Page 17 of Only Everything (The Obsession #1)

REID

It was dark by the time Tauren and I stood from the booth.

I watched her mood lift with every beam that collapsed in our old house, but we mostly stayed quiet.

And her… she was watchful of me. I knew she suspected that I had figured out her past. I couldn't even slide the keys into the ignition before she squirmed.

It was driving her crazy to wait any longer, and I sensed that as I stared ahead at the remaining firefighters who were starting to pack things up.

“You figured it out. Last night.”

I didn't look towards her. I kept staring ahead, wanting her to feel comfortable enough to continue speaking without my gaze intimidating her in any way.

“Emmett wasn’t the only cop, Tauren. That was my job. I know a lot more than I say.”

A long pause left us in silence.

“Reid, I never wanted anyone to know. What he did—It didn't start when you found me in the shed.” A long pause. “I can't remember a time when he didn't do this. Even my earliest memories were down in that basement.”

I did turn to her then. I couldn't help the horror that took me over. And I had to see her pain. I had to feel it.

“As a baby?”

“Well…I don’t know. The first memory I have of my dad, I was…young. Before I ever attended school. My play area used to be in the basement when he and my mother were together. She…worked a lot.”

“Tauren…”

“But then they divorced when I was seven, and I left with my mom. My dad always fought to see me, but I would throw such fits. I finally told my mom when I was nine. She threatened my dad that she’d call the police if he ever came near me again.

It seemed to work for a while. She used words like revictimized when she spoke to my aunt, but I never understood what she meant back then.

All I knew was that I was finally safe. But then…

she died. It was so fast. She didn’t know she had cancer, and by the time we found out how bad it really was, she only lived a few weeks.

My aunt couldn’t take me. Not even after my mother begged.

She couldn’t afford to, nor did she have the space.

My mom kept trying to find someone, but I told her to stop worrying about me.

I truly thought she’d get better. But she was so sick.

She never stopped looking, but she also wasn’t in her right mind either.

I don’t know. I was distraught, and everything was a blur.

Coming back to Frank’s was the last thing on my mind with what I was seeing my mother go through. ”

I grabbed her hand, staying quiet so she would continue.

“Anyway, she passed, and my father naturally stepped up. He promised things were different. That you were all a family, and he’d make up for…hurting me.” She stopped. “I think maybe he tried.”

“Fuck him. Do not make excuses for that bastard.” She got quiet. “I’m sorry. For all of it. I know you owe me nothing, especially not details, and I hate to ask. I’m not saying what happened was insignificant. I’m just stating what I know, and…I took your virginity.”

She nodded. “He never went that far. Not there.”

“There?”

I cursed under my breath feeling my stomach twist with nausea. My eyes burned with tears for her. My world was spinning. Even when I suspected, I never saw it getting that far. I never…

“Taur, fuck . I’m so damn sorry. I was right there. I was right fucking there.”

All I could do was repeat the insignificant words.

Little left me feeling shocked, but I was truly unraveling here.

She'd been a baby in danger. Maybe an infant. She'd been suffering her entire life. Why had nobody helped her? Why had her mother threatened with the police but never pressed charges? Revictimization? Making sure Taur didn’t relive her trauma? She had. Frank should have been dealt with so he’d never be near her again.

It made no sense to me. I would do anything if it meant protecting her.

But she hadn’t been protected. She’d been… failed.

“Taur, I'm sorry.”

“You don't have to keep apologizing. Nothing about any of that was your fault. You couldn't have stopped it if you wanted to. ”

“Bullshit. I could have fucking killed him.”

“And then where would we be? You in jail? Worse? We can't change the past.”

“No, we can’t.” I gestured to what remained of the house. “What we can do is watch what’s left of the motherfucker burn. There it is. Ash. And if I could destroy the past any more than that for you, I would. I wish you would have told me. I wish you would have felt like you could do that.”

“Felt like? Reid, I knew I could tell you.

I wanted to . But I didn't want to lose you.

I didn't want you looking at me the way you're looking at me right now.

Pity. Disgust. …I love you. All I've ever wanted to do is protect you from this.

From me. Do you see why we can't be together now?

It's bad enough what my father did, but you're my brother.”

“Disgust? Not for you. Him . And I am not your brother.”

“Reid.”

“No. We are not blood related.”

“Do you really think that matters? We were given those roles. We lived them for years before. Everyone in this town?—”

“We're not real siblings. Even you said that when you told me to stay away. Besides, we did not choose those roles, Tauren, they were given to us. We lived them. Everyone knows. So what. I fell in love with you along the way, and you love me too. Nothing else matters other than that.”

“Reid.” With how close she was it almost looked like she was going to kiss me.

She scooted impossibly closer, and I could feel the heat in me ignite.

It was primal. Animalistic. Claiming. She quickly lowered her lids, breathing deeply.

“I can't believe I'm about to say this, but I have to. I… have to.” She opened her eyes, meeting mine.

“Thank you for burning the house down. Truly.

I do feel better now that it's gone. But this thing between us.”

“This thing ?”

Her eyes shut, and I fisted the back of her hair, tugging back so that her lids shot open. With where we were parked, I didn't worry about anyone seeing in. It was too dark for that.

“This thing is called love. It's our present.

Our future. I know you need time to adjust to it, and I'm willing to give that to you, so long as you realize that this thing doesn't come with an expiration date.” I reach between her legs, rubbing my fingers over the jeans covering her pussy. Tauren’s breath was hot against my lips as she grabbed onto my shirt.

“You are mine. How you come to terms with that is entirely up to you, but you will accept that there's no one else for you but me.

Marry me or don't. Run or stay. Every path you choose has me in it.

Now unbutton my pants. You wanted to do something to me last night, and you're going to do it right here.

Right in front of the one place that keeps stealing you from me.

“H-Here?”

My fingers tightened in her hair. “ Unbutton my pants.”

Brown eyes searched mine. Tauren reached for my button, unfastening it and easing my zipper down.

“Show me. See. Me. Only me.”

I let go of her hair and lifted, pushing my jeans down to rest on my thighs.

Tauren glanced towards the house, coming back to meet my stare.

Her eyes lowered and so did she as she grabbed around the base of my cock.

For seconds her lips hovered above the head.

Just having her mouth so close had my length twitching in her hold.

“No more fear, baby. It’s just me, you, and ashes. You can do it.” I pulled one leg free, spinning to rest my back against my door. “There. Look at me.”

And she did. Tauren opened her mouth, keeping her eyes on mine as her tongue flattened on the underside of my cock.

Slowly, she licked up until she was collecting the precum from the tip.

My own lips parted at the sight. I could have come right then and there.

What I was watching was a fantasy I had had a million times.

“Good. So fucking good. Again. Keep watching me.”

She nodded, swallowing hard as she looked towards the house but lowered again.

Her mouth opened and her lips encased my head.

Her tongue made a circle, and she licked, opening to take me inch after inch.

When she settled around my width and she added suction, I sucked in a breath.

It had Tauren’s eyes jumping back up to me.

“That’s it.” I used her hair to ease her up, only to guide her back down. Tauren’s hold tightened and she took over, moving into the slow rhythm I’d kept her in. When she rose and licked precum from me again, a long moan left me. I watched it feed her confidence. Encourage her. Empower her.

Tauren locked her eyes on mine, putting everything she had into the strokes. Into the way her tongue moved against me. She wanted to do it. She was enjoying watching me barely hold it together.

‘Fuck, baby. Fuck . Come here. You did good. ”

Tauren lifted, hungrily meeting my mouth. At my taste on her tongue, I was jerking at the button of her jeans and fixing myself to sit forward on the seat.

“I'm going to fuck you right here. You're going to look at what I did to that house while my cock is pounding your pussy.”

There was no argument. No apprehension. We were both fighting to get her jeans off.

“I don’t make you sick?”

The shaky words had me reaching and spinning her. I fitted her legs between mine, so that she was sitting on my lap with her back facing me.

“Hell no. It wasn't your fault.” Something glazed behind her eyes as she looked back at me. Slowly, she eased my tip into her entrance. “It wasn't your fault.”

“But—”

“No.”

Inch by inch, Tauren sunk down my length. I gripped tightly around her waist, leading her as she held to the dash.

“Look at the house.”

