Page 51 of Forever My Siren Luna

Magic. This is magic, and it is coming from her. It is flowing down her limbs, radiating out of her finger-tips and her toes, making her eyes shine so brightly that I have to look away.

When it stopped, her scent hit me, and my eyes flew open again and the realization of who she is brought me to my knees.

“You, Elelira, you...you are….”

“I was your mate, the mate you claimed to be looking for all along, but were too arrogant to notice. I tried telling you countless times, but you dismissed me, abused me, forced me to endure as you brought countless women to your bed.” Every word out of her mouth sends a stabbing pain through my heart. Killian was frantic inside me, trying to tear me apart from the inside to get to her.

He feels it, and I do too. I know what she is about to do before the words leave her. I am powerless to stop it as they come pouring out of her mouth.

She took a step back, squaring her beautiful thin shoulders, staring down on me with the arrogance I deserve.

“I, Elelira Meline Lambert, reject you, Lachlan Stiles, as my mate, and as my alpha.”

The pain that stabbed through me is like nothing I have felt before. “No,” I gasped, clutching at my chest, falling forward from the pain.

I can feel it. All of it. I can feel all the pain and neglect in the bond, and I can feel how much I damaged it unknowingly over the past two years.

Why didn’t she tell me?! I thought she was full Lycan. I didn’t know she had fae blood in her. Why? Why did it have to come to this? I always wanted her, and if I had only known that it wasn’t a trick or a scheme, but the repressed bond concealed by her sealed magic, I would never have hurt her. I never would have….

Fuck. I ruined this. I ruined everything. I always wanted her, and I hated us both for it. Now, I only have myself to hate.

I try to collect myself. I needed to fix this. I need to beg her to stay. I can’t let her go. Not like this. Not after everything I put her through.

She felt the bond all this time? Shit. All those women as I was trying to repress my desire for her. Did she feel it all?

I’m a monster. A fucking monster. Killian is shattered and tearing himself apart, unable to stand the pain this knowledge and the rejection brings.

When I heard her mutter a goodbye, I forced myself to try and get up off the floor. I can’t let her go.

She turned to look at the room one last time, her usual frosty exterior softening as she stared at the other pack members watching the scene in horror.

“I, Elelira Meline Lambert, reject Hidden Cove Pack, as a member,” she breathed deeply, closing her eyes, “and as it’s Luna.”

The pain made me fall to my knees again, and I know I’m not the only one. Every adult in the pack would have felt their true fated Luna rejecting them, and it’s all my fault. I not only hurt the one person I was fated to always love and protect, I hurt my pack.

Her slip of a gown falls to the floor, and I can barely see her naked body as she leaves through the doors to outside through all my tears.

I have to stop her. I can’t let her go like this. Where is she going like that? With nothing on, it’s not safe. She should stay here. If she doesn’t want me, fine, I will suffer but try to cope, but she can’t leave. Not like that.

“Siren,” Killian whimpered brokenly.

It takes me a second to register what he means.

She isn’t just of fae blood. She is part siren.

And she now has her magic. She can now gain her fins.

She’s escaping to the sea.

I bolted up somehow, racing outside to chase her, but I’m too late. All I catch is one last glimpse of her as she disappears into the sea.

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“That was when I started searching for you,” I told Lira now. “I sent countless ships out, but we never found a trace of where you could be. When I felt you die, I was….”

I looked away, pressing my lips together. How do I tell her this part? I promised her I would tell her everything, but this is one detail I want to leave out.

“You were what?” Lira prompted with a brooding expression.