Page 37 of Make You Wish You Were Dead

Rowan looks away from me and at Callan. "You can go now. I'm here." My smile leaves my lips and I raise my eyebrows at him and he looks down at me. "What?"

"Stop being jealous."

Rowan's lips lift in a small smirk and he shakes his head lightly.

Rowan leans down and when I feel his lips hover over mine I can't help but feel excitement rush through my veins. "I'm not jealous, fawn. You're mine and I'm territorial," he says at the same time he squeezes my waist in his hands.

I move away from him and laugh."You can't do that here."Rowan rolls his eyes and he pulls me closer to him as he leans against the wall."What are you doing here anyway?"

"I want to see where you work."

"Why?"

"Cause I'm curious. Stop asking so many questions."

My lips form a smile again.

I love how easily Rowan can make me smile.

I feel like I see him differently since he kissed me. I don't want to be the type of girl that fawns over a guy simply from a kiss but it's hard when that guy is Rowan.

I feel a tug on my shirt making me look down and see Ellie."Who is he?"she asks and I look at Rowan who is smiling down at the little girl.

"He is a friend."

Ellie looks at Rowan."What's your name?"

"Rowan."Rowan signs and I feel my heart flutter when I see him do that.

I think that's the first time I have seen Rowan sign and for some reason it makes my heart explode seeing him do that.

"Can you help me beat Johnny in Connect Four? He keeps beating me."

Rowan laughs and he looks at me. I smile at him and nod my head.

"This Johnny kid is going to wish he never met me."Rowan and Ellie walk away to where Johnny is waiting for Ellie to come back.

I see Katlyn walk up to me and I see her eye Rowan."Who's that?"

"A friend."

"A guy who looks like that isn't ever just a friend."

"He is a friend. He can't be more than a friend."

"Sure."Katlyn gives me a ‘that's bullshit’ look but I ignore her and my eyes go to Rowan.

He is laughing and smiling at Ellie who is teasing Johnny.

She is such a diva when it comes to getting her way.

I don't know how long I watch Rowan play with the kids but it feels like time is moving slow when I am watching him. I watch the kids try and climb on him because he is so tall. So many of the kids are trying to sign to him while he just laughs and shakes his head from what the kids are saying.

My mind goes to the future. Ever since Rowan kissed me, I can’t help but overthink.

It’s like my mind is on overdrive and it won’t stop thinking.

I wish it would stop because thinking for me is dangerous.