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She chewedher bottom lip.

“But if ithad been something you weren’t into, I wouldn’t have done it again. It’s why Imade you choose a safeword before I even fucked you the very first time. It’salso why I asked if there were things you didn’t like. Hard limits that youwouldn’t even consider. When you said that you were willing to try anythingwithin reason, I showed you what I like and how I am. Sure, we’re still gettingto know each other but I want you to know that you are in control.”

“I do knowthat,” she said, her voice shaking.

“Me callingyou names, slapping and choking you…” I cupped the back of her head, forcingher to look at me once again. “Did that bother you? Your body told me onething, but I need your words to confirm it.”

“No,” shesaid breathily. “I liked it. I liked it all, Sam.”

“What yourhusband did...” I swallowed hard. “It’s people like that who give BDSM a badname. Everyone thinks that it has to do with whips and chains and pain. Sure,sadism and masochism are in the name but that’s not all it is. It’s so muchmore.” I cupped her neck, pushing her head back with my thumb under her chin.“I promise you it’s more. While I love controlling you, dominating anddegrading you…” I kissed her forehead. “And fucking you until you squeal like adamn pig, taking care of you after is my favorite part. And we’ve only juststarted exploring it together. But I’ll teach you. We’ll learn what we bothlike. I’ll teach you everything I know, and we’ll learn even more together. Asa couple.”

Her breathhitched, her eyes welling. “You won’t be mad if there’s something I don’t wantto try or if there is something that Idowant to try and I ask youabout it…it won’t piss you off?”

A sourtaste filled my throat over what Aaron had done to her. That fact alone, thatshe thought it would piss me off if she told me something she wanted to try,made this rage inside of me grow.

“No, itwon’t piss me off.” I released her and stood from the couch. I began pacing,needing to control this urge to drive my fist through the wall.

“Sammy.”

“I justneed a moment.” I rubbed the back of my neck, taking slow deep breaths. “Whydidn’t you leave him after that?” I didn’t want to ask the question when heremotions were still raw and very real, but I needed to know.

“He threatenedto kill my mom and Shawnee if I did.”

I stopped,staring at her. “Are you fucking serious?”

She nodded.“I knew too much that went on in the club. Or he made it seem that way. Afterhe died, I found out that I did actually have some friends in his crew, andthey reassured me that I could leave the city and no one would get hurt. Theywatch out for my mom, and she’s taken them under her wing. She’s kind of likethe mother figure for them even though a lot of them are her age. I just...alot of shit went down before and after Aaron died and I needed out of there.Shawnee and I packed up our apartment and we moved here.”

“Why don’tyou two live together?”

“Uh...” Hercheeks turned pink. “Shawnee likes to have company. A lot of company. And I’drather be by myself. I don’t have the confidence she does. I know it doesn’tmake sense when I used to strip but I had to do a shot or two before each dancejust to get the nerve to step foot onto that stage.”

I went toher, dropping at her feet. I suddenly needed her hands on me, and I couldn’texplain why.

“Hey.” Shecupped my cheek. “I’m fine. A little broken. But I’m okay.”

Before Iknew what I was doing, I had my hand wrapped around the back of her neck and mymouth on hers in a hard, bruising kiss.

She gasped,her body stiffening at the unexpected impact.

While Ishocked my own self that I was finally kissing her, I reveled in the way sheeventually melted into my touch. Our conversation had been heavy as I learnedmore about her, but the fact that she felt she could talk to me made thesefeelings I had for her, grow into something I couldn’t explain. Not that Iwanted to even try at the moment.

I split herlips apart with my tongue, needing to taste every inch of her mouth. I pushedto my feet, wrapped an arm around her middle, and lifted her into my arms.Switching positions, I sat with her straddling my lap.

She brokethe kiss, her lips swollen from my rough mouth. Grabbing the hem of her tanktop, she lifted it up and over her head. Her naked tits swayed at the movement,her nipples erect and hard.

Running myhands up her back, I took a budding peak into my mouth.

She sighed,pushing into me.

Cupping herother breast, I pinched the nipple, sucking and twirling my tongue around theone in my mouth.

Amber moaned,rocking against me. “Sammy, I need you inside me.”

“I don’twant to take advantage.” I released her nipple with a wet pop, sinking my teethinto the pale flesh.

“Yes,” shepanted. “You do.”

Fuckinghell, she knew me well.