Page 99 of The Cruelest Chaos

He’s just testing me. This is payback, but he’s going to stop.

He’s going to stop.

I stop staring at his neck. I look at his face. And he’s looking right at me as his tongue runs down her belly, over her belly button, to the top of her thong.

No,I want to scream.No.

I think I shake my head, just a little, but it doesn’t matter. He hooks his thumbs into the strap of her underwear, yanks them down her slender legs. And then he grabs her knees, just like he did with me, and he spreads her apart.

His eyes don’t leave mine.

She moans, arching her hips again.

Don’t.

She lowers her hands, makes to pull at the blindfold.

“Don’t,”he warns her, lifting his head.

“Yes,Daddy,whatever you say,” she gasps.

He smiles, his eyes still on mine as he peels her apart with his fingers and she moans again.

“Say it again,” he commands her. “Call meDaddy.”

The girl laughs. He slaps the inside of her thigh, and she quiets. “Sorry, Daddy,” she whispers, “don’t stop.”

I’m going to be sick.

I’m going to throw up all over his bed and she’s going to hear me. And what could be worse than this? Both of them laughing at me. At my jealousy.

Humiliation is the worst punishment. My mom taught me that.

I clamp my jaw together and close my eyes.

I try to find the movie version ofthis.It’s a dream. This isn’t real. This is where I wake up and find him asleep next to me, his arms wrapped around me. And I realize how much I love him.

And he loves me back.

My dream is justtryingto make me jealous, to tell me what my heart already knows. But I’ve already told him what my heart knows.

He denied me.

And this pain?

He wants to see it.

He wants to watch me hurt.

I keep my eyes closed, even though I know his cock is in her now, the way she’s scratching at the sheets, breathing hard and moaning,Mayhem.

Mayhem?

Another secret I don’t know.

I pull my knees up to my chest slowly, so she doesn’t notice, and so she doesn’t touch me.

I keep floating away from here. I’m spinning behind my closed eyes. The movie version isn’t working, but I can be in a different movie. A movie where a girl is chained to a bed and gives herself an out-of-body experience so she can fucking survive.