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@Noraephronwasagenius

Maddy, I would hate you if I didn’t love you so much.

Which is, uh, maybe how I feel about him?

@Keanuisadreamboat

WAIT WHAT

You love him?

@Noraephronwasagenius

And hate him.

That part is still true too.

and it feels too soon to say I REALLY love him, but I might????

He fucking lied, guys. And I want to get over it, and I need to know he’s SORRY first, but also: feelings.

And really sorry, not just post-coital, oh fuck I got caught lying sorry.

Idk if he IS and the only way to find out is to ask.

But like, I have some pride here. And if he’s not, that’ll really suck, plus I’m still really pissed at him so basically I have ALL THE FEELINGS AT ONCE.

Congrats Maddy, you distracted me but I also might murder you.

@MadisonHughes95

So long as you kill me before my next chapter is due I won’t even fight you

@Neverthelesskararesisted

But if he reached out and genuinely apologized, you’d consider it?

@Noraephronwasagenius

More or less, yeah.

I’m still not sure how I’d react, but I don’t feel like we have closure.

He might apologize and I’d realize it’s just too much and I can’t forgive him, which is why I can’t reach out and talk to him. That doesn’t seem fair either, you know?

Victoria chewed on her thumbnail. Maddy had sufficiently distracted her, but her stomach still felt like a beehive. Out of habit she clicked refresh on her email and her heart lurched out of her chest. Pa Vang appeared in the “from” field, and with shaking hands she clicked it open.

Dear Victoria,

Thank you for attaching your resumé and expressing your interest in the position. The hiring committee would like to bring you in for an interview next week. We have openings on Monday afternoon and Thursday morning. Please let me know at your earliest convenience what works for you.

Best,

Pa Vang

Human Resources Director

Reproductive Justice