Page 60 of Cloudless

THE SHEETS BETWEEN US

LILA

A cloud of apprehension slides over his face as he looks down to where we will soon be joined. I clear my throat as I tighten my hold on his hand. “It’s okay if you want to wait, Kam.”

His eyes flare as his gaze connects with mine. “It’s not that. It’s just, um—” His eyes flick back down to my most intimate area as he struggles to swallow.

“It’s okay. You can tell me whatever it is.”

His worried eyes flick back up to mine. “It’s just that I don’t want to hurt you. I know that’s silly because it’s normal for it to hurt your first time, but I can’t stand the thought of causing you pain.”

I smile as I sit up so I can reach his lips. Some of the tension drains from his body when our lips meet. “It’s alright, Trouble. It will probably hurt the first time. That’s okay. I’m prepared for that.”

He shakes his head as his words flow over my lips. “That doesn’t make it easier.”

My eyes gleam as I pull away. “I have an idea!”

His brows furrow as he searches my face. “That’s sketchy.”

I raise my brows as I move off the bed. “Me having an idea is sketchy?”

“When you have that look in your eye, it is.” He cocks a brow. “Where are you going?”

I point to the spot I just vacated on the bed. “Lay down.”

He complies despite the skepticism in his eyes. “How is this going to be any better?”

The bed dips under his weight as he settles on his bed. His cock juts to the ceiling and hardly moves as he puts his arms behind his head so he can look at me. “If I’m in control, it’s like I’m hurting myself. You can’t be the one hurting me if you’re not the one moving.”

The tension leaves his shoulders as he relaxes against the mattress. “I can live with that.”

My knees struggle to find purchase on the mattress without me falling on top of him.

That’s the last thing I need during my first time.

I can see the headlines now: College hockey star’s girlfriend breaks his penis during their first sexual encounter.

It is unclear if he will continue to play hockey at this time.

Kam raises a brow as his hands circle my waist, as I try to figure out the best way to straddle him from my position beside him on the bed. “What's so funny?”

I wave away his question as I realize for the first time just how large this man is. “Oh, nothing.” I wave my hand in his general direction. “How am I supposed to do… this?”

He shrugs as his fingers dig into my waist. “As long as you don’t hurt yourself, I don’t really care. Just please, put me out of my misery and sit on my cock within the next thirty seconds. You look too damn good above me like this.”

Heat envelopes my face as I put the palms of my hands on his chest for balance. Turns out that was totally unnecessary, because in the next breath, Kam lifts me completely off the bed and deposits me on his chest.

The wetness still present from the magic he worked with his fingers and mouth earlier drips onto his chest. I have never gotten myself to come like that, let alone that quickly.

Kam’s eyes heat as they connect with where my pussy rests on his chest. “Fuck, Sunshine. Look how beautiful you look dripping all over me.” The walls of my pussy clench around nothing as his words wash over me like a sweet summer rain.

“Now sit on me, Lila. I need to feel your pussy wrapped around my cock.”

He helps me lift off his chest enough to position his cock at my entrance. With the first brush of his shaft against my swollen lips, our eyes connect as our breaths stall in our chests.

And as I sink down on him, the pain is consumed by the thought that I can’t imagine a better man to give this part of myself to. I can’t imagine someone more worthy of this connection.

“Are you okay?” The worry never leaves his eyes as I take every inch of him.

A nod of my head will have to be good enough, because I seem to have forgotten how to speak.

Kam’s jaw clenches and his eyes slide closed as I bottom out. “You feel so good.” His eyes are a blazing fire when they open. “Even better than I imagined.” His fingers turn bruising as he tightens his grip on my waist. “You fit perfectly around my cock, Lila.”

The pain fades to be replaced by an all-consuming stretch that feels so right. “I feel so full.”

His eyes blaze even brighter at my words. The world tilts on its axis until I’m lying on my back and Kam’s loving eyes shine above me. The shift of his cock against a bundle of nerves inside me almost takes my breath.

His eyes fall to where we’re joined as a look of satisfaction takes over his face.

“I never thought I would care if who I gave my virginity to was a virgin, but I have to say, knowing no other man has been here is thrilling. Knowing that you gave this part of yourself to me is an honor and a privilege I do not take for granted.” His smirk is fully in place when he looks back up at me.

“With that being said, I’m going to fuck you now, Sunshine. ”

I open my mouth, but don’t have time to utter a word before the delicious drag of his cock against that bundle of nerves inside me strikes me mute. The feeling is so different compared to my clit that it steals my breath.

His eyes alternate between my face and my pussy as he finds a rhythm that has me gasping. With every thrust, I move farther up the bed until my hands against the headboard are a requirement.

I struggle to remember to breathe as Kam continues his relentless rhythm. The sound of skin on skin accompanies our labored breaths. Delicious warmth flows from his fingers as he explores my body like he alone has its map.

His clenched jaw turns to steel as he watches himself disappear into me.

He seems unaware of his mumbled words. “How will I ever leave?” With every thrust, the pleasure at the base of my spine grows.

His eyes leave where we’re joined to flick to mine.

“That’s it. Come for me. I know you’ve got another one in you. ”

I open my mouth in a silent scream as the dam breaks and pleasure washes over me. My pussy grips onto his cock so tightly I’m surprised he can still move.

His thrusts turn choppy and a deep groan follows his release moments after mine fades into a dull pulsing between my legs.

Our labored breaths fill the room as the world comes back into focus. Kam smiles as his arms shake on either side of my head. “Holy fuck.”

I nod my head as I try to catch my breath. “Yeah. Holy fuck.”

The soft kiss he places on my lips is so different from the power he just used on my body.

He shifts to look down at where we’re joined once again. “Are you sore? How badly did it hurt?”

I tighten my legs around his waist to pull him back down to me. “Don’t ruin one of the best moments of my life, Trouble. The pain only lasted a few seconds.”

He nods as he returns my smile. “Good! That’s really good.” His eyes return to where we’re joined before a moan falls from his lips. “When can I have you again?”

My palm smacks against his chest as I playfully shove him. “Is that all you’re going to think about now?”

His smile turns into a full grin. “If by ‘it’ you mean the look on your face when you come? Then yes. Yes, it is.” He doesn’t miss the slight wince that falls from my lips as he pulls out of my body. “I knew it! You can’t hide your pain from me.”

My body feels like Jell-O as the warmth of his skin fades. His eyes never leave me as his bare feet land on the floor with a solid thunk.

“I’m fine! I swear!” His quick kiss on the forehead isn’t nearly enough to satisfy my need for cuddles after such intense orgasms. “And where do you think you’re going?”

I barely register his beaming smile over his shoulder as he walks to the connecting bathroom. I’m far too busy watching the dimple in his right butt cheek wink in and out of existence with every step he takes.

His laughter brings my attention back to his face. “Did you even hear a word I just said?”

With a sheepish smile, I shake my head. “Nope. Not a word.”

The smile never leaves his face as he rolls his eyes. “I said I’m going to take care of the condom and get a warm, wet cloth for me to take care of my girl.” His raised brow only accentuates his smirk. “That alright with you?”

I nod and smile at his retreating form as I settle farther into the comforter.

I don’t take Kam’s gentle touches for granted as he cleans me.

I don’t take his loving kisses for granted as he tucks me under his arm and pulls me close under the warm blankets.

And I don’t take his words for granted as he whispers, “I love you, Sunshine.”

Because at the end of an exhausting day filled with uncertainties, there’s nowhere else I’d rather be.

So, with tired bodies and full hearts, we fall asleep with not even the sheets between us. “I love you, too, Trouble.”