Page 25 of Somewhere Only We Know (Healing in Cincy #4)

“Hi, everyone, it’s Jax and I’m your host of Life Not Simplified . It’s been a few months since I announced I was introducing new patterns into my life. If this is your first episode of mine, I don’t mean bringing patterns into my wardrobe.

“I got into a rut. A huge rut caused bumps in my personal life. No matter what I would do I would find myself doing the same thing over and over. And I was just unfulfilled.

“So I challenged myself over the summer to do one thing a month, which turned into one new thing a week. I met a new friend at the dog park and I went to a baseball game. This is where I reverted back to my old ways. I saw someone from my past. Someone who took up a huge chunk of my heart when I was younger. You all may be thinking “I know where this is going” and I would tell you that you’re way off base.

It’s hard for me to let people in. As open as I am to those in my life, I’m not as open to those who make a reappearance.

And this person is on the receiving end of my frosty exterior.

“I don’t know how the rest of this challenge will play out.

As soon as I uttered the words that I was doing this, I wanted to take them back.

I still want to take them back. Because doing new things scares the shit out of me.

But I see the messages and comments from you all that you’ve also challenged yourself to introduce new patterns to your routine.

And I’ve never looked at myself as an influencer, but seeing that so many of you needed that push, is the reason why I can’t and won’t give up on this. No matter how hard I want to.

“This is unfortunately a short check-in episode and I hope you all enjoyed it. Four months of this new patterns challenge is done. I hope those of you who are participating, are finding new things that stick. And if you’re terrified of starting right now, remember that there is no set date.

I hope to catch up all on the next episode of Life Not Simplified . Bye, guys.”