved her traitorous thoughts away and touched Addie—her thighs, the delicate curve of her breast, the hollow of her collarbone, the swell of her hip—and everywhere her hands explored, her mouth followed.

Addie arched and twisted, but she let Toni have the control she needed. She didn’t grab her or try to reverse their positions, even as Toni pulled Addie onto the bed and slid down her body until her mouth found its way to Addie’s bare sex again.

“Toni…”

“Yes, love,” Toni asked.

“You have all the control, ” Addie swore. “You know that, don’t you? You have complete control of my body every time you want me. Give me a little back.”

“You don’t want me to keep going?” Toni asked, unused to a lover who was so determined to find equality in the bed.

“I want to learn your body,” Addie half asked, half begged. “I want to know what you taste like.”

Toni continued licking Addie leisurely, not fast enough to push her too near the edge but enough that Toni felt her own body grow wetter and wetter.

There really was nothing quite as heavenly as the taste of a woman.

The only things that compared were the scent of a woman’s desire and the sound of a woman in the throes of passion.

As Toni continued to taste Addie, she reached out to the box she’d left on the mattress. Addie’s vibrator. Toni slid it over Addie’s bare hip and toward the juncture of her thighs. “Shall we try this, then?”

“I’ve never used one with anyone.” Addie breathed the words. She stared at Toni. “Only you. Everything I have tried is with only you.”

That possessive thing flared up inside Toni again, and she knew that Addie was aware of it, and that she liked it. Addie was clever enough to realize that her words worked, and she used that freely.

She’s perfect for me.

Carefully Toni slid the still-motionless vibrator inside Addie’s dripping body. Then she brought her mouth back to Addie’s clit, suckling and licking until Addie was writhing. Toni paused and said, “Are you sure you want me to stop?”

“Pause,” Addie gasped. “Just pause so you… I want you to… feel good.”

Toni sat upright. “Pull your legs closed. Just like that, so the vibe stays where it is.”

Addie whimpered as she obeyed.

“Slide over,” Toni directed. “On your side.”

Once Addie did so, Toni moved so her legs were straddling Addie’s face. “Just do what you think would feel good if you were…” Toni’s words faded as Addie parted her folds and licked. Toni added, “Yes. Just like… that.”

Toni fumbled for the remote, as Addie devoted herself to making Toni unable to think. Addie’s moans felt as good as her tongue. Then Toni managed to find a setting that had Addie arching her hips.

Addie looked at her from the open frame of Toni’s legs and said, “No wonder you like this. Every time you moan, my body answers.”

Toni turned the remote to a faster speed.

“Please, Toni,” Addie begged. “I want to… get… you… offfff.”

But Toni couldn’t reply. She couldn’t tell Addie that seeing her coming undone, hearing her gasps and moans, having her slide her fingers faster and harder inside Toni as her mouth was busily trying to keep pace was almost on the edge of too intense.

When Addie’s orgasm started to wash over her, Toni felt herself arch against Addie’s mouth, and she followed her into completion. In a lifetime of women, Toni had never trusted anyone enough to be in a situation like this: mutual orgasm, mutual satisfaction.

“You’re fucking perfect, Adelaine.” Toni moved and pulled Addie up to rest on top of her.

Addie slid the tiny device out of her body and collapsed like she had no energy left to move herself. “You, too, Professor.”

Toni kissed the tip of her nose. “Sleep?”

“Soon,” Addie agreed. “Not just yet, though. I want to hear about everything I’ve missed the weeks we weren’t emailing.”

Toni’s heart tightened uncomfortably at the intimacy of the request. This wasn’t a nameless one-night stand, and no matter how often Toni tried to shift it into that box in her mind, Addie repeatedly dismantled that illusion.

“Classes are going well, and my new TA is phenomenally capable,” Toni said as her hand idly traced up Addie’s spine.

Addie propped her head up and listened as Toni talked. If not for the naked part, it would be the sort of friendship that Toni cherished. If not for the friendship, this would be the sort of sex that made Toni consider another night. The combination of the two, however, was vaguely terrifying.