Page 22 of Only Everything (The Obsession #1)

TAUREN

A normal person would have run. Common sense would agree that I was insane to stay here after what I found, but the truth only gave me so many options.

Despite none of them being good, I had to face facts.

Reid was not okay. He was a weapon, and I was the target.

But what did that mean? What did any of this say about us that I didn’t already know?

Reid would not mentally survive without me. Maybe not even physically. When I wasn’t in his life, he was lost. Where I adapted because of my traumas, he couldn’t. So, where did that leave us?

Together.

Not just because he needed my presence, but because I loved him, and I was determined enough to try to help him. All he wanted was me. I wanted him too. I just had to get to a place where I could convince him of our roles, and I knew exactly how to try.

Reid had a darkness. All I had to do was learn to wield it.

That’s where my power rested. I had to be in control of us.

My decisions. My timeline. My rules. And he was so obviously looking for direction.

I could give him that. Yes, I could bend, but not if it wasn’t in our best interest, and that’s where the keys to our future rested.

If I didn’t step up, the only room I’d have left is the one that was decorated with chains.

He was ready for me to run, and he was prepared to stop me however he could.

I’d detected the hint of threats. I knew what he was capable of.

The room said it all. It had put me into a shock as I walked around in disbelief.

But with the surprise came a knowing. A calm…

The bindings, the sex toys, the knives and tools meant for punishment…

Although it looked like a BDSM funhouse, to Reid, it went deeper than that.

This wasn’t about a lifestyle. This was an ultimatum.

I was his.

The signs were clear. My name written like scripture on every inch of the fucking walls…

On him. He was lost to anything but me, and I knew what I was getting into.

I knew the possible danger if I ever wanted to leave.

I accepted that. I accepted this . Why? Because we were never separating again. I loved him; I always had.

I. Was. His.

“Do it. I want you to. Cut your name into me.”

For seconds Reid studied my face. I could see the overwhelming desire to the point where it felt like my own.

I wasn’t afraid of the pain—I knew true pain.

I wanted to feel this obsession of his. I wanted it to consume me like it took over him when he’d made that room.

I needed to understand. To see. To live in the madness I caused him.

And to have a part of him on me forever… how could I not want that?

“Taur.”

I hooked my legs around him, pulling him in closer. My hand curled around his fist, and I led him to hover inches from my chest.

“It doesn’t have to be big. I want this, Reid. I want you on me. In me . Please. If you won’t, I will.”

A mix of lust and awe quickly morphed into caution. I saw his walls go up, but he couldn’t stop his hand from lowering to push the tip of the knife into the edge of my sternum.

“You’re sure?”

“I said yes.”

“Because you’re mine?”

“I’m showing you who has my heart. Who I belong to. I’m yours . Only yours. Do it.”

Fingers pushed into my hair at the nape of my neck, and Reid dove in, giving me a hard, quick kiss before pulling back to lower his face closer to where he held the knife.

I could feel his hot breaths pushing out against my skin as pain drug a fire down over my chest. I pressed my fingertips into the counter, letting each curve and line brand Reid even more into my soul.

Gray eyes shot up at the small cries I couldn’t contain. “Are you okay? Is it too much?”

My dark hair swayed at my shake. I leaned back even more, resting my head on the top cabinets as I felt warmth make a river through my cleavage. “Keep going.”

Again, he crushed his mouth into mine. At the sweep of his tongue, I moaned, drinking in the taste of beer on his tongue. Pressure from his fingers from his free hand made circles over my pussy, and I broke away, needing more.

“Hurry. Please.”

“I can’t hurry.” His breath was labored just shy of my lips. “This is… this says.” He stopped.

“I said I loved you.” I drew his face up. Reid’s eyes opened, and I could barely continue at the tears that were nearly spilling over from him. “We have to figure out how to make this work the right way. I want this, I do. I just need you to help me. Can you help me, Reid?”

Seconds went by.

“How many beers have you had?”

“That’s my first beer.” I deepened my tone. “I’m not drunk, and I’m not going to change my mind. Listen to me . I want us to be together. For that to happen, I need to do things my way. Can you let me do that? Can you try to be understanding with what I need?”

Reid’s gaze dropped to my chest. To the

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and

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that sat a good two inches high. He didn’t answer, he lowered, bringing the knife back up.

It settled just over the top of my breast. The pain that followed as he dragged the blade had more sounds leaving me.

I winced, caught off guard as Reid dove down, flattening his tongue over the wound.

His arm hooked around my waist in desperation, and he dropped the knife as I screamed from the stinging.

He immediately lifted me and jerked my panties down, half tearing them as he did.

The heat and pain from the friction only added to the fear and arousal at the wild look in my his eyes.

“Fuck, I want you so much it’s driving me crazy. Your father hurt you. Your apprehension is his fault. He did this to us, but we’re going to fix it.”

“ I’m going to fix it, ” I corrected, trying to drive the point home with my hard stare and tone. “And you’re going to let me. Now pick up that knife and finish. Then, you’re taking me to the bed. Our bed. Do you understand?”

He picked up the knife, his hand trembling worse than before.

