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I know you don't see it now, and I know it might be hard for you to ever see it. But I think things are going to work out. At least I hope they will work out, I guess we won't really know until the time comes.

You know you're right. Your dreams will take you back, you will always have that, even if you don't remember it when you wake up. I promise you that somewhere inside, when your eyes close and you fall asleep, you will see your parents again.

You were wondering if I was like you, if I was here because he made me. Well, I am like you in a way, I also wasn't given a choice. Except, I'm here because I have to be, not because he took me, but because I was born into this. I wish I could answer all your questions and give you what you want. I'm sorry I can't.

But I can tell you one thing. I don't know if it will help, but I sit in the right corner because that was where he used to make me sit when I was punished. I guess it's habit and nothing more than that. It's not really my favorite spot, I just go there because I'm used to it.

I hope one day you get the answers you're looking for. And I hope one day we can really be friends, I'd like that. I want you to trust me, I tried not to lie to you, but somethings aren't for me to say.

I know you'll probably never read this letter, not if what he wants to do works. All of this will probably just get burned up, turned into ashes so no one ever sees it. He's out there looking for you now. I'm supposed to go help him after I remove your stuff from this room, but I had to do this first.

If you do get to read this, I just want you to know that I'm sorry.

I'm sorry this happened.

I'm sorry you're scared and confused.

I'm sorry you lost your parents the way you did.

I know it's not really my fault, but I also know my father will never say these things to you. You didn't deserve this and none of this was your fault. So don't ever think that you did something wrong, because you didn't.

I'm also sorry that I read your diary.

I hope you find peace, F. I hope your life goes on and you get everything you wish for.

I hope that we meet on the other side and you don't remember us this way. Because there is so much I feel for you that I can't understand.

All I can do is hope that things will get better for all of us.

—B

Dropping the note, my heart slammed inside my chest. He's always loved me, just like I've always loved him. . .