Page 45 of Forever My Siren Luna

Cherum must have sensed my anxiety. His hand on my shoulder before he leaves behind the workers helps to calm me a bit.

“What did you want to talk about, Lira?” Lachlan asked, his body tense, like he was nervous too.

What did I want to talk about? Where do I even start?

“You could start by apologizing for biting his head off this morning when he didn’t do anything wrong,”Val offered.

“I woke up almost naked beside him in bed!”

“Yeah, because of me. He wasn’t at fault.”

I hate Val logic sometimes. I kind of still wanted to be petty and blame Lachlan for last night, but she’s right. Lachlan really wasn’t at fault.

“I think I owe you an apology for last night,” I murmured, wringing my hands together. “I was the one who acted out. Well, mostly Val, but I sure didn’t help. We shouldn’t have blamed you for the way I woke up. I’m sorry.”

“Lira,” Lachlan took a hesitant step towards me, “You really don’t have to apologize for that. To tell you the truth, I was relieved you sought me out in that state and not someone else.”

My goodness, I made a fool of myself. “I’m so embarrassed. I never get drunk. Beretta must have spiked my drink with her herbs.”

“Herbs?” Lachlan questioned me. “Does she do that often?”

I shrug. “Not without me knowing. I have trouble sleeping sometimes and she offers the herbs to me in tea. I had never really taken them with alcohol before.”

“You still have trouble sleeping?”

“Still?” My brows pulled down in confusion.

“You often had trouble sleeping before, Lira. That’s why I insisted on holding you every night. The bond you felt when I touched you seemed to soothe whatever was troubling you.”

I didn’t know that. That explains why I always felt the urge to miss my mate when trying to fall asleep at night. That was when my mind would drift towards him the most. I tried to cover up missing him with resentment, but now I know better.

“I didn’t know,” I repeated my inner thoughts. “I thought the night terrors started after leaving here.” I feel relieved to know that they didn’t stem from what happened with Lachlan before I ran away. I thought that he broke me. It’s a relief to hear I was already broken and he was just trying to heal me the entire time in the only way he could.

“No,” Lachlan shook his head. “They started our first night together. Scared me. I thought you were allergic to my kisses or something,” he tries to joke.

My face heated at the memory. “I am not. I think we have proven that over our time together.”

“That we did,” he chuckled dryly.

An awkward silence filled the room for several seconds, neither one of us knowing what to say.

“Is… is that all you wanted to talk about? Sorry is something you never have to say to me, so don’t worry about last night. I really didn’t mind.” Lachlan smiled softly. “It really did make me happy to have you back, even under those circumstances and knowing you would be upset with me in the morning.”

He was happy to have me wake up and yell at him, laying the blame on him?

“No,” I whispered softly. “That wasn’t all I wanted to talk about. I just don’t know where to start.”

He thought for a moment. “Do you want to talk about us?” He asked hesitantly.

I nodded in response.

“About what happened before?”

I nodded again.

He breathed deeply. “I regret that day so much. I wanted to go back to you in our room. I wanted to be with you and make sure you were okay, but I was covered in blood after taking down Alpha Waynes men, and stunk of them. Blood isn’t the only thing to come out of a man as he is being tortured. I didn’t want you to see me like that. Not ever. I was resting in my office to work through all I had learned when that….that whore found me sleeping. I really didn’t do anything with her, Lira. She kissed me and I woke up. I was about to throw her out by her throat when you walked in.”

One question keeps ringing in my head.