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DEX

“Better?” I asked, wrapping a towel around Asa’s shoulders.

He nodded. “Is it just me, or is it getting colder in the apartment? I was freezing last night.”

“It’s not you.” I grabbed a towel for myself and started to dry off.

“Hopefully this cold snap passes.”

“We should do our next show in front of the fireplace.”

“Like in there with it on for warmth, or with the fireplace behind us?” He shot me a questioning look as he pulled the towel from around his shoulders and started to dry off.

“Either one. But it might be nice to have it in the background. Change things up and make sure you don’t freeze your ass off when I’m not on top of you.”

He snorted out a little laugh and hung his towel up next to mine. “My frozen ass appreciates that.”

“Was your room really that cold last night?” I asked as we pulled on our clothes. “Mine was cool, but I’m not the best judge, considering I’m a human heat source when I sleep.”

“And I’m the opposite.” He shot me a wry grin and pulled on a hoodie. “I’m always cold.”

“Was it bad last night?” I asked again. I didn’t like the idea of him being cold.

“Yeah, but not unbearable. I think it’s because I don’t have a door. It keeps the air circulating so none of the heat gets trapped in my room like it does in yours.”

“Sleeping on that cot probably isn’t helping. It’s closer to the floor.”

I ordered him a cot from a furniture store that catered to students and minimalists a few weeks ago because I hated that he was sleeping on an inflatable mattress. It was an improvement, but it wasn’t ideal. The room was too small to put a real bed in it without having to take out either the bookshelf or the dresser, and the lack of a door was becoming more of an issue.

“It’s better than the camping mattress. I’ll just put on more layers.”

“Do you want to sleep in my room?” I asked impulsively.

He froze while pulling his socks on but recovered quickly. “You want me to?”

We hadn’t slept together since that night a few weeks ago, and that was entirely because I was afraid to, not because I didn’t want to. Sleeping in the same bed had shaken something loose inside me, and my crush had turned into a full-blown infatuation.

I’d tried to ignore it, but it was no use. Every time we were on cam together felt real, like we were hooking up as Dex and Asa and not as Jake and Alex. And all the little touches we now shared weren’t helping. He’d been way more open around me since our talk a few weeks ago, and I loved how he didn’t hesitate to touch me and didn’t always wait for me to make the first move.

The more I tried to think of him as my friend and roommate, the harder it was to see him as anything other than the person I was falling for.

I’d tried to ignore it, tried even harder to stop it, but I was falling in love with Asa. And if I was being completely honest with myself, I was already there.

But I couldn’t tell him that, not when I wasn’t sure where he was. I knew he cared about me, and I’d go so far as to say he cared deeply about me, but did that translate to love?

It was messed up, but I wasn’t afraid of being rejected if I told him. It would sting if he didn’t feel the same, but it wouldn’t change my feelings for him. The thing that scared me was pushing him away by pressuring him for more if he wasn’t there.

“Yeah. If you want.”

He smiled shyly. “Yeah. That would be nice.”

“Are you tired?” I asked, opening the door to the bathroom.

We were usually too keyed up after a show to go right to bed, but I wasn’t really in the mood to watch anything.

“Yeah, it was a long day.” He followed me into the hall. “Did you want to go to bed early?”

“If you do.”

I hated how stilted the conversation was and how hard it was to talk about this kind of stuff with him. Things were way better when we talked about other stuff, but we still had issues telling each other what we wanted.

“I think I do.” He raked one hand through his hair. “Do you want me to meet you in your room when I’m ready?”

“Yeah. Sure.” I tapped on my leg absently. “See you in a few?”

“Yeah.” He shot me another shy smile and pointed to the bathroom. “I’ll go first.”

“I’ll go break down my room and put everything away.”

We stared at each other for a few beats, then took off in opposite directions.

It didn’t take long to put our camming equipment away, and by the time I was done in the bathroom, Asa was in my room and sitting on the edge of my bed.

I flicked off the light and closed the door. Asa pulled his hoodie off and lay down. I climbed into bed and settled next to him.

He immediately rolled into me and put his head on my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around him and held him tight.

“This is nice.” He rubbed his cheek against my chest.

“It is.” I cursed my stupid body as my dick went half hard.

We lapsed into silence.

“Why does this have to feel so good?” he whispered, then went stiff like he hadn’t meant to say that out loud.

“I don’t know,” I whispered back. “But it feels right.”

“Yeah.” He sighed softly. “It does.”

My chest squeezed, and I hugged him tighter. I couldn’t tell him I loved him, but maybe I could tell him a little of what I was feeling without spooking him.

“Asa?” I started, my voice coming out thick and raspy.

“Yeah?”

“I know this probably isn’t the right time to do this, but I need to tell you something.”

“What is it?”

“I really like where we are.”

“I like it too,” he said when I paused.

“And I don’t just mean friends or roommates.”

His breath caught, and my heart started galloping in my chest.

“I’ve never felt about anyone the way I feel about you.” I could hear the catch in my voice and a slight wobble that gave away how nervous I was, but I kept going. “I tried to ignore it, but I can’t anymore. I want to be with you, like be your boyfriend. I understand if you don’t feel that way or if you just want to be friends, but I wanted to put that out there in case you felt it too.”

He sucked in a quick breath.

I waited for him to gather his thoughts, my entire body tense with the fear that I’d just fucked everything up.

“I feel it too,” he whispered.

