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I wish. But no. It’s fine, though. I’ve dealt with it once and I can deal with it again.
The only thing you deserve to be dealing with is how good your life is. I’m sorry it hasn’t turned out that way.
It’s okay. At least I met you in the end.
And that was true. I had a friend. I hadfriends.Even if this thing with Levi blew up in my face, I’d have them.
I’m glad I met you too. I’ll try to talk to you more. I’m sorry I’ve been so MIA.
It’s really fine. I have been too. We’ll catch up on all of it once life slows down.
And I almost couldn’t wait for it. I wouldn’t miss being broke, but once this was over, maybe I should tell him we should meet in person. I may not know what he looked like, but I knew how he made me feel, and I wanted that in my life.
Ineededit.
And the idea of finally getting to know my little pen pal made all of this just a little more worth the heartbreak.
Because when it all ended in fire and pain, I would finally invite V into my life.
Where he belonged.
Chapter Ten
Before I knew it,I was sitting in my bedroom having my makeup put on for my own fake wedding.
Lily was in front of me, her brow creased in concentration while she made me look wedding ready.
For someone who never wore makeup anymore, Lily was incredible at doing it. I hardly recognized myself in the mirror. My skin glowed and my blue eyes popped against the taupe eye shadow she’d applied. The fake lashes she’d delicately put on were uncomfortable but beautiful.
“It looks amazing,” I said.
“It helps that your hair is also perfect. Good job on it.”
“Thanks. It only took me a few hours. But at least it distracted me.”
Lily paused as she put up her brushes. “How do you feel?”
“Nervous as fuck,” I said, blowing out a breath.
“You’re faring better than I did. You’re not throwing up.”
“Instead, I’ll stress eat later when our food is delivered.” Levi and I had agreed on something simple: barbeque. I thought he would go for something fancier, but he continued to surprise me.
“You’ll do fine. After this, you can buy yourself all of the stress food you want.”
“Right. The money. And the other benefits of being married.”
“How did your parents take it?”
I winced. “No idea. I texted them and they didn’t answer.”
Her brows pulled together. “Really?”
“I have no idea if they’ll be here. But they know about it.”
“If they’re likethat,then it might be better if they’re not.”
I only shrugged and checked the time. “I have a few minutes before I’m supposed to walk down the aisle.” My nerves came back tenfold. “Distract me.”