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Bobby laughs.

“So you’re staying through the weekend?” I ask.

“Yeah. I was thinking I might as well have a little vacation away from St. Cloud.”

I clasp my hands with delight. “Excellent! We can go do all the touristy things that I’ve felt too shy to do on my own. And I will help you with the apps.”

When Bobby goes to use the bathroom, I fix his bed in the spare bedroom.

And then I remember I should text Joe.

Liz: Sorry, I have to cancel our thing tomorrow

My brother just came into town

He will be here through Sunday

Joe: Okay. Have fun!

Btw, while I love our nekkid escapades, I will remind you that I wouldn’t mind hanging out while everyone is fully clothed and other people are around

Just in case you want to live dangerously and let me meet your brother

Liz: Look who’s got jokes now

Joe: Coward

Liz: Btw, you were right

About my brother

Whom you will NOT meet

He is gay

Joe: I like it when I’m right

Liz: Don’t get used to it

Joe: Wouldn’t dream of it

I was looking forward to seeing you tomorrow though

Liz: Me too

We’ll get together next week

Joe: Okay. Have fun

Liz: Thanks

Our exchange leaves me anxious and stiff. He’s not happy I won’t see him, and, honestly, I’m not either.

But he keeps throwing out these bids for more, even though he knows I’m not ready. He keeps pushing, nicely and gently, but it’s still pushing and it makes me want to push back. Push him away.

All the way away. ?

Chapter Twelve