Page 40 of Husband to Go

Now though, it seems everything’s changed. I want to give her everything: love, a relationship, and even marriage maybe?

Most of all, a family. Preferably one with children tumbling about, and the pitter patter of small feet ringing in my ears at all hours.

How is this possible? It goes against everything I thought I wanted. How can one woman change me so profoundly in such a short amount of time? Meanwhile, Veronica has no idea of my thoughts.

“You look like you’re on another planet,” she giggles.

I’m jolted back to reality by her high-pitched laugh. There’s nothing inherently wrong with it, but it’s been grating on my ears lately. Everything Veronica does has been getting on my nerves more and more lately. Before, I’d just ignore her and move on, but now, I’m seriously annoyed. Calming myself, I lie.

“I’m just thinking,” is my smooth tone. She titters again.

“What are you thinking about? Care to share?”

I give a curt shake.

“Nothing important. You wouldn’t be interested.”

“Well,” she leans over, showing off her sizable breasts, “would you like to take a break from thinking? We could have a lot of fun.”

That seems weird. Veronica made it clear she wants to “save herself” for marriage, which is ironic given that she’s not exactly a first-time bride. So what is she doing now with the seduction?

Moreover, I feel absolutely nothing. Not even the slightest twitch. When this started, Iwassexually attracted to Veronica, but that attraction’s gone up in smoke. I would much rather have someone curvy, fertile and sweet now.

A part of me wants to go back to the old me. The Tanner Logan who played with women, did whatever he wanted and knew who he was.

Now, I’m spiraling and thinking about potentially starting a family with the daughter of my fiancée. Have I gone insane? I smile at her with shuttered eyes.

“Veronica, I’m not sure I’m in mood.” Not for her at least. Next to Kylie, Veronica feels old and dry, and not because of her age. It’s her attitude, and rapacious ways. Then again, maybe I’m so infatuated with Kyliebecauseshe’s new and different to me. The woman’s young and luscious, and the total opposite of my usual cup of tea. What she wants and expects from me makes me believe that I could be a better man.

What has Kylie done to me? Why am I so different now?

I thought this whole thing was just business. Originally, I thought while Veronica was keeping me away from her bed, I could have a little fun. Yeah, it was fucked up of me to choose Kylie as the one to fool around with, but that was a coincidence, at least in the beginning.

But then, it definitely became a conscious choice, and now, I’m all twisted up and confused with no place to go.

“Come on, Tanner. We’re about to get married. Let’s have a little fun,” Veronica giggles.

“I thought you wanted to wait until after?” I ask in an arch voice.

She nods.

“I did, but I changed my mind. I’m allowed to change my mind, right? It’s a woman’s prerogative.” Her fingers brush up my arm. It takes a lot in me not to flinch. I can’t stay here because if I do, I’ll end up rebuffing her, and Veronica will know something is very wrong.

“Veronica, I should head home.”

Her lip pops out, and she crosses her arms.

“Why?” she whines.

“I have a lot of work today. I want to make sure I have it all done before the wedding because we’ll be busy then.”

“Can’t you do it later?” she pouts.

“No. I don’t want to run out of time and you know business is important.”

“Okay,” she still looks upset, but accepts my explanation.

I get up, grateful for the easy out. I’m about to go, but Veronica grabs on to my arm.