Gabriel I can do this. Lots of people have hookups rather than relationships. I mean, I’ve had them in the past, I just didn’t realize that’s what they were at the time.
It’s not my fault that I assumed those encounters were going to turn into something more even though the men I was with didn’t end up feeling the same.
Tonight, I’m not going to let myself fall into old patterns, and nothing is going to change my mind. I’m going to completely forget that I believe in love.
I have a job I enjoy, my performance art, and friends that would...
Gabriel I can do this. Lots of people have hookups rather than relationships. I mean, I’ve had them in the past, I just didn’t realize that’s what they were at the time.
It’s not my fault that I assumed those encounters were going to turn into something more even though the men I was with didn’t end up feeling the same.
Tonight, I’m not going to let myself fall into old patterns, and nothing is going to change my mind. I’m going to completely forget that I believe in love.
I have a job I enjoy, my performance art, and friends that would burn down the world for me – even if I do worry sometimes that one of these days they’ll finally leave me too.
Tonight is the start of a new life and a new me. No prince charming required. Yep…I can do this.
Liam There was a time not all that long ago when I felt lost and out of control. Like the world surrounding me wasn’t real, and I wasn’t sure how to survive in it after all that I’d seen.
These days, things are a bit better. I have my bakery where my work is repetitive and focused. One step after the other, the same steps as yesterday, the same steps tomorrow.
It’s calm and consistent and ordered. I need that. Still, there are moments it’s not enough. That’s okay though, because when even the bakery won’t calm me, the water will.
I’ve always felt a sense of peace when I’m near the water. I lose myself under the surface or sit and listen to the waves and wonder if my heart and mind will ever manage to settle.
If I’m still capable of joy and love and peace. If I’ll ever really find a way to belong in this world.
Or if memories and emotions will push and pull like the endless turning of the tide until the sharp edges of pain and loss that have shaped so much of my life are worn smooth and there is nothing left of me but a pebble tossed up on the shore.
