Page 65 of Sinful as They Come (Sinful Trilogy #1)

“I don’t wanna ruin your life. I don’t wanna… I don’t wanna drag you down and stop you from doing what makes you happy. I don’t wanna be that person.”

Joe grinned. “Glad I got through to you.”

Smug fucking asshole.

“You aren’t that person! You aren’t! Don’t listen to him. Daddy, you’re wrong about Sawyer!” Holly tried. “He’s perfect for me. I don’t care if you don’t approve. I want to be with him and no one else.”

“No, you should listen to him,” I told Holly, my voice low and dismissive, and then I said something that I knew would hurt the both of us. “This was never gonna work out.”

Holly gasped. “You don’t mean that.”

“It’s the truth. We’re too different. It’s better off this way,” I told her bluntly before turning to her dad. “You were right.”

He chuckled. “You’re finally talking some sense. I’ll show you out. ”

“Sawyer.” Holly pulled at my hand, desperation clear as day in her voice. “Sawyer, don’t.”

“I’m going home,” was all I said to her, yanking my hand from her grasp. I heard her cry out. But I turned around, taking swift steps back the way I came from.

I was leaving Holly’s house behind. The too perfect mansion.

I couldn’t ever give her that. No fancy ring.

No wardrobe filled with designer shit. I couldn’t be that man.

Why the hell did I ever think I could be that ?

I was an idiot for ever getting my hopes up.

Why would Holly Sutton ever want to be with little old Trailer Park Trash?

“Sawyer, please don’t,” Holly whispered behind me. I could hear her light footsteps as she scurried behind me. “Please. Can we talk about this? Can we sit down and talk and just… Please don’t walk away from me.”

I didn’t turn around. I couldn’t see her face. Her voice was hurting me enough. “Get away from me, Holly.”

“But—”

“Don’t make me say it again.”

“Is this it? Are you ending this? Are… Are you breaking up with me?” Her voice cracked.

I stopped in my tracks and shut my eyes. I didn’t want my own tears to fall. And if I turned around, I was certain they would just from the sight of Holly’s sadness.

“Like I said, this was never gonna work out,” I said sharply.

“Whole thing was a waste of time.” I didn’t mean that.

Especially the second part. Holly was the best thing I had ever had in my fucking life, and I didn’t want to throw it away, but Christ, I couldn’t live with myself if I couldn’t give Holly the perfect life she deserved.

That seemed to be enough for her. She let out a choked sob and the sound made my heart ache. I heard rushed footsteps before the sound totally faded away. She had run away. Run away from me . That was probably the last time I’d get that close to Holly. And I had just torn her heart apart.

It was better off that way. She’d be better off without me. She’d do what her dad said. College, rich lawyer husband, big mansion, perfect kids. The perfect life. And I’d be… I’d be off wondering what if I could have given her everything she deserved.

“Time to head on home, son.” Holly’s dad smacked his hand to my shoulder, pushing my forward. “It’s a shame we didn’t get to know each other properly. But you seem to get it now. My daughter’s just not the girl for you.”

I pressed my lips firmly together as I walked in front of him.

He guided me through the hallway, my eyes lingering on the steps for a long moment.

Holly was probably up there in her bedroom, crying into her pillow.

I felt the urge to turn and run up them and grab her and tell her I didn’t mean any of that mean shit I said.

But I couldn’t. Holly needed better than me and it shouldn’t have taken me so long to see it.

“But you’ll find a girl,” Joe said, pushing me around another corner and towards the front door. He opened it swiftly. “And you’ll be happy with her. You just can’t be with Holly, of course. You understand. It was never going to happen. You just weren’t meant for her, you know?”

“Is that right?” I grumbled out, making my way down the stairs.

“That’s right. I’m just glad I was able to put a stop to this before you two could get really serious.”

I hissed, looking over my shoulder at him as he stood on the stairs. “You know, I love your daughter. I thought that would have been good enough. I thought that would have made me more than enough, especially after how the last guy treated her.”

“Son, that is so na?ve of you.”

My eyes narrowed. “Your daughter means a hell of a lot to me. I want her to have a good life. You think a good life is a million dollars and a suit and tie. I just love her . All of her. Every fuckin’ part.

And you know what, that might be all I can give her, but she seemed pretty fucking happy with me. ”

“My daughter’s delusional right now. She’ll move on from this, and from you.” He shrugged. “Either way, I’m glad it’s over with.”

“Delusional, huh?” I shook my head. “We were fucking perfect until tonight. Until you got involved. She wanted to be with me just as bad as I wanted to be with her. ”

“It was never going to work out.”

“She loves me!” I snapped. “And we were fucking good together.”

“Oh, what happened? You two hold hands and see a movie or something? And now you’re in love? That’s it?”

“It’s more than that. So much more. You’re not listening to me and you’re not listening to her.”

“I have no reason to listen to you. Leave. Now. Back to the trailer park, Westbrook.”

“I love her,” I said with gritted teeth. “As much as it pisses you off, she loves me too.”

“Oh, please.” He rolled his eyes. “You think you know what love is after going on one date with my daughter?”

“I know what love is after being buried inside your daughter’s pussy,” I spat out. At that point, I couldn’t help myself. It was impossible for me to hold back the words. Fuck it. Fuck it all. If I couldn’t be with Holly, then I was going to burn every bridge I could get my hands on.

Holly’s dad was silent. His jaw was tight as he moved down a step. If the guy wanted to fight, then I wasn’t above kicking his ass.

“What did you just say?” he asked lowly.

“You need me to say it again? You losing your hearing? I might be too. Holly gets so fucking loud sometimes,” I said with a cocky chuckle.

Again, I couldn’t help myself at that point.

If he didn’t think I was good enough for her, I was ready to throw it in his face that Holly didn’t feel the same way.

“You keep your mouth shut, son,” he said quickly.

He really had no idea. I smirked at him.

“But I like it,” I told him, yanking my tie loose.

The thing was too restricting and I needed to rant.

“I love it when she gets loud, but she’s also good at staying quiet.

I mean you’ve never heard me with her, right?

Like the other night, when I snuck into her bedroom, and she was there on her knees for me, choking on my cock?

Did you hear her gagging for me? Or maybe you heard her that night I had her bent over her bed and had her purring for me? ”

“You better think carefully about what your next words are, kid, because I’m about to make sure you never lay eyes on my daughter ever again.” His voice was raising as he moved forward one more step.

And I did think carefully about my next words.

“Doesn’t matter. I’m sure she’ll remember me.” I shrugged lazily. “You never forget your first, right?”

He stormed down the last four stairs, nothing but irritation in his eyes as he approached me.

Rushed footsteps behind him stole my attention.

Holly. There she stood with wide, panicked, wet eyes.

Her eyes looked swollen and it killed me to know that she was in pain because of me.

Because I was a fuck up who couldn’t give her the perfect life that she deserved.

“Daddy!” she called out before she ran down the stairs, grabbing at his hand. “Daddy, don’t.”

“Get back inside. Get back inside with your mother, because trust me, there’s a lot I need to say to you!” he snapped, his eyes never leaving my face. “And you get out of here. Go. Go home! This is the last time you two are ever going to see each other.”

I glared at him, but then my gaze landed on Holly.

On her sad eyes and trembling lips and shaky hands.

God, she was an angel. And I was the devil that didn’t deserve her.

It was a hard truth to swallow. I stepped backwards, keeping my eyes on her, not able to look away.

I only turned around because Holly’s dad pulled her into her house, and that was when I let out a deep breath.

I fucking missed her already.