I blew out a breath and hugged him tighter as relief cascaded through me. “You do?”

“Yeah,” he choked out. “I’ve felt it for a while. I just didn’t know what to do about it.”

I let out a relieved chuckle. “Thank god. You have no idea how twisted up I’ve been these past few months.”

“Same.” He pressed a kiss against my chest. “I’ve never wanted anyone, not really. And I convinced myself that night four years ago meant nothing to me, but I never stopped thinking about it.” His breathing hitched. “I never stopped thinking about you.”

“I never stopped thinking about that night either. I spent years trying to erase the memories, trying to convince myself that it was just a mistake or a fluke of circumstance, but deep down I knew it wasn’t.” I kissed his hair again. “I never stopped thinking about you either.”

“So does that mean we’re together?” I asked, needing to hear him confirm it.

“Yes.” He let out the cutest laugh. “This is so surreal. How the fuck did we go from not liking each other to being boyfriends?” He let out another laugh. “Jesus. I have a boyfriend. That’s so weird.”

I laughed with him, the last of my tension bleeding out of me. “Right? I never thought I’d date anyone, ever. And now I’m dating my stepbrother.”

“I mean, same.” He pressed a nibbling kiss against my throat.

“Hmmmmm,” I hummed and turned my head to give him better access.

He took full advantage of it and licked and kissed the sensitive skin. He rubbed his hard dick against my hip. Taking the hint, I pulled him so he lay on top of me.

He let out the cutest sigh and settled on me, his kisses sweet and gentle as he teased my throat.

“Mark me,” I whispered, kneading his ass with my hands.

Eagerly, he bit and sucked on my throat, not pulling away until I was sure he’d left a mark behind.

“I had no idea I was into that.” He dropped a soft kiss over the hickey I could feel forming on my skin.

“Me either.” I squeezed his ass and gently rocked me over him so our hard dicks dragged together. “But it’s hot.”

“So hot,” he agreed.

Asa caught my mouth in a deep kiss, our tongues tangling together as I gave myself over to the moment—and to him.

Still kissing me like his life depended on it, Asa pushed my t-shirt up until it got caught around my chest. I did the same with his, then dragged my hands down the soft skin on his back.

He shuddered and broke the kiss so he could yank his shirt off. As he was tossing it aside, I shifted my body weight and rolled us over so I was on top, my hips between his spread thighs. Reaching behind me, I yanked my shirt off and tossed it over the side of the bed.

“These too.” He tugged on the waistband of my sweats. “Want to feel all of you.”

“Yes, sir,” I teased, pushing up on my knees.

“Jesus, you’re gorgeous.” He stared up at me like I was a work of art or something equally magnificent.

“Yeah?” I tugged the front of my sweats down a few inches and shot him a flirty grin.

“Oh yeah.” He slipped his hands under his head with a grin of his own. “Go ahead, put on a show for me.”

“You want a show?” I arched one eyebrow teasingly.

He nodded and licked his lips in that way that drove me crazy.

“As you wish.”

Striking a pose that was probably ridiculous, I put my hands on my chest, then slowly dragged them over my pecs and down my stomach.

“Damn,” he muttered as I slowly pushed the pants over my hips, exposing my silky black boxer briefs.

“You like what you see?” I rubbed my hand over my cock.

“Is water wet?” He toyed with his tongue stud. “More. I want to see all of you.”

Loving this new side of him, I pushed my sweats down so they sat around my thick thighs, then extended my hand to him.

He took it and let me pull him so he was sitting, his face level with my belly button since I was still up on my knees.

Gently, I cupped the back of his head and pulled him toward my stomach until his lips grazed my treasure trail.

He ran his tongue over my skin and looked up at me.

“Jesus, Asa.” I licked my lips as he pressed soft kisses against my stomach. “You have no idea what that look does to me.”

“Show me.” He flicked his tongue stud against my belly.

He lay back down, and I pulled off the rest of my clothes as he watched with heated eyes.

When I was naked, I lay over him. He immediately slotted our mouths together, his kisses slow and deep as he wrapped his arms and legs around me, locking his body against mine.

I rocked my hips, dragging our dicks together in a tantalizing wave.

I was so turned on. I was rock hard, and my balls were already aching with need. But instead of pushing for more, I sank into the moment and the sensation of having all of him around me.

When he finally broke the kiss, we were both breathing hard.

“Do you want to top tonight?”

Asa froze.

I pulled back and smiled at his bewildered expression.

“Are you sure?” he asked, shaking off his stupor.

I laughed softly and ground my dick against his. “Does this feel like I’m having any doubts?” I lay back over him and pressed a gentle kiss against his lips. “We don’t have to if you don’t want to.”

“I never said that.” He bumped his hips up. “Just don’t judge me too hard if it’s not good.”

“It’ll be good,” I assured him. “Because it’s with you.”

He groaned softly. “You’re going to make me get all sappy and come the second I put my dick in you if you keep saying stuff like that.”

I chuckled. “Kinda like I almost did the first time we hooked up.”

“You did?”

“Oh yeah.” I slipped one hand down the front of his sweats and rubbed his hip. “I had to use every trick in the book to not blow my load within a few seconds. The things I thought about to not come still haunt me, and I left a bruise on my leg from pinching myself so hard.”

“I had no clue.”

“Because I hid it.” I pressed a soft kiss against his lips. “But no more hiding things.”

“No more,” he agreed, his expression serious.

“So, do you want to switch things up?”