Page 134 of Isolation

Lord forbid if someone was to ruin her perfect track record in front ofhim.

Leave it to Raven to be obsessed with every male in the planet except for me. It’s one thing to hate Asher fucking Huntzburger. But hating my own brother, that’s low.

Well, hate might be a strong word but ever since Raven moved to New York, I strongly dislike Milo.

I, of all people, should know what she wants. But part of knowing Raven is also knowing that she is impossible to read… romantically.

At least I have another target tonight, other than my own goddamn brother.

Fucking Asher Huntzburger.

I can go back to focusing on wanting him dead.

I have tried fucking with his head. I told Asher that Raven is fifteen and has no experience with men.

That asshole didn’t even care.

None of these fuckers care. Men are always fascinated with Raven because she is abnormal.

Yes, weird reason to find a girl attractive, but it’s true.

Raven is not boy crazy. They can’t get a read on her, nor can they figure her out. That’s why they are attracted to her.

She is mysterious.

Men fawn over Raven. I fawn over Raven. And she fawns over Milo.

And now Asher fucking Huntzburger.

God! I hate that stupid asshole and his stupid pretentious assholey name.

Why the hell are we friends with him?

I knew he wanted her. I could see it in his greedy, little beady eyes. The moment Milo started letting us come to these parties, I saw him laser-focused on her.

I can’t compete with Asher or Milo. They are older, authoritative figures.

And if anyone has a daddy complex, it’s Raven.

I have tried to drop hints. I tried to show her in every way what she means to me, but unless Raven is ready to see romantic feelings, she is never going to perceive it that way.

Some people don’t have emotional intelligence. Raven doesn’t have romantic intelligence. She has no clue of the effect she has on men.

The only semi-romantic interest she has displayed is for Milo and even that is confusing. Half the time I can’t pinpoint if it’s sisterly affection or a crush.

It’s not Milo’s fault that Raven follows him around like his lost puppy, but I don’t know where else to direct all of this anger and jealousy.

At least Milo has no interest in Raven. She can want him with all her might, but Milo will never see her as anything more than his little sister like Mia.

Maybe that’s why she wants him so bad. Milo doesn’t pay her attention and struts around with other women. I should just do the same and she will probably want me too.

It’s not Milo or Asher’s fault. This is all my own doing. I was the one who pushed Milo to let us come to these parties.

Raven and I weren’t allowed to do most things without Milo’s supervision and I wanted to show her a good time.

I was the one who told Raven that we needed to make a pact. That we should try our first kisses together by the end of freshman year.

I meant witheach other.