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After that she began to figure Abdul out. She guessed that he did not want to be seen as her friend, so she treated him like a stranger in front of others, not chatting to him or smiling at him or seeking his help as she struggled to perform everyday tasks with a wriggling two-year-old in her arms. But sitting beside him on the bus, she talked. Quietly and undramatically, she told him about her childhood, her brothers in Sudan, life beside the shrinking lake, and the death of Salim. She even related the story of the nightclub called Bourbon Street. He said nothing about himself, and she never asked him questions, because she sensed that would be unwelcome, but he often commented on the stories she told, and she felt a growing sympathy.

Now she listened to his soothing low voice, with its Lebanese accent. ‘She took a lock of his hair between her finger and thumb, and he did not wake up, but just snored on. She cut off the lock of hair with the scissors, and still he did not wake up. Then another lock. Snip, snip, went the scissors, and snore, snore, went Samson.’

Her mind went back to the nuns’ school, where she had first heard the Bible stories – Jonah and the whale, David and Goliath, Noah and his ark. She had learned to read and write, divide and multiply, and speak a little French. She had gathered knowledge from the other girls, too, some of whom knew more than she did about adult mysteries such as sex. It had been a happy time. In fact, her whole life had been happy until that awful day when they brought Salim’s cold body home to her. Since then it had been all disappointment and hardship. Would that ever come to an end? Would there be happy days again? Would she get to France?

Suddenly the bus slowed. Looking forward, Kiah saw steam coming out of the front of the vehicle. ‘What now?’ she muttered.

Abdul said: ‘And when he woke up in the morning, his head was nearly bald, and his lovely long hair was on the pillow all around him. And what happened next, we shall find out tomorrow.’

‘No, now!’ said Naji, but Abdul did not answer him.

Hakim stopped the bus and turned off the engine. ‘The radiator has boiled,’ he announced.

Kiah felt scared. The bus had broken down twice before – which was the main reason the trip was already taking longer than expected – but the third time was no less frightening. There was no one nearby, phones did not work, and they rarely saw another vehicle. If the bus could not be fixed, they would all have to walk. Then they would either reach an oasis or drop dead, whichever came first.

Hakim picked up a toolkit and got out of the bus. He opened the hood to look at the engine. Most of the passengers got off to stretch their legs. Naji ran around, getting rid of surplus energy. He had only recently learned to run, and he was proud of his speed.

Kiah and Abdul and several others looked over Hakim’s shoulder at the steaming motor. Fixing old cars and motorcycles was an important activity in the poorer areas of Chad and, although it was a male responsibility, Kiah had picked up some knowledge.

There was no sign of a leak.

Hakim pointed to a snake-like piece of rubber dangling from a pulley. ‘The fan belt has broken,’ he said. Gingerly, he reached into the hot machinery and drew out the rubber. It was black with brownish patches, worn and cracked in places. Kiah could see that it should have been replaced long ago.

Hakim returned to the bus and pulled a large tin box from under his seat. He had produced this during the previous breakdowns. He put the box down on the sand, opened it, and rummaged through assorted spare parts: spark plugs, fuses, a selection of cylinder seals and a roll of duct tape. Hakim frowned and looked through it again.

Then he said: ‘There is no spare fan belt.’

In a low voice Kiah said to Abdul: ‘We’re in trouble.’

‘Not quite,’ he replied, equally quietly. ‘Not yet.’

Hakim said: ‘We will have to improvise.’ He looked at the passengers around him, and fixed his eyes on Abdul. ‘Give me that sash,’ he said, pointing to the cotton strip around Abdul’s waist.

‘No,’ said Abdul.

‘I need to use it as a temporary fan belt.’

‘It won’t work,’ said Abdul. ‘You need something with more grip.’

‘There is a spring pulley that acts as a tensioner.’

‘The cotton would still slip.’

‘I am ordering you!’

One of the guards intervened. Their names were Hamza and Tareq, and it was Tareq, the taller one, who spoke. He addressed Abdul in a voice that quietly indicated that no discussion was invited. ‘Do as he says.’

Kiah would have been terrified, as would most men, but Abdul just ignored Tareq and spoke to Hakim. ‘Your belt would grip better,’ he said.

Hakim’s jeans were held up with a worn brown leather belt.

Abdul added: ‘It’s certainly long enough,’ and everyone laughed, because Hakim’s waist was big.

Angrily, Tareq said to Abdul: ‘You must do as he says!’

Kiah was amazed that Abdul seemed to have no fear of the man with the assault rifle slung over his shoulder. ‘Hakim’s belt will work better,’ Abdul said calmly.

For a moment it looked as if Tareq would unshoulder his rifle and threaten Abdul; but then he seemed to think better of it. He turned to Hakim. ‘Use your belt,’ he said.