“You want me to move back into the room?”

“We’re together now. Do you really think I’d let you stay on the couch? You’re mine, Reid, just like I’m yours. We can’t escape it. I see that now.”

“We can’t. You’re serious about this.” Large gray eyes flashed with longing and vulnerability, disappearing just as fast as fire took over from the pressure of the knife. I cried out from the pain, and I wasn’t even sure if Reid recognized how he mimicked it with his moan.

Had he been like this from the moment I forced us apart? Was his fixation with me a product of years of torment for us not being together?

Guilt over the questions sliced with more agony than the curve of the

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he was finishing off. I did this. Reid was a product of my love, and where I should have hated myself for turning him so dependent, I could feel my heart grasp to him even stronger through the craze.

“This is right. This is what I’ve been waiting for. Taur, I knew you’d see.”

The blood increased as his fingers pressed over his name, smearing the crimson in lines down my chest. In that moment, it was only us—only the insanity of what we were doing.

His lips met mine, and time sped up again as I clung around his neck.

He put down the weapon and lifted me to straddle his waist. Darkness took over as I closed my lids through his stumbling steps to the bedroom.

He kicked the edge of the sofa. My back was flattened against the wall next to the door frame.

I should have been afraid we’d fall…I wasn’t.

I was moaning just as loud as he was while I ground my pussy against him.

When we entered the space, I could barely get my mind to work.

“Wait.” I wiggled, trying to catch my breath. “I want to undress you. My rules.”

Reid pulled back, a smile appearing as he nodded and eased me down.

I grabbed the waistband of his jeans, kissing across his chest as I unbuttoned and unzipped them.

My teeth nipped at the defined muscle, and he hissed, looking at me bewildered as I bit brutally hard into the flesh.

Fingers pushed into my hair, and the sound that left him only fed what I knew.

What I saw. The tools. His own cutting. On some level, Reid needed this.

He needed me …forcing the truth into him.

Reid had to physically see where I stood.

I eased back, lifting my finger to trace the indents as I used my other hand to push down the jeans from his hips. He’d done this to me in the truck when he burned the house down. He’d traced his bite, and now so was I.

“Mine.”

Pain. Hope. Always hope. Even in the dim room, I could see it on his face.

“You promise?”

I leaned forward, hooking my finger in his boxers, nudging them down just a little as I bit not inches from the other marks on his chest.

“God. Fuck, Taur.”

I sucked against him with everything I had. Dark red blossomed under his skin, and I tasted the tinge of blood. I once again dug my nails into the side of his bare hip until he grunted in pain.

“ Mine ,” I repeated.

Slowly, I lowered to my knees, keeping eye contact. I pushed down his boxers and his pants to his ankles, letting him step out of them. When I grabbed around the base of Reid’s hard cock, he saw my pause. I tried slowing my racing heart and the nausea that came from my past, but it wasn’t easy.

“Don’t you dare let him in this fucking room with us. Not now. Not while we’re so close. It’s me and you. Reid and Tauren.”

I didn’t nod as I embraced my power. I didn’t agree. I eased forward, keeping my eyes on his as I let his precum coat my lips. Reid’s pleasure was what I needed to see, and it was so profound, it made it easier to open my mouth and begin tracing my tongue over the thick head .

“Jesus…this isn’t happening. This is happening? For real this time?”

“So long as you give me what I need.”

“Time…”

I swirled my tongue around his cock. “It’s more than that. You’ll give me what I need. Right now, I need to taste you. I need to see how much you want to be with me.”

“I want nothing else. I’ve never wanted anyone but you.”

“I know.” I opened wide, sliding him to the back of my throat. To look away from his hungry stare would have catapulted me into a hell of my own making. I refused to fall into that trap. I had to do this for both of us and move past this fear. I wanted this more than anything.

A rumbling filled the space, followed by what started off as a gasp but died from a moan.

“Only us. It’s only us. You’re not going to leave. You won’t—fuck. Fuck, baby. Keep sucking. Just like that.”

Adding suction, I withdrew, only to pull Reid even deeper into my throat. Both of his hands flew to the sides of my head as he locked on and took heavy breaths.

“So… good . How can the best feeling in the world also be the worst? To feel you, see you like this. I won’t be able to forget. Taur—You can’t change your mind. You can’t threaten to le?—”

I pulled back. “ I’m not leaving . Never again. And I won’t change my mind. It’s us now. We’re together, no matter what happens.”

His fingertips slid through my hair, and he held, letting me lead as I continued to worship his cock. Minutes past. Longer. When I finally pulled back, I could feel how swollen and tingly my lips were.

“Reid, I hurt you all those years ago, and I’m sorry for that.

You’re afraid that I’ll do it again, but you’re wrong.

I’ve come to see…that I felt guilty and…

like a bad person for loving you. But I’m not bad, and I can’t change how I feel.

I see that now, so I’m going to show you that you have nothing to worry about.

But you have to trust me. You have to let me take control. ”

“…How? What are you going to do?”

I kept my stare on his as I stood, pointing for him to lie down on the bed. I didn’t look down like I wanted or lower my voice submissively.

“I’m going to show you.”