There was a pause as she turned to face forward. I let my gaze jump that way, but I was not able to resist watching her ass sink lower as I buried myself deep inside her.

Smoke. Water. Charred random beams stuck out in odd angles.

I moaned at the flash of memory, leaning forward to sink my teeth into her back as she rotated her hips and rode me.

She cried out, and it only made me harder as I fingered the indentions on her skin.

Seeing a part of me on her, me…on her, left my mind racing at what else I could do .

I had so many toys. So many options in my secret room.

Did I even need the secret space anymore?

She wasn’t running. She wasn’t trying to leave me.

Yet… she still wasn’t coming around like I wanted her to, either.

I pulled her to lay against me so that her head was by mine. Tauren’s legs spread wide, and her feet fitted on the outside of my thighs. I immediately put the pads of my fingers over her pussy, rubbing her clit as I barred my other arm across her chest to hold to her shoulder.

“Let what you see sink in. Do you know how much I love you? Do you have any idea how far I would go to make you mine?”

“…I…The house—You killed Emmett too. You kicked him off the cliff. Reid, it’s scary.”

“So is love. So is losing you. I would rather eliminate the obstacle keeping you from being with me than risk the possibility of something taking you away from me because I didn't act.

I can't kill your father for what he did.

What I can do is destroy every memory of him that remains.

And I'll do that. I'll do whatever I have to do until you see that at the end of the day the only thing that should exist in your world… is me .”

Tauren sucked in a deep breath as I moved my fingers faster over her clit. Harder, I pushed my toes into the floor as I thrust, stabbing my point home with every surge.

“Right?” Tighter I squeezed around her. “It's just me. Only me. Tell me.” I reached down from her shoulder, squeezing her breast. It had Tauren whimpering as she rocked against me in a feverish pace.

“Keep going. Please… don’t stop .”

“Are you looking at that fucking house? ”

“Yes. Yes .”

I pounded into Tauren brutally. I wanted her to see. I wanted her to feel my love and how far I would go.

“Now, tell me. It's just me from now on. Say it.”

“Reid…”

My teeth clenched through the unbearable pleasure. I wanted to come. I wanted to coat her insides with every last drop of me. The fact that she wouldn't answer me left me walking the edge of some torturous, ecstasy-lined hell. I felt the paranoia return. Desperation lingered. Anger renewed.

“You want to be with other people?”

“ No .”

“Then say you’re only mine. Be mine .”

“I love you…”

“But you don't want to give yourself to me? I'll take it. I'll take your body and then your mind, Tauren, and I'll make them mine. Even if that means eradicating everything else. I won't lose you again. I refuse. Are you mine?”

I reached down V’ing my fingers around my cock so I could feel it pushing inside of her. So I could make it more real.

“ Tauren .”

“What you’re asking?—.”

My index finger nudged into her channel making her gasp.

The overwhelming sensation not to be hers nearly left me entering her any way I could.

Even if my cock was already inside her. Was it so far-fetched that I could see my hand forcing itself into her pussy so I could reach up and grab her heart to take.

Sick. Cruel. It didn’ t matter. It was mine.

She. Was. Mine. Every inch. Every fucking thought. Every. Beat.

“Fuck. God .” She took deep breaths, tightening around me as I continued to push the tip of my digit in with my cock.

She was so close to an orgasm. So trapped as my other arm kept barred across her chest, holding to her shoulder.

Despite that I was glaring at the house in a daze, all my body felt was the pleasure.

“Tauren.”

Nothing but moans.

She couldn’t say it.

She wouldn’t be mine…

“Reid.” One of her legs lifted to settle on the dash and she pushed back against me as spasms had her body shaking.

As if on cue, my body knew what to do. We both came as one, and I wasn’t even present for our moment.

While she was floating in bliss, I was stuck in a hellish purgatory of her making.

She’d have sex with me. She’d take my love and even give me hers.

But she wouldn’t commit? She’d leave us as what…

siblings in the eyes of the public and my fuck toy behind closed doors?

No, that wasn’t going to do. Not when I knew it was her past keeping us apart.

But that was about to end. I kept trying to be patient and go along with this her way.

It wasn’t working. My patience was wearing thin, and I wasn’t sure how much longer I could wait.

She’d say she was mine one way or another. I’d make sure of it.