Page 12 of Only Everything (The Obsession #1)

TAUREN

I didn’t want to wake. Not the first day and not the second. To face what happened with Emmett was acknowledging that I was the common denominator in everything horrible that had transpired in my life. The truth was simple. I turned men into monsters. My dad, Emmett…Reid.

My brother wasn’t okay. He couldn’t function normally without me in his life. Emmett couldn’t either, just in another way. Emmett lived to hurt me. Reid would kill anyone who got too close. They weren’t the same, yet they were both my creations.

What did that say about me? Who was I that my love created killers? My dad killed Reid’s mom because of me. Emmett would have killed me, but Reid killed him first. I was a circle of conundrums.

Who…was…I?

I didn’t know this evening when Reid urged me to eat and shower. I didn’t know now .

As I listened to my brother snore behind me, maybe it was better to not even ask the stupid question. I wanted to forget. I wanted to disappear. I wanted… my brother .

I had to find a way to erase the memories that would never leave me. To forget?—

I nearly moaned at how heightened my body was.

How could a person escape patterns when their very soul was determined to repeat them?

Sex. I was like a tuning fork. I was never more turned on than I was when it came to Reid, and here he was—his lean, muscular body molded to mine—his arm around my waist, and his hand against my breast. Maybe that’s why I knew that even though I shouldn’t, even though it was wrong, I had every intention of acting on the one need I shouldn’t have given thought to.

Thing was, it’s all I was thinking about.

I was wet. Hot. Needing. A sick, fucked up part of me fed from that.

An owl sounded in the distance, and with how dark it was, I knew it was in the middle of the night. I’d gotten enough sleep to last for weeks. I wasn’t tired. I was hungry for everything but a dose of reality.

Could I be any more horrible of a person? Any more revolting?

Internal screams were the response to the questions that came.

I ignored them, turning in Reid’s arms to face him.

His deep breath became broken as he made a sound, and I knew he was deep in sleep.

I should go to the living room. The realization hit but didn’t stop my fingertips from connecting gently against Reid’s bare chest. Hardness registered as I traveled over his pec, dipping to the valley in the center.

I bit my lip, letting the lust take me over as I slowly moved down toward his stomach.

He’d always been in good shape, but now, he was different.

Muscles flexed under my touch, and Reid’s breath caught as he stirred awake.

He stiffened as I kept going, but he didn’t move or stop me as I explored over his abs; he waited.

And me…I found myself pausing as I reached the waistband of his shorts.

I should stop. Reid was allowing me that with the way he let me lead. I could roll over and pretend to sleep and we’d be fine in the morning. I could pretend this never happened…but could I really?

My lids lowered and my forehead came to rest in the center of his chest. I could feel my heavy breaths hot against my face. I flattened my hand on the side of his stomach, pressing my fingertips in as I tried to grasp some form of sanity. This was a mistake. It would be a mistake to continue.

More, my fingers pressed down. I eased my head up, but I couldn’t stop myself from opening my mouth and moving in to suck hard against his skin.

A moan tore from Reid as fingers buried in my hair, keeping me trapped against him.

Saltiness took over my senses, and I let it consume me as I forced myself against his hold to go from his upper chest to the side of his neck.

If he’d been trying to stop me or grasp his thoughts, that all disappeared.

At my suction to his throat, I was rolled to my back so fast the room spun.

Reid took his place on top of me, meeting my mouth with a hunger neither of us could fight.

Fingers massaged over my panties—slow circles, nudging into my entrance as he rubbed his way around to add pressure to my clit. I broke from his kiss, crying out .

“ I’m sorry. I’m ?—”

Reid cut me off as his mouth stole my rushed apology. One…I wasn’t sure I even meant. I wanted this. Him.

Wider, my legs spread. I couldn’t stop from moaning as I pushed down more into his touch. The side of my panties were pulled over, and I broke away gasping as he eased his finger inside of me.

“Fuck, Taur, I’ve missed you. I knew you missed me. I knew .”

“Reid, we shou—” I cried out as he eased a second finger in with the first.

“Don’t ruin this. We want each other. Need each other.”

The thrusts were deeper, leaving me in a frenzied, coveted desire as he pushed the t-shirt up to begin kissing against my breast. I didn’t want this to stop.

I couldn’t get enough as he sucked my nipple into his mouth.

I wanted to savor every sensation that had me rocking against his fingers faster.

“Yes, need…I need...” I repeated the word, knowing it was delayed by minutes. Barely anything was breaking through as he tugged, sucked, and thrust. I stayed focused on walking the edge of my orgasm, living in every torturous, pleasurable moment.

“Me. That’s what you need, baby. I’ve been waiting for this. Fuck…I… knew .”

He pulled back, going quiet as he grabbed onto my shirt.

I lifted my arms, letting him pull it free the rest of the way.

He immediately went for my panties, peeling them down to remove.

My pulse was thudding so hard in my chest. Fear and arousal battled, but I never stood a chance against my biggest sin.

While I should have sprung from the bed and ran away, I found myself wiggling into the mattress as I gave myself over to the act.

His hands pushed my knees wide, and I watched Reid’s silhouette lower so that he could settle between my thighs.

“You have no idea how long I’ve dreamed of tasting you again.

It’s all I ever think about.” His tongue flattened, licking over my pussy, only to go back to push into my opening.

I gasped just as Reid moaned. “I could die like this. I could never stop.” Another sound, a rumbling. “Fuck, you taste so good.”

My head lifted, and I watched as he began to suck against me.

He kept teasing me with just the right stimulation before moving to something new to change the sensation.

The quick flick to my clit had my entire body jolting, but not for long as he eased a finger inside.

The moment he had it buried, he withdrew it, sucking against his digit.

“Yes. Reid, more. I want more.” I let out a deep sound as he obeyed. I reached for his hair to fist to as he fingered me and teased. I was so close. I was right there. “More. Please.” Another finger stretched me, and he sucked over the sensitive nerves. My mouth flew open, and I arched.

“Be careful what you ask for. You’re going to want this all the time.”

“I want it. Suck, again. Suck, just like before.” And he did, thrusting even harder.

Faster . “I—Fuck F— Reid! ” My body spasmed as my orgasm hit hard.

My legs shook, and I only trembled more as he added more suction to my clit.

A scream left me, and the world disappeared in my moment.

It was just me, Reid, and the sick truth.

I liked the forbidden . I should have been disgusted by it.

“Don’t move, Taur. ”

Hands gripped to my hips as Reid took his time tracing his tongue along and inside my opening.

My brother was treating my pussy like a five-star gourmet meal, and I was letting him.

Maybe I wasn’t even me right now. Was I disassociating so much that I could allow myself to rest here in this heaven while I obviously knew I was going to burn in hell?

I cared, somewhere. But right now, I was free.

Separate from the broken Tauren who had been running from this for years.

“Jesus.” Slowly, Reid rose, leveling his cock against my pussy.

I could have put an end to this if I wanted.

I had the perfect opportunity. But the thing was, just knowing what I really wanted was too good to resist. I was becoming desperate for more, and this wasn’t over until we were finished.

Until I had the proof of our secret filling me up.

“Kiss me.” I reached to the back of his neck, leading his lips to mine. “I want to taste myself on you. I?—”

His tongue thrust into my mouth, and I met it feverishly as I clung around his neck.

“This is supposed to be—you and I.” His length eased inside me, stretching me with every inch. “This pussy has always been mine. You’re always going to be mine .”

“Show me. Make me forget everything but you, right here, right now.” My impatience had me grasping to him tighter. Reid slammed into me, burying so deep I sucked in air through the surprise.

“Did I hurt you?”

“N-No. Don’t stop. It feels good.”

“Yeah?”

I moaned, dismissing his uncertainty as I pressed my lips into his, sealing my contract with doom a little more .

“You’re the only one who has ever made me feel like this. I shouldn’t—we shouldn’t—I know this, it’s just?—”

“It’s right. I’m going to show you that. We’re meant to be, Tauren. No one is better for you than I am.” The thrusts were slow, increasing with every declaration. “I’ll love you. Take care of you. I’ll keep you safe.”

“ Too fast . Just?—”

I wasn’t referring to Reid’s speed and he knew it as he cut me off.

“I’ll go slow. I’ll show you it’s me who you need to be with. But don’t keep this from me. Don’t give it to anyone else either .”

I whimpered, and before I could say more, Reid withdrew his cock, turning me onto my stomach. He straddled my upper thighs, filling me as he lowered his face to the side of mine.

“Reach under and play with your clit. Touch yourself, Taur.”

“You remembered.”

“I remember everything.”

I angled, sliding my hand underneath me so that I could press my fingertips over the top of my pussy.

At the pressure and pleasure, I felt the comforting sense of home cloak around me even more.

It was stupid to cling to a sexual touch as a piece of nostalgia, but hadn’t I found the act empowering?

Emmett didn’t allow me to touch myself during sex.

I got so good at pretending. I didn’t have to pretend anymore.

“You’re going to come again, and we both know this is the fastest way. Every time. It never fails.”

My lids closed, and I turned my face towards Reid’s.

His lips brushed mine as he thrust at almost an agonizing pace.

It barely took time to build myself up with how thick and swollen he stayed.

He was trying to hold off for me. Just knowing that I was close to getting what I wanted left me moving my fingers faster.

“Fuck.” The word elongated as Reid reached under, cupping my breast. He rolled my nipple between his fingers, and I dug my toes into the mattress as I felt my orgasm nearly hit me.

“That’s it, baby. You’re going to come again.

You’ve missed being with me, and I’ve missed you.

But I’m going to make up for it.” Harder, he thrust, slamming forward.

“I’m going to come all in your pussy, and then I’m going to lick it clean. ”

“ Reid . R-eid .”

Spasms hit me hard as I shook through the rolling waves of ecstasy.

“Get used to screaming my name. It’ll be the only one you ever cry out like this again.

” He pounded, leveling even with my ear as his own body jerked and shot after shot of his cum pumped into me.

“From now on, I’m the only one allowed in your pussy.

That’s my cum christening you into our new life .

You’re mine, Tauren. Even if we’re apart. ”

I felt my eyes open, and the dread and questions came barreling back through, convincing me of my fears and what I knew in the deepest, darkest parts of me.

…I didn’t just survive monsters. I